1 00:00:03,655 --> 00:00:06,655 Ashley: THE LONELINESS MADE ME DETERIORATE, 2 00:00:06,655 --> 00:00:08,793 SO THAT'S WHEN I STARTED MY SECOND ADDICTION -- 3 00:00:08,793 --> 00:00:10,689 CATFISHING PEOPLE ONLINE. 4 00:00:17,034 --> 00:00:20,448 Woman: SOMEWHERE IN ME IS THIS LITTLE GLIMMER OF HOPE. 5 00:00:20,448 --> 00:00:22,586 I JUST WANT TO BE A NORMAL PERSON. 6 00:00:34,034 --> 00:00:37,137 YOU CAN'T DO IT, AND THEN I JUST GET MAD. 7 00:00:37,137 --> 00:00:38,793 Woman IF I DON'T MAKE A CHANGE NOW, 8 00:00:38,793 --> 00:00:40,586 I'M SCARED IT'S GONNA BE TOO LATE. 9 00:00:46,275 --> 00:00:47,655 IT HURTS! 10 00:00:47,655 --> 00:00:50,034 Woman I REFUSE TO STOP FIGHTING. 11 00:00:50,034 --> 00:00:52,241 I HAVE TO DO THIS FOR MY CHILDREN. 12 00:00:58,103 --> 00:00:59,310 YOU'RE NOT FITTIN' TO DISRESPECT ME. 13 00:00:59,310 --> 00:01:00,793 I'VE BEEN NOTHING BUT NICE TO YOUR ASS. 14 00:01:00,793 --> 00:01:03,724 LET'S GO. DON'T TRY ME LIKE THAT. 15 00:01:03,724 --> 00:01:06,000 I WILL TRAMPLE YOUR LITTLE ASS. 16 00:01:06,000 --> 00:01:09,000 --Captions by VITAC-- www.vitac.com 17 00:01:09,000 --> 00:01:11,931 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 18 00:01:37,379 --> 00:01:39,655 THINGS ARE SO DIFFICULT IN MY LIFE NOW 19 00:01:39,655 --> 00:01:43,724 BECAUSE OF HOW BIG I LET MYSELF BECOME 20 00:01:43,724 --> 00:01:46,724 TO WHERE DOING EVERYTHING IS A CHORE FOR ME. 21 00:01:46,724 --> 00:01:50,758 MY WEIGHT PULLS ON ME. IT CAUSES PAIN ALL OVER. 22 00:01:50,758 --> 00:01:55,344 MY ARMS HURT, MY LEGS HURT, EVERYTHING HURTS ON MY BODY. 23 00:01:55,344 --> 00:01:58,137 MY BACK HURTS TREMENDOUSLY, 24 00:01:58,137 --> 00:02:02,172 AND IT MAKES IT VERY DIFFICULT TO DO WHAT I NEED TO DO NOW, 25 00:02:02,172 --> 00:02:06,206 WHICH IS VERY SCARY FOR ME BECAUSE I LIVE ALONE. 26 00:02:06,206 --> 00:02:08,758 THE STRUGGLE I'M HAVING IS STARTING TO STOP ME 27 00:02:08,758 --> 00:02:11,482 FROM TAKING CARE OF MYSELF. 28 00:02:11,482 --> 00:02:14,448 EVEN WITH BASIC THINGS SUCH AS GETTING MYSELF CLEAN 29 00:02:14,448 --> 00:02:17,724 BECAUSE I CAN'T REACH ALL MY FOLDS. 30 00:02:17,724 --> 00:02:20,517 I JUST DON'T HAVE THE ABILITY AT TIMES 31 00:02:20,517 --> 00:02:22,172 BECAUSE OF THE PAIN AND THE FATIGUE 32 00:02:22,172 --> 00:02:25,172 THAT I HAVE AND IT TERRIFIES ME. 33 00:02:25,172 --> 00:02:28,620 IT TERRIFIES ME TO KNOW THAT MY BODY IS STARTING TO SHUT DOWN 34 00:02:28,620 --> 00:02:31,241 AND STARTING TO DECLINE BECAUSE I'M SO YOUNG 35 00:02:31,241 --> 00:02:35,137 AND I SHOULD BE ABLE TO DO ALL THIS STUFF BY MYSELF. 36 00:02:35,137 --> 00:02:36,931 BUT IF I START TO NEED HELP, 37 00:02:36,931 --> 00:02:38,586 I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA DO 38 00:02:38,586 --> 00:02:41,344 BECAUSE THERE'S NO ONE TO HELP ME WITH THIS. 39 00:02:41,344 --> 00:02:43,413 I HAVE NO ONE. 40 00:02:43,413 --> 00:02:47,310 SO NO MATTER HOW HARD IT IS, I DO IT MYSELF, 41 00:02:47,310 --> 00:02:50,448 BUT IT TAKES ME MAYBE A GOOD 20 TO 30 MINUTES TO DO IT. 42 00:02:50,448 --> 00:02:53,655 SO I'M GETTING TO A REALLY BAD PLACE TO WHERE MY SIZE 43 00:02:53,655 --> 00:02:57,034 IS AFFECTING MY LIFE AT THIS POINT, 44 00:02:57,034 --> 00:03:00,448 BUT I KNOW THE PROBLEM BEHIND THAT IS MY EATING. 45 00:03:00,448 --> 00:03:02,862 THAT'S WHY I'M LIKE THIS, 46 00:03:02,862 --> 00:03:05,758 BUT IT'S SOMETHING I'VE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO CONTROL IN MY LIFE 47 00:03:05,758 --> 00:03:08,827 BECAUSE FOOD IS MY GO-TO DRUG. 48 00:03:08,827 --> 00:03:11,034 ANYTIME THERE'S FOOD AROUND ME, 49 00:03:11,034 --> 00:03:14,758 I CAN'T HELP MYSELF BECAUSE I AM ADDICTED TO FOOD. 50 00:03:14,758 --> 00:03:17,551 I CAN'T STOP. FOOD IS AN ADDICTION. 51 00:03:17,551 --> 00:03:19,517 EVERYBODY HAS THEIR ADDICTION OF CHOICE. 52 00:03:19,517 --> 00:03:21,482 MINE JUST SO HAPPENS TO BE FOOD. 53 00:03:26,517 --> 00:03:27,862 IT'S WHAT I USE TO GET ME THROUGH 54 00:03:27,862 --> 00:03:30,103 ALL MY STRUGGLES IN LIFE. 55 00:03:30,103 --> 00:03:33,758 NO MATTER IF IT'S SADNESS, DEPRESSION, 56 00:03:33,758 --> 00:03:35,827 BEING BORED, BEING BY MYSELF, 57 00:03:35,827 --> 00:03:38,241 ANY OF THOSE THINGS WILL TRIGGER ME TO GO EAT 58 00:03:38,241 --> 00:03:40,275 SO THAT I MAKE MYSELF FEEL BETTER. 59 00:03:43,275 --> 00:03:47,206 BECAUSE WHEN I EAT, I FEEL COMPLETE JOY, 60 00:03:47,206 --> 00:03:49,827 AND WHEN I STOP AND THE FOOD IS GONE, 61 00:03:49,827 --> 00:03:52,896 I'M BACK TO THAT DARK HOLE. 62 00:03:52,896 --> 00:03:55,517 SO THAT LEADS ME TO CONSTANTLY WANT TO EAT, 63 00:03:55,517 --> 00:03:58,517 AND IT'S BEEN THAT WAY FOR ME MY WHOLE LIFE. 64 00:03:58,517 --> 00:04:00,620 MY CHILDHOOD WAS A HARD TIME FOR ME. 65 00:04:00,620 --> 00:04:02,620 I GREW UP AS AN ONLY CHILD, 66 00:04:02,620 --> 00:04:04,620 AND IT WAS ONLY ME AND MY MOM AND MY GRANDMA. 67 00:04:04,620 --> 00:04:07,689 IT'S ALWAYS BEEN US THREE SINCE THE DAY I WAS BORN. 68 00:04:07,689 --> 00:04:09,068 I NEVER KNEW MY DAD. 69 00:04:11,931 --> 00:04:13,758 BUT I HAD A LOT OF FEAR WHEN I WAS YOUNG 70 00:04:13,758 --> 00:04:15,862 BECAUSE OF MY MOM'S ILLNESS. 71 00:04:15,862 --> 00:04:20,413 MY MOM WAS BORN WITH EPILEPSY AND SHE WAS CRIPPLED 72 00:04:20,413 --> 00:04:24,586 AND SHE'S BEEN SICK ALL MY LIFE AND ALL HER LIFE. 73 00:04:24,586 --> 00:04:26,379 AND SO WHEN SHE WOULD HAVE SEIZURES, 74 00:04:26,379 --> 00:04:27,931 IT WOULD REALLY TERRIFY ME 75 00:04:27,931 --> 00:04:30,413 BECAUSE I WAS SCARED TO LOSE MY MOM. 76 00:04:30,413 --> 00:04:32,379 AND I LIVED IN CONSTANT FEAR OF THAT, 77 00:04:32,379 --> 00:04:34,517 BUT I WAS ALSO SCARED FOR MYSELF 78 00:04:34,517 --> 00:04:36,068 BECAUSE WHEN I WAS 3 YEARS OLD, 79 00:04:36,068 --> 00:04:39,275 I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH TYPE 2 DIABETES. 80 00:04:39,275 --> 00:04:41,758 LUCKILY FOR ME, MY GRANDMA WAS A NURSE, 81 00:04:41,758 --> 00:04:45,482 SO MY GRANDMA WOULD STEP UP AND SHE WOULD TAKE CARE OF ME. 82 00:04:45,482 --> 00:04:46,931 MY GRANDMA WORKED TWO JOBS. 83 00:04:46,931 --> 00:04:49,206 THAT MEANT SHE WASN'T AROUND A LOT OF TIMES, 84 00:04:49,206 --> 00:04:51,241 SO I WOULD HAVE FREE RANGE OF THE HOUSE, 85 00:04:51,241 --> 00:04:54,310 AND I WAS EATING WHATEVER I WANTED TO EAT. 86 00:04:54,310 --> 00:04:55,551 AND I FEEL LIKE THAT'S WHERE 87 00:04:55,551 --> 00:04:57,103 MY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD STARTED 88 00:04:57,103 --> 00:04:58,827 BECAUSE I STARTED GOING TO FOOD A LOT 89 00:04:58,827 --> 00:05:01,206 TO GET THAT FEELING OF COMFORT. 90 00:05:01,206 --> 00:05:03,103 AND WITH ALL THE EATING, 91 00:05:03,103 --> 00:05:05,482 MY WEIGHT GAIN STARTED SPIRALING OUT OF CONTROL. 92 00:05:07,827 --> 00:05:10,655 AS A KINDERGARTNER, I WAS ALREADY OVER 100 POUNDS, 93 00:05:10,655 --> 00:05:12,517 AND I GAINED EVEN MORE AS I GOT OLDER 94 00:05:12,517 --> 00:05:15,517 BECAUSE EATING BECAME WHAT ME AND MY MOM DID TOGETHER. 95 00:05:15,517 --> 00:05:18,206 WE WOULD GO OUT TO FAST-FOOD RESTAURANTS AROUND TOWN. 96 00:05:18,206 --> 00:05:21,724 THOSE ARE THE BEST MEMORIES OF ME AND MY MOM. 97 00:05:21,724 --> 00:05:25,793 I HAD DOUBLED MY WEIGHT TO 200 BY THE TIME I WAS 7. 98 00:05:25,793 --> 00:05:29,137 SO I GOT REALLY BIG AND EVERYONE TOOK NOTICE OF THAT, 99 00:05:29,137 --> 00:05:31,241 AND I TRIED MY BEST TO LOSE THE WEIGHT, 100 00:05:31,241 --> 00:05:34,275 BUT IT'S JUST FOOD IS LIKE MY ONLY FRIEND. 101 00:05:34,275 --> 00:05:38,482 FOOD IS MY ONLY OUTLET. FOOD COMFORTS ME. 102 00:05:38,482 --> 00:05:41,068 AND THINGS IN MY LIFE KEPT GOING WRONG RIGHT AFTER THAT. 103 00:05:41,068 --> 00:05:43,586 FIRST WHEN I FOUND OUT WHO MY FATHER WAS 104 00:05:43,586 --> 00:05:45,758 BECAUSE WE HAD THIS FAMILY FRIEND, 105 00:05:45,758 --> 00:05:48,137 AND I FOUND OUT THAT HE WAS ACTUALLY MY DAD 106 00:05:48,137 --> 00:05:50,620 WHEN I HAD A DNA TEST. 107 00:05:50,620 --> 00:05:53,517 IT'S LIKE HE IMMEDIATELY JUST CUT ALL TIES. 108 00:05:53,517 --> 00:05:55,172 I NEVER KNEW THIS PERSON WAS MY DAD, 109 00:05:55,172 --> 00:05:59,310 SO FOR ME TO FIND OUT THIS IS MY DAD, IT HURT ME, 110 00:05:59,310 --> 00:06:02,931 AND I USED FOOD TO CARRY ME THROUGH THAT. 111 00:06:02,931 --> 00:06:06,206 BUT IT WAS LIKE ONE THING AFTER THE NEXT WENT WRONG AT THE TIME. 112 00:06:06,206 --> 00:06:08,482 BECAUSE SHORTLY AFTER THAT WAS WHEN 113 00:06:08,482 --> 00:06:11,275 ONE OF MY NEIGHBORS HURT ME. 114 00:06:11,275 --> 00:06:13,758 HE LIVED IN THE APARTMENT ACROSS FROM US, 115 00:06:13,758 --> 00:06:16,517 AND HIS WIFE WOULD ALWAYS SAY, "COME OVER AND GET COOKIES." 116 00:06:16,517 --> 00:06:18,275 AND SO ONE DAY I WENT OVER THERE TO GET A COOKIE, 117 00:06:18,275 --> 00:06:22,000 AND I DIDN'T KNOW SHE WASN'T HOME, AND IT HAPPENED. 118 00:06:22,000 --> 00:06:23,344 HE RAPED ME. 119 00:06:23,344 --> 00:06:26,241 HE TOLD ME IT WAS OUR LITTLE SECRET. 120 00:06:26,241 --> 00:06:30,827 I DIDN'T SPEAK UP ABOUT IT UNTIL ANOTHER GIRL FROM MY TOWN 121 00:06:30,827 --> 00:06:33,551 CAME FORWARD AND TOLD HER PARENTS ABOUT IT. 122 00:06:33,551 --> 00:06:35,793 AND SO THEN THAT'S WHEN MY MOM STARTING ASKING ME, 123 00:06:35,793 --> 00:06:39,724 MY GRANDMA STARTED ASKING ME, "HAS HE EVER TOUCHED YOU?" 124 00:06:39,724 --> 00:06:41,827 AND I WAS LIKE, "WELL, YEAH, HE DID." 125 00:06:41,827 --> 00:06:44,551 AND THEY SAID, "OKAY, THAT'S NOT OKAY." 126 00:06:44,551 --> 00:06:47,827 AND SO HE ENDED UP GOING TO JAIL FOR A LONG TIME. 127 00:06:51,620 --> 00:06:54,103 AND SO AFTER THAT IS WHEN I REALLY NEEDED FOOD 128 00:06:54,103 --> 00:06:57,448 TO TRY AND HELP ME BLOCK IT OUT AND MOVE ON. 129 00:06:57,448 --> 00:06:59,655 SO MY WEIGHT GAIN KEPT GOING 130 00:06:59,655 --> 00:07:04,586 AND I WAS SLOWLY APPROACHING 300 POUNDS BY 10 YEARS OLD. 131 00:07:04,586 --> 00:07:06,068 MY GRANDMOTHER WAS PROBABLY THE ONE 132 00:07:06,068 --> 00:07:08,482 WHO TRIED THE HARDEST TO INTERVENE 133 00:07:08,482 --> 00:07:10,517 TO GET MY EATING UNDER CONTROL. 134 00:07:10,517 --> 00:07:12,931 AND SHE MADE SURE I WASN'T SNEAKING FOOD. 135 00:07:12,931 --> 00:07:15,655 I HAD MY WAYS TO WORK AROUND EVERYTHING SHE DID 136 00:07:15,655 --> 00:07:17,137 AND ALL HER RULES, 137 00:07:17,137 --> 00:07:19,448 SO MY WEIGHT GAIN CONTINUED TO GET OUT OF HAND. 138 00:07:19,448 --> 00:07:20,689 AND WHEN I WAS 12, 139 00:07:20,689 --> 00:07:24,103 I PROBABLY WAS AROUND 330 OR 340 AT THAT TIME. 140 00:07:24,103 --> 00:07:26,862 I JUST WAS HUNGRY ALL THE TIME. 141 00:07:26,862 --> 00:07:29,482 I HAD TO HAVE IT, HAD TO HAVE IT, HAD TO HAVE IT. 142 00:07:29,482 --> 00:07:31,586 AND SO MY SIZE KEPT GETTING WORSE. 143 00:07:31,586 --> 00:07:34,137 AND I HAD GOTTEN UP TO AROUND 400 144 00:07:34,137 --> 00:07:36,275 BY THE TIME I STARTED HIGH SCHOOL. 145 00:07:36,275 --> 00:07:39,034 AND THE BULLYING GOT REAL BAD WITH THE KIDS IN SCHOOL, 146 00:07:39,034 --> 00:07:41,068 SO THEN I WAS LIKE, "YOU KNOW WHAT? 147 00:07:41,068 --> 00:07:42,310 I'M JUST GONNA STAY IN THE HOUSE. 148 00:07:42,310 --> 00:07:43,655 IF I STAY IN THE HOUSE, THEY CAN'T TALK ABOUT ME 149 00:07:43,655 --> 00:07:45,413 BECAUSE THEY CAN'T SEE ME." 150 00:07:45,413 --> 00:07:48,689 SOME DAYS, I WOULDN'T EVEN GO TO SCHOOL. 151 00:07:48,689 --> 00:07:52,413 AT THIS TIME IN MY LIFE, I BECAME A HOMEBODY. 152 00:07:52,413 --> 00:07:55,000 I DIDN'T SEE ANYONE OUTSIDE OF SCHOOL WHEN I WENT, 153 00:07:55,000 --> 00:07:56,413 JUST MY MOM. 154 00:07:56,413 --> 00:07:58,862 SHE WAS THE ONLY PERSON CONSISTENT IN MY LIFE, 155 00:07:58,862 --> 00:08:01,172 BUT THAT CHANGED WHEN I WAS 16, 156 00:08:01,172 --> 00:08:03,931 BECAUSE THAT'S WHEN SHE HAD A SEIZURE 157 00:08:03,931 --> 00:08:06,137 AND SHE FELL OUT THE CHAIR. 158 00:08:06,137 --> 00:08:08,068 AND MY AUNT FOUND HER, 159 00:08:08,068 --> 00:08:10,034 AND WE HAD TO RUSH HER TO THE HOSPITAL. 160 00:08:10,034 --> 00:08:12,586 IT TURNED OUT THAT MY MOM NEEDED LONG-TERM CARE. 161 00:08:12,586 --> 00:08:15,689 SHE HAD GO IMMEDIATELY TO A NURSING HOME. 162 00:08:15,689 --> 00:08:18,172 SO THAT'S WHERE SHE'S BEEN THE LAST 10 YEARS. 163 00:08:18,172 --> 00:08:19,620 MY MOM NEVER GOT TO COME HOME. 164 00:08:19,620 --> 00:08:22,137 BUT WHEN I FOUND OUT, "OKAY, SHE'S NOT COMING HOME," 165 00:08:22,137 --> 00:08:24,689 IT TOOK A TOLL ON ME, LIKE, I WANTED TO DIE. 166 00:08:27,896 --> 00:08:29,724 SO I TURNED TO FOOD. 167 00:08:29,724 --> 00:08:32,517 MY MOM IS GONE, MY DAD NOT GIVE A ABOUT ME. 168 00:08:32,517 --> 00:08:35,172 LET ME JUST EAT. 169 00:08:35,172 --> 00:08:39,068 BUT OVER THE NEXT YEAR, NOT ONLY IT'S MADE ME DETERIORATE, 170 00:08:39,068 --> 00:08:41,482 BUT THAT'S WHEN I STARTED MY SECOND ADDICTION -- 171 00:08:41,482 --> 00:08:43,827 CATFISHING PEOPLE ONLINE. 172 00:08:43,827 --> 00:08:46,827 I CREATE THESE FAKE PROFILES ON SOCIAL MEDIA 173 00:08:46,827 --> 00:08:48,620 AND PRETEND TO BE SOMEONE ELSE. 174 00:08:48,620 --> 00:08:50,758 AND THAT LED TO STARTING THESE RELATIONSHIPS 175 00:08:50,758 --> 00:08:52,931 WITH PEOPLE WHO DON'T KNOW IT'S ME. 176 00:08:52,931 --> 00:08:56,482 AND DOING THAT, YOU KNOW, HAS BECOME AN ADDICTION FOR ME. 177 00:08:56,482 --> 00:08:59,793 BUT FOOD AND EATING HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY MAIN ADDICTION. 178 00:08:59,793 --> 00:09:02,000 SO I WAS ABLE TO FINISH HIGH SCHOOL, 179 00:09:02,000 --> 00:09:04,275 BUT MY WEIGHT HAD GOTTEN SO BAD BY THEN 180 00:09:04,275 --> 00:09:07,689 THAT I WAS 500 POUNDS AT MY GRADUATION. 181 00:09:07,689 --> 00:09:10,655 AND AFTER HIGH SCHOOL, ALL I DID FOR A WHILE WAS STAY AT HOME 182 00:09:10,655 --> 00:09:13,758 AND EAT TO FORGET ABOUT MY LIFE. 183 00:09:13,758 --> 00:09:15,965 BUT AFTER A COUPLE YEARS, THINGS CHANGED 184 00:09:15,965 --> 00:09:18,793 AND GOT EVEN WORSE FOR ME WHEN I WAS 20, 185 00:09:18,793 --> 00:09:21,241 BECAUSE MY GRANDMA WAS DIAGNOSED WITH CANCER, 186 00:09:21,241 --> 00:09:23,827 AND THAT WAS DEVASTATING TO ME. 187 00:09:23,827 --> 00:09:25,103 I COULDN'T TAKE IT, 188 00:09:25,103 --> 00:09:27,103 BECAUSE IT WAS HURTFUL SEEING IN HER IN PAIN. 189 00:09:27,103 --> 00:09:28,586 IT WAS HURTFUL SEEING HER FIGHT A BATTLE 190 00:09:28,586 --> 00:09:31,344 THAT SHE MAY OR MAY NOT WIN. 191 00:09:31,344 --> 00:09:32,655 AND SHE DIDN'T. 192 00:09:32,655 --> 00:09:36,931 MY GRANDMA PASSED AWAY BEFORE MY 21st BIRTHDAY. 193 00:09:36,931 --> 00:09:39,965 BESIDES MY MOM, SHE'S THE ONLY PERSON THAT'S EVER LOVED ME. 194 00:09:39,965 --> 00:09:41,137 THE NIGHT MY GRANDMA PASSED AWAY, 195 00:09:41,137 --> 00:09:43,103 I JUST WANTED -- I WANTED FAST FOOD. 196 00:09:43,103 --> 00:09:46,896 AND I JUST REMEMBER GETTING PIZZA AND CHICKEN, 197 00:09:46,896 --> 00:09:48,896 JUST SEVERAL DIFFERENT COMFORT FOODS 198 00:09:48,896 --> 00:09:51,103 TO LAST ME ALL THROUGH THE NIGHT. 199 00:09:51,103 --> 00:09:53,103 SO I KEPT EATING FOR COMFORT. 200 00:09:53,103 --> 00:09:56,931 BUT SHORTLY AFTER THAT, I HAD TO MOVE OUT OF MY GRANDMA'S PLACE. 201 00:09:56,931 --> 00:09:59,827 BUT I HAD ALSO MET SOMEONE ONLINE WHO I HAD GOT REAL WITH, 202 00:09:59,827 --> 00:10:02,172 AND HE SAID I COULD MOVE IN WITH HIM. 203 00:10:02,172 --> 00:10:04,310 SO WE GOT TOGETHER REALLY BRIEFLY, 204 00:10:04,310 --> 00:10:06,103 BUT HE WAS AN EXTREMELY ABUSIVE PERSON 205 00:10:06,103 --> 00:10:08,448 AND HE WOULD HIT ME AND TELL ME THINGS LIKE, 206 00:10:08,448 --> 00:10:10,482 "YOU'RE NOT GOING ANYWHERE, YOU'RE SO FAT, 207 00:10:10,482 --> 00:10:11,965 NO ONE IS GONNA WANT YOU. 208 00:10:11,965 --> 00:10:14,137 I'M ALL YOU GOT. YOUR OWN FAMILY DON'T WANT YOU." 209 00:10:14,137 --> 00:10:16,103 SO HE ABUSED ME A LOT WITH MY WEIGHT, 210 00:10:16,103 --> 00:10:18,310 BECAUSE HE WAS A FEEDEE, 211 00:10:18,310 --> 00:10:20,103 AND HE LOOKS FOR PEOPLE THAT ARE OVERWEIGHT 212 00:10:20,103 --> 00:10:22,655 SO THAT HE CAN FEED THEM MORE FOOD. 213 00:10:25,137 --> 00:10:26,931 SO I KNEW I COULDN'T STAY THERE. 214 00:10:26,931 --> 00:10:29,724 I PICKED UP THE CLOTHES, PUT THEM IN THE CAR, 215 00:10:29,724 --> 00:10:31,206 AND I DIDN'T LOOK BACK. 216 00:10:31,206 --> 00:10:32,586 I WENT TO A SHELTER. 217 00:10:32,586 --> 00:10:36,827 I HAD TO GET MY NUMBER CHANGED SO HE COULDN'T FIND ME. 218 00:10:36,827 --> 00:10:39,827 BUT ONCE I GOT TO THE SHELTER, 219 00:10:39,827 --> 00:10:42,620 I WAS IN A ROOM WITH FOUR OTHER PEOPLE, 220 00:10:42,620 --> 00:10:45,379 AND I MET FRIENDS, I MADE FRIENDS, YOU KNOW? 221 00:10:47,172 --> 00:10:49,862 SO THINGS GOT A LITTLE BETTER, AND I WAS HAPPY ABOUT THAT. 222 00:10:49,862 --> 00:10:51,379 BUT BEING ON MY OWN WAS HARD, 223 00:10:51,379 --> 00:10:53,758 BECAUSE I COULDN'T WORK FOR MY SIZE. 224 00:10:53,758 --> 00:10:55,551 SO I COULDN'T AFFORD TO GET A PLACE TO LIVE 225 00:10:55,551 --> 00:10:58,482 UNTIL I WAS ABLE TO GET DISABILITY. 226 00:10:58,482 --> 00:11:02,620 BUT ONCE I WAS ABLE TO DO THAT IS WHEN I GOT MY OWN PLACE. 227 00:11:02,620 --> 00:11:03,965 SO NOW I LIVE ON MY OWN 228 00:11:03,965 --> 00:11:07,103 AND I DON'T HAVE TOO MANY PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. 229 00:11:07,103 --> 00:11:08,896 MY NEIGHBORS ARE MY CLOSEST FRIENDS, 230 00:11:08,896 --> 00:11:12,379 QUENTON AND DIERRA, AND THEY ALL HELP ME OUT A LOT, 231 00:11:12,379 --> 00:11:15,448 AND I'M THANKFUL FOR THEM. 232 00:11:15,448 --> 00:11:18,379 OKAY. ORDER MY FOOD. 233 00:11:18,379 --> 00:11:22,275 12 PIECE CHICKEN, LARGE MACARONI AND CHEESE, 234 00:11:22,275 --> 00:11:27,068 LARGE OKRA, AND LARGE MASHED POTATO. 235 00:11:28,551 --> 00:11:30,655 AND NOW I'M 24 YEARS OLD 236 00:11:30,655 --> 00:11:32,931 AND MY WEIGHT IS UNKNOWN AT THE MOMENT. 237 00:11:32,931 --> 00:11:35,275 IT'S OUT OF CONTROL NOW. 238 00:11:35,275 --> 00:11:38,724 I FEEL TRAPPED INSIDE MY BODY, I FEEL TRAPPED INSIDE MY HOUSE. 239 00:11:38,724 --> 00:11:40,620 THIS IS NOT HEALTHY. 240 00:11:40,620 --> 00:11:44,206 AND I KNOW I NEED TO CHANGE SO IT DOESN'T GET WORSE. 241 00:11:44,206 --> 00:11:47,689 I NEED TO CHANGE EVERYTHING FROM MY FOOD TO MY PROFILES, 242 00:11:47,689 --> 00:11:49,862 AND MY CATFISHING TO MEET PEOPLE, 243 00:11:49,862 --> 00:11:52,965 BECAUSE OF HOW THAT'S HURTING MY LIFE AND OTHERS. 244 00:11:52,965 --> 00:11:55,448 I HAD RECENTLY GOT CALLED OUT FOR IMPERSONATING SOMEONE 245 00:11:55,448 --> 00:11:57,000 ON THE INTERNET. 246 00:11:57,000 --> 00:12:01,241 AND I HOPE PEOPLE KNOW THAT I NEVER MEANT TO HURT ANYONE. 247 00:12:01,241 --> 00:12:02,896 THAT WAS NEVER MY INTENTIONS. 248 00:12:02,896 --> 00:12:04,344 HAD I WOULD HAVE KNOWN IT WAS GONNA GET OUT OF CONTROL 249 00:12:04,344 --> 00:12:06,379 LIKE THIS, I WOULD HAVE NEVER DONE IT. 250 00:12:06,379 --> 00:12:10,103 BUT IT HAPPENED AND NOW I GOT TO LIVE WITH IT. 251 00:12:11,793 --> 00:12:15,758 I OWNED UP TO IT AND I DEALT WITH IT IN THE BEST WAY I COULD, 252 00:12:15,758 --> 00:12:17,758 AND I'M MOVING FORWARD. 253 00:12:17,758 --> 00:12:19,413 BUT I KNOW IT UPSET A LOT OF PEOPLE, 254 00:12:19,413 --> 00:12:22,310 AND MY FAMILY FOUND OUT, 255 00:12:22,310 --> 00:12:25,758 AND IT WAS AN EMBARRASSMENT TO THEM, TOO. 256 00:12:25,758 --> 00:12:30,275 MOST OF THEM, I DON'T TALK TO MUCH NOW BECAUSE OF IT. 257 00:12:30,275 --> 00:12:32,724 AND I DIDN'T REALIZE DOING SOMETHING LIKE THAT 258 00:12:32,724 --> 00:12:36,413 WOULD HAVE SUCH AN EFFECT ON MY FAMILY, 259 00:12:36,413 --> 00:12:38,413 BECAUSE NOW THEY'RE HURT, AND I NEVER WANT MY FAMILY 260 00:12:38,413 --> 00:12:40,689 TO BE HURT BY ANYTHING I DO. 261 00:12:40,689 --> 00:12:43,827 AND SO THAT'S A PART OF MY LIFE I WANT TO CHANGE, TOO, 262 00:12:43,827 --> 00:12:46,068 BUT IT'S EXTREMELY HARD TO STOP, 263 00:12:46,068 --> 00:12:50,034 BECAUSE I MEAN, YOU GET ADDICTED TO DOING THAT. 264 00:12:50,034 --> 00:12:51,586 SO I HAVE A LOT OF ADDICTIONS IN MY LIFE 265 00:12:51,586 --> 00:12:54,482 THAT AREN'T HEALTHY THAT I KNOW I NEED TO CHANGE, 266 00:12:54,482 --> 00:12:56,896 AND THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE IS MY EATING. 267 00:12:56,896 --> 00:13:00,241 THAT'S WHAT'S GONNA KILL ME SOON IF I DON'T FIX THAT. 268 00:13:00,241 --> 00:13:02,413 SO I HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO HIT THE STOP BUTTON, 269 00:13:02,413 --> 00:13:04,448 BECAUSE I KNOW IF I DON'T MAKE THAT CHANGE, 270 00:13:04,448 --> 00:13:07,275 I'M NOT GONNA LIVE TO SEE MY 25th BIRTHDAY. 271 00:13:07,275 --> 00:13:11,517 I'M 24 YEARS OLD, AND I DON'T LIVE LIKE A 24-YEAR-OLD. 272 00:13:11,517 --> 00:13:13,965 I HAVE SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO. 273 00:13:13,965 --> 00:13:17,103 I WANT TO GET MARRIED, I WANT TO HAVE KIDS, 274 00:13:17,103 --> 00:13:19,862 AND MY MOM WANTS THAT FOR ME BEFORE SHE GETS OLDER 275 00:13:19,862 --> 00:13:21,862 AND BEFORE I LOSE HER. 276 00:13:21,862 --> 00:13:23,758 I FEEL GUILTY EVERY DAY, 277 00:13:23,758 --> 00:13:26,793 BECAUSE I'M TRADING IN BOTH OUR LIVES FOR FOOD, 278 00:13:26,793 --> 00:13:29,896 AND IT'S GETTING WORSE TO WHERE I'M SLOWLY DIGGING MY GRAVE 279 00:13:29,896 --> 00:13:31,758 EVERY TIME I TAKE A BITE. 280 00:13:31,758 --> 00:13:34,448 WITH EACH BITE, I'M KILLING MYSELF. 281 00:13:34,448 --> 00:13:36,103 AND EVERY TIME I GO TO BED AT NIGHT, 282 00:13:36,103 --> 00:13:39,172 THAT'S A 50/50 CHANCE 283 00:13:39,172 --> 00:13:42,310 THAT I'M NOT GONNA WAKE UP THE NEXT MORNING. 284 00:13:42,310 --> 00:13:45,413 AND MY BIGGEST FEAR IS MY MOM HAVING TO BURY ME, 285 00:13:45,413 --> 00:13:49,413 BECAUSE SHE WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO RECOVER FROM THAT. 286 00:13:49,413 --> 00:13:51,000 I'M ALL SHE GOT. 287 00:13:53,241 --> 00:13:55,103 BUT I'VE TRIED FOR YEARS TO GET HELP, 288 00:13:55,103 --> 00:13:57,586 TO LOSE THE WEIGHT, AND HAVE A BETTER LIFE, 289 00:13:57,586 --> 00:13:59,551 BUT I FOUND NOWHERE WILLING TO HELP ME, 290 00:13:59,551 --> 00:14:01,344 SO I'M DOWN TO MY LAST HOPE. 291 00:14:01,344 --> 00:14:04,551 I'M TRYING TO GET HELP FROM DR. NOW. 292 00:14:04,551 --> 00:14:06,103 I MADE AN APPOINTMENT FOR NEXT MONTH 293 00:14:06,103 --> 00:14:08,034 TO GO DOWN THERE AND SEE HIM. 294 00:14:10,137 --> 00:14:12,793 AND I'M GONNA TRY TO START DIETING NOW 295 00:14:12,793 --> 00:14:15,620 TO LOSE AS MUCH AS I CAN BEFORE I GO 296 00:14:15,620 --> 00:14:18,137 AND SHOW HIM THAT I'M READY FOR SURGERY NOW. 297 00:14:20,758 --> 00:14:22,862 I HAVE TO GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY TO LIVE, 298 00:14:22,862 --> 00:14:25,068 AND I'M READY TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES FOR ME, 299 00:14:25,068 --> 00:14:27,862 BECAUSE I KNOW THIS IS IT FOR ME. 300 00:14:27,862 --> 00:14:29,000 THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE. 301 00:14:29,000 --> 00:14:30,965 AFTER THIS, IF THIS DOESN'T WORK, 302 00:14:30,965 --> 00:14:34,137 I'M DONE. PUT A FORK IN ME, I'M DONE. 303 00:14:34,137 --> 00:14:37,931 SO I NEED TO GET DR. NOW'S HELP AND THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 304 00:14:37,931 --> 00:14:41,724 BECAUSE AT THIS RATE, I'M GOING TO DIE WITHOUT REALLY LIVING, 305 00:14:41,724 --> 00:14:43,517 AND I CAN'T LET THAT HAPPEN. 306 00:15:06,793 --> 00:15:09,689 Ashley: TODAY I HAVE MY APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW, 307 00:15:09,689 --> 00:15:11,586 AND I'M HOPING IT GOES WELL. 308 00:15:11,586 --> 00:15:15,241 I STARTED WORKING ON LOSING WEIGHT FOR THE PAST FEW WEEKS 309 00:15:15,241 --> 00:15:17,206 TO TRY TO LOSE AS MUCH AS I CAN, 310 00:15:17,206 --> 00:15:19,620 TO SHOW HIM I'M ALREADY VERY SERIOUS 311 00:15:19,620 --> 00:15:22,068 AND READY FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 312 00:15:22,068 --> 00:15:23,241 BUT I'M JUST NERVOUS 313 00:15:23,241 --> 00:15:25,689 BECAUSE THIS IS GONNA BE A LONG TRIP FOR ME, 314 00:15:25,689 --> 00:15:28,517 WITH HIM BEING THREE TO FOUR HOURS AWAY. 315 00:15:28,517 --> 00:15:31,965 MY NEIGHBORS QUENTON AND DIERRA ARE DRIVING ME DOWN TO HOUSTON. 316 00:15:34,724 --> 00:15:37,310 AND I HAVE A LOT OF THOUGHTS RACING THROUGH MY HEAD, 317 00:15:37,310 --> 00:15:40,931 LIKE WHAT COULD GO WRONG DOING THIS? 318 00:15:40,931 --> 00:15:42,551 BUT I'M PUTTING MYSELF THROUGH THIS TRAVEL 319 00:15:42,551 --> 00:15:44,172 AND RISK GOING OUT BECAUSE, 320 00:15:44,172 --> 00:15:47,827 IF I DON'T GET THE HELP NOW, IT'S GONNA ONLY GET WORSE. 321 00:15:47,827 --> 00:15:49,965 IT'S BETTER TO CATCH IT HEAD ON 322 00:15:49,965 --> 00:15:52,068 THAN WAIT UNTIL SOMETHING BAD HAPPENS 323 00:15:52,068 --> 00:15:55,551 BECAUSE I'M NOT GOING TO GET TRAPPED IN MY HOUSE. 324 00:15:55,551 --> 00:15:57,137 SO I JUST WANT TO GET ON THE ROAD SOON 325 00:15:57,137 --> 00:16:00,931 BEFORE MY MIND HAS A CHANCE TO KEEP RACING WITH FEARS. 326 00:16:10,586 --> 00:16:11,551 HEY. Ashley: HEY. 327 00:16:11,551 --> 00:16:13,137 WHAT'S GOING ON, ASH? YOU READY? 328 00:16:13,137 --> 00:16:14,448 HEY, YOU ALL.HEY. 329 00:16:14,448 --> 00:16:15,862 YOU READY? 330 00:16:15,862 --> 00:16:17,689 YOU ALL READY FOR THE TRIP? 331 00:16:17,689 --> 00:16:19,793 YES, HOW DO YOU FEEL? 332 00:16:19,793 --> 00:16:21,241 I'M -- I'M NERVOUS. 333 00:16:21,241 --> 00:16:26,965 JUST THINK ABOUT THE POSITIVE AND, YOU KNOW... 334 00:16:26,965 --> 00:16:29,758 WE'RE GOING ON THIS TRIP TO SUPPORT ASHLEY. 335 00:16:29,758 --> 00:16:32,931 JUST HOPE WE HAVE A SAFE TRIP 336 00:16:32,931 --> 00:16:34,965 AND SHE GETS THE HELP THAT SHE NEEDS. 337 00:16:40,551 --> 00:16:43,310 Quenton: I'M HELPING ASHLEY BECAUSE EVERYBODY DESERVES 338 00:16:43,310 --> 00:16:47,896 SOMEONE THAT BELIEVES WHEN NOBODY ELSE WILL BELIEVE. 339 00:16:47,896 --> 00:16:51,758 WHAT WORRIES ME IS, I KNOW IT'S A LONG DRIVE, 340 00:16:51,758 --> 00:16:54,758 AND ONCE YOU SIT FOR A WHILE, EVERYTHING IS STARTING TO HURT. 341 00:16:54,758 --> 00:16:58,000 SO, WE'RE TRYING TO GET ASHLEY THERE FAST ENOUGH 342 00:16:58,000 --> 00:16:59,965 AND AS COMFORTABLE AS POSSIBLE 343 00:16:59,965 --> 00:17:02,931 BECAUSE, IN A WAY, THIS IS THE LAST CHANCE FOR ASHLEY 344 00:17:02,931 --> 00:17:05,724 TO POSSIBLY CHANGE THE OUTCOME OF HER LIFE. 345 00:17:34,586 --> 00:17:37,344 Ashley: WE FINALLY MADE IT TO HOUSTON. 346 00:17:37,344 --> 00:17:40,517 AND MY ANXIETY IS STARTING TO KICK IN A LOT MORE NOW 347 00:17:40,517 --> 00:17:43,620 BECAUSE I'M NERVOUS ABOUT MEETING DR. NOWZARADAN. 348 00:17:43,620 --> 00:17:46,310 I HAVE A MILLION THOUGHTS WHY HE WOULDN'T WANT TO WORK WITH ME. 349 00:17:46,310 --> 00:17:48,413 AND IF HE DOESN'T TAKE ME ON AS A PATIENT, 350 00:17:48,413 --> 00:17:51,413 THERE'S NO OTHER OPPORTUNITY FOR ME TO GET HELP. 351 00:17:57,896 --> 00:18:00,034 ASHLEY. 352 00:18:00,034 --> 00:18:04,206 THE LAST TIME I WAS WEIGHED, I WAS 630 POUNDS. 353 00:18:04,206 --> 00:18:05,931 AND I'VE BEEN WORKING REALLY HARD TO GET THAT 354 00:18:05,931 --> 00:18:08,862 AS LOW AS I CAN IN PREPARATION OF THIS DAY 355 00:18:08,862 --> 00:18:10,517 AND MEETING DR. NOW 356 00:18:10,517 --> 00:18:13,724 TO INCREASE MY CHANCES OF BEING HIS PATIENT ON THIS PROGRAM. 357 00:18:15,482 --> 00:18:19,275 AND I'M CURIOUS TO SEE WHERE I'M AT NOW. 358 00:18:19,275 --> 00:18:22,034 486. 359 00:18:22,034 --> 00:18:23,482 OH, WOW. 360 00:18:27,103 --> 00:18:29,482 I'M EXCITED ABOUT THAT WEIGHT. 361 00:18:29,482 --> 00:18:32,344 AND I FEEL REALLY GOOD ABOUT MYSELF SEEING THAT PROGRESS 362 00:18:32,344 --> 00:18:34,965 AND HAVING SUCH A BIG DROP ALREADY. 363 00:18:34,965 --> 00:18:37,793 SO I FEEL LIKE I'M ALREADY OFF TO A VERY GOOD START, 364 00:18:37,793 --> 00:18:41,068 AND I'M HOPING THAT'S A FACTOR DR. NOW WILL CONSIDER FOR ME 365 00:18:41,068 --> 00:18:43,965 AND MAYBE APPROVE ME FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY TODAY 366 00:18:43,965 --> 00:18:46,000 BECAUSE I'M VERY READY FOR IT. 367 00:18:50,137 --> 00:18:51,931 HELLO? HELLO. 368 00:18:51,931 --> 00:18:53,068 HOW ARE YOU? 369 00:18:53,068 --> 00:18:54,517 I'M GOOD. 370 00:18:54,517 --> 00:18:55,551 I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. 371 00:18:55,551 --> 00:18:57,103 I'M ASHLEY. 372 00:18:57,103 --> 00:18:59,034 ASHLEY TAYLOR, HUH?YES, THAT'S ME. 373 00:18:59,034 --> 00:19:01,137 ALRIGHT, NICE TO MEET YOU. 374 00:19:01,137 --> 00:19:03,344 SO YOU COMING FROM WHERE? 375 00:19:03,344 --> 00:19:04,689 TEMPLE, TEXAS. 376 00:19:04,689 --> 00:19:07,517 TEMPLE, TEXAS, IT'S ABOUT THREE HOURS AWAY, HUH? 377 00:19:07,517 --> 00:19:08,689 MM-HMM. 378 00:19:08,689 --> 00:19:11,034 SO WHAT BROUGHT YOU TO HOUSTON? 379 00:19:11,034 --> 00:19:14,310 I WANT HELP GETTING THE WEIGHT OFF. 380 00:19:14,310 --> 00:19:17,137 OKAY. SO WHAT IS THE HIGHEST WEIGHT YOU HAVE BEEN? 381 00:19:17,137 --> 00:19:19,793 I'VE BEEN 630 BEFORE. 382 00:19:19,793 --> 00:19:21,413 BUT MY GRANDMA PASSED AWAY, 383 00:19:21,413 --> 00:19:23,275 SO I WENT THROUGH DEPRESSION. 384 00:19:23,275 --> 00:19:26,275 AND SO I KIND OF LIKE LOST IT BECAUSE OF THE DEPRESSION, 385 00:19:26,275 --> 00:19:28,862 I WASN'T REALLY EATIN. AND ANYTHING, 386 00:19:28,862 --> 00:19:31,827 I WAS JUST IN A DARK PLACE. 387 00:19:31,827 --> 00:19:36,206 SO DEPRESSION LED YOU TO LOSE 150 POUNDS? 388 00:19:36,206 --> 00:19:37,655 YES, SIR. 389 00:19:37,655 --> 00:19:41,034 ALRIGHT, THAT'S USUALLY THE OPPOSITE OF HOW IT GOES, 390 00:19:41,034 --> 00:19:43,000 SO THAT'S INTERESTING. 391 00:19:43,000 --> 00:19:44,413 YEAH, I KNOW. 392 00:19:44,413 --> 00:19:46,793 I THINK THAT'S JUST DIFFERENT WITH ME. 393 00:19:46,793 --> 00:19:50,620 OKAY. WELL, ACCORDING TO YOUR MEDICAL BACKGROUND, 394 00:19:50,620 --> 00:19:53,931 YOU HAVE DIABETES. 395 00:19:53,931 --> 00:19:55,620 I HAVE DIABETES, YES, SIR. 396 00:19:55,620 --> 00:19:59,068 AND YOU ARE TAKING MEDICINE FOR HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE, 397 00:19:59,068 --> 00:20:00,310 FOR CHOLESTEROL, 398 00:20:00,310 --> 00:20:02,724 FOR ARTHRITIS AND MIGRAINE, TOO? 399 00:20:02,724 --> 00:20:04,448 YES, SIR. 400 00:20:04,448 --> 00:20:07,034 SO YOU LIVE WITH ANYONE OR ALONE? 401 00:20:07,034 --> 00:20:08,241 I LIVE ALONE. 402 00:20:08,241 --> 00:20:11,379 OKAY. BEFORE THAT, WHO WAS IN YOUR HOUSEHOLD? 403 00:20:11,379 --> 00:20:12,896 MY MOM AND MY GRANDMA. 404 00:20:12,896 --> 00:20:15,758 ANY OF THEM TELL YOU HOW TO EAT THEN WHEN YOU DID? 405 00:20:15,758 --> 00:20:17,482 YEAH, THEY DID. 406 00:20:17,482 --> 00:20:19,310 AND HOW DID THAT WORK? 407 00:20:19,310 --> 00:20:21,620 IT DID NOT WORK OUT. 408 00:20:21,620 --> 00:20:24,413 SO DO YOU HAVE ANY RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR MOM? 409 00:20:24,413 --> 00:20:26,724 UM...WE... 410 00:20:26,724 --> 00:20:29,000 IT'S ROCKY BETWEEN US. 411 00:20:29,000 --> 00:20:31,413 OKAY. DO YOU HAVE ANY RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR DAD? 412 00:20:31,413 --> 00:20:32,413 NO. 413 00:20:32,413 --> 00:20:33,965 NO RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR DAD. 414 00:20:33,965 --> 00:20:35,793 DO YOU HAVE ANY BROTHERS AND SISTERS? 415 00:20:35,793 --> 00:20:37,862 I HAVE A SISTER. WE DON'T TALK. 416 00:20:37,862 --> 00:20:40,068 YOU DON'T GET ALONG OR WHAT? 417 00:20:40,068 --> 00:20:42,655 WE JUST DON'T -- WE DON'T COMMUNICATE. 418 00:20:42,655 --> 00:20:45,793 SO, DO YOU HAVE ANY BOYFRIEND OR ANYBODY? 419 00:20:45,793 --> 00:20:48,724 NO, I'M SINGLE. ALRIGHT. 420 00:20:48,724 --> 00:20:52,448 SO YOU GOT NO SUPPORT SYSTEM TO HELP YOU EXCEPT YOURSELF? 421 00:20:52,448 --> 00:20:55,172 I MEAN, I HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE BUT TO DO THAT. 422 00:20:55,172 --> 00:20:58,862 SO YOU EAT AT HOME OR YOU EAT OUT? 423 00:20:58,862 --> 00:21:01,724 MOST OF THE TIME I EAT OUT BECAUSE I DON'T COOK. 424 00:21:01,724 --> 00:21:04,965 SO ON A TYPICAL DAY, WHAT DO YOU EAT OUT? 425 00:21:04,965 --> 00:21:08,793 NORMALLY I EAT, LIKE, FAST FOOD. 426 00:21:08,793 --> 00:21:11,000 OKAY. WHAT DO YOU GET TO EAT? 427 00:21:13,103 --> 00:21:16,758 NORMALLY IT'S JUST, LIKE, TWO OR THREE THINGS. 428 00:21:16,758 --> 00:21:18,965 WHEN YOU EAT NEXT? 429 00:21:18,965 --> 00:21:20,344 AT 6:00. 430 00:21:20,344 --> 00:21:22,896 AND 6:00, WHERE DO YOU GO TO EAT? 431 00:21:22,896 --> 00:21:26,172 I ORDER PIZZA OR CHINESE. 432 00:21:28,206 --> 00:21:31,206 DID ANYBODY TELL YOU THAT PIZZA AND CHINESE 433 00:21:31,206 --> 00:21:34,034 AND FAST FOOD WERE NOT PART OF YOUR DIET? 434 00:21:34,034 --> 00:21:36,413 NO, BECAUSE NO ONE'S EVER AROUND. 435 00:21:36,413 --> 00:21:39,275 OKAY. SO WHAT DO YOU DO MOST OF THE DAY? 436 00:21:39,275 --> 00:21:41,137 NOTHING, WATCH TV. 437 00:21:41,137 --> 00:21:42,379 AND I DO SOCIAL-MEDIA STUFF. 438 00:21:42,379 --> 00:21:44,793 LIKE I'D BE TALKING TO MY FRIENDS. 439 00:21:44,793 --> 00:21:47,655 ON SOCIAL MEDIA, TALKING TO YOUR FRIENDS? 440 00:21:47,655 --> 00:21:49,310 YES. YES, SIR. 441 00:21:49,310 --> 00:21:50,275 AND THAT'S IT? 442 00:21:50,275 --> 00:21:51,586 YES, SIR. 443 00:21:51,586 --> 00:21:53,413 YOU'RE LAUGHING ABOUT IT, 444 00:21:53,413 --> 00:21:56,724 SO WHAT ELSE IS GOING ON THAT YOU'RE NOT TELLING ME? 445 00:21:56,724 --> 00:21:59,517 UM... 446 00:21:59,517 --> 00:22:01,931 THE CATFISHING. 447 00:22:01,931 --> 00:22:05,551 SO, DO YOU HAVE A GOAL IN YOUR LIFE? 448 00:22:05,551 --> 00:22:08,931 NOT REALLY, NOT AT THE MOMENT, NO. 449 00:22:08,931 --> 00:22:10,448 ALRIGHT. 450 00:22:10,448 --> 00:22:14,137 SO THE HELP THAT YOU NEED FROM US IS GUIDANCE. 451 00:22:14,137 --> 00:22:15,724 SO WE ARE GOING TO GIVE IT TO YOU. 452 00:22:15,724 --> 00:22:18,655 STARTING WITH A 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY DIET, 453 00:22:18,655 --> 00:22:20,827 WHICH IS HIGH-PROTEIN, LOW-CARB DIET, 454 00:22:20,827 --> 00:22:22,344 THAT WILL BREAK DOWN WHAT TO DO, 455 00:22:22,344 --> 00:22:24,103 WHAT NOT TO DO WITH YOUR EATING HABIT. 456 00:22:24,103 --> 00:22:27,827 TO UNDERSTAND WHAT THE PROPER NUTRITION IS, OKAY? 457 00:22:27,827 --> 00:22:29,724 DO YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT? 458 00:22:29,724 --> 00:22:31,206 YES, SIR. 459 00:22:31,206 --> 00:22:33,517 OKAY. SO NEXT THING IS, 460 00:22:33,517 --> 00:22:35,724 I WANT YOU TO START DOING SOME EXERCISE. 461 00:22:35,724 --> 00:22:37,103 DO YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT? 462 00:22:37,103 --> 00:22:38,275 YES, SIR. 463 00:22:38,275 --> 00:22:41,068 OKAY. AND IF YOU START DOING YOUR EXERCISE 464 00:22:41,068 --> 00:22:45,344 AND CHANGING EATING HABIT ACCORDING TO WHAT WE GIVE YOU, 465 00:22:45,344 --> 00:22:47,000 YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO START LOSING 466 00:22:47,000 --> 00:22:49,448 ABOUT 20 POUNDS A MONTH. OKAY? 467 00:22:49,448 --> 00:22:51,896 AND IF YOU DO THAT AND SHOW ME 468 00:22:51,896 --> 00:22:53,655 THAT YOU'RE TAKING THIS SERIOUSLY, 469 00:22:53,655 --> 00:22:55,689 WE WILL CONSIDERING MOVING AHEAD 470 00:22:55,689 --> 00:22:58,068 WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY FOR YOU, OKAY? 471 00:22:58,068 --> 00:22:59,448 YES, SIR. 472 00:22:59,448 --> 00:23:01,448 SO I WANT TO SEE YOU IN ONE MONTH, 473 00:23:01,448 --> 00:23:03,448 AND YOU NEED TO LOSE 20 POUNDS BY THEN. 474 00:23:03,448 --> 00:23:05,413 OKAY. OKAY? 475 00:23:05,413 --> 00:23:07,793 SO ULTIMATELY, YOUR EATING DISORDER 476 00:23:07,793 --> 00:23:10,896 NEED TO BE CORRECTED BY YOU WITH FOLLOWING THIS DIET. 477 00:23:10,896 --> 00:23:13,379 AND DOWN THE ROAD, IT MAY TAKE SOME OTHER TOOLS 478 00:23:13,379 --> 00:23:15,655 TO HELP YOU WITH LIFE PSYCHOTHERAPY. 479 00:23:15,655 --> 00:23:17,172 YOU THINK THAT WOULD BE HELPFUL FOR YOU 480 00:23:17,172 --> 00:23:21,448 TO SEE PROFESSIONAL PEOPLE TO TALK TO? 481 00:23:21,448 --> 00:23:23,827 NO, NOT REALLY. WHY? 482 00:23:23,827 --> 00:23:26,482 I DON'T THINK I NEED A PSYCHIATRIST. 483 00:23:26,482 --> 00:23:29,448 ALRIGHT, WELL, WE'LL DISCUSS THIS MORE AS WE GO, 484 00:23:29,448 --> 00:23:31,517 AND WE'LL SEE HOW YOU'RE DOING, OKAY? 485 00:23:31,517 --> 00:23:32,758 YES, SIR. 486 00:23:32,758 --> 00:23:34,655 ALRIGHT. ANY QUESTIONS? 487 00:23:34,655 --> 00:23:35,896 NO, SIR. 488 00:23:35,896 --> 00:23:39,000 OKAY. ANYTHING ELSE YOU HAVEN'T TOLD ME? 489 00:23:39,000 --> 00:23:40,310 NO. THAT'S IT. 490 00:23:40,310 --> 00:23:42,862 OKAY. BUT FOR MOST OF WHAT YOU SAID, 491 00:23:42,862 --> 00:23:44,310 THE ENTIRE TIME YOU'RE HERE, 492 00:23:44,310 --> 00:23:46,724 YOU NEVER MADE EYE CONTACT WITH ME. 493 00:23:46,724 --> 00:23:49,482 SO IS THAT BECAUSE 494 00:23:49,482 --> 00:23:53,103 YOU'RE A PATHOLOGICAL LIAR OR WHAT? 495 00:23:53,103 --> 00:23:55,413 BECAUSE I'M NERVOUS. 496 00:23:55,413 --> 00:23:57,551 YOU'RE NERVOUS. MM-HMM. 497 00:23:57,551 --> 00:23:59,827 OKAY. EVEN NERVOUS PEOPLE, 498 00:23:59,827 --> 00:24:01,379 WHEN THEY TALK TO SOMEBODY, THEY HAVE -- 499 00:24:01,379 --> 00:24:04,206 I HAVE ANXIETY. I'M NERVOUS. I'M SORRY. 500 00:24:04,206 --> 00:24:06,724 ALRIGHT. WE'LL SEE YOU NEXT MONTH, OKAY? 501 00:24:06,724 --> 00:24:07,793 BYE-BYE. 502 00:24:07,793 --> 00:24:09,793 IF YOU NEED ANYTHING, LET ME KNOW. 503 00:24:16,103 --> 00:24:19,103 Dr. Nowzaradan: RIGHT NOW, I HAVE A NUMBER OF CONCERNS ABOUT ASHLEY, 504 00:24:19,103 --> 00:24:21,586 BECAUSE A LOT OF WHAT SHE SAYS DOESN'T ADD UP 505 00:24:21,586 --> 00:24:25,344 OR MAKE MUCH SENSE, AND HER BEHAVIOR ALSO INDICATES 506 00:24:25,344 --> 00:24:28,482 SHE'S NOT BEING COMPLETELY TRUTHFUL TO ME ABOUT EVERYTHING, 507 00:24:28,482 --> 00:24:30,206 BECAUSE SHE SAYS SHE ALREADY LOST 508 00:24:30,206 --> 00:24:31,862 A SIGNIFICANT AMOUNT OF WEIGHT, 509 00:24:31,862 --> 00:24:35,551 AND THAT'S BECAUSE HER EMOTIONS MAKE HER WANT TO EAT LESS. 510 00:24:35,551 --> 00:24:37,758 SO IT'S IMPORTANT I GET HER RECORDS 511 00:24:37,758 --> 00:24:40,413 TO DETERMINE WHAT HER MEDICAL HISTORY IS 512 00:24:40,413 --> 00:24:43,517 AND IF THE ACCOUNT SHE GAVE FOR HER WEIGHT LOSS IS ACCURATE 513 00:24:43,517 --> 00:24:46,551 AND IF SHE WAS EVER WERE 630 POUNDS. 514 00:24:46,551 --> 00:24:49,517 BUT FOR NOW, WE WILL GIVE HER THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT, 515 00:24:49,517 --> 00:24:51,931 AND IF SHE MEETS THE SIMPLE GOAL OF WEIGHT LOSS 516 00:24:51,931 --> 00:24:54,896 I GAVE HER, THEN WE WILL CONSIDER NEXT STEPS 517 00:24:54,896 --> 00:24:57,379 AND WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY WITH HER. 518 00:24:57,379 --> 00:25:01,965 BUT IF SHE DOESN'T, THERE MAY BE SOME SIGNIFICANT ISSUES WITH HER 519 00:25:01,965 --> 00:25:05,034 THAT WILL NEED TO BE ADDRESSED IN PSYCHOTHERAPY. 520 00:25:05,034 --> 00:25:06,379 FROM WHAT SHE SAYS, 521 00:25:06,379 --> 00:25:09,413 SHE HAS BURNED MOST OF THE BRIDGES WITH HER FAMILY, 522 00:25:09,413 --> 00:25:11,965 SO THERE'S LIKELY A CONSISTENT ISSUE 523 00:25:11,965 --> 00:25:15,689 BETWEEN ALL OF THEM THAT INVOLVES ASHLEY'S BEHAVIOR, 524 00:25:15,689 --> 00:25:17,344 BUT IT'S GONNA BE VERY IMPORTANT 525 00:25:17,344 --> 00:25:20,241 THAT WE START TO GET HER WEIGHT DOWN AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE, 526 00:25:20,241 --> 00:25:23,000 BECAUSE SHE ALREADY HAS A NUMBER OF MEDICAL ISSUES 527 00:25:23,000 --> 00:25:24,689 ADDING STRAIN TO HER BODY. 528 00:25:24,689 --> 00:25:26,655 AND IF SHE DOESN'T START TO TAKE STEPS 529 00:25:26,655 --> 00:25:28,206 TO TURN THINGS AROUND SOON, 530 00:25:28,206 --> 00:25:31,724 HER SITUATION CAN GET VERY DANGEROUS VERY QUICKLY. 531 00:25:33,551 --> 00:25:34,793 Y'ALL READY? 532 00:25:39,896 --> 00:25:41,655 I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL AT THIS POINT. 533 00:25:41,655 --> 00:25:44,448 I FEEL LIKE THE DOCTOR DIDN'T TAKE ME SERIOUS. 534 00:25:44,448 --> 00:25:47,103 I FEEL LIKE HE DIDN'T THINK I WANTED IT WHEN I DID WANT IT, 535 00:25:47,103 --> 00:25:50,068 AND THAT'S HURTFUL, AND THAT'S NOT FAIR. 536 00:25:50,068 --> 00:25:51,586 BUT NO MATTER HOW NEGATIVE HE WAS, 537 00:25:51,586 --> 00:25:53,793 I WAS VERY RESPECTFUL TO HIM 538 00:25:53,793 --> 00:25:57,620 TO SHOW HIM HOW SERIOUS I AM ABOUT DOING THIS. 539 00:25:57,620 --> 00:25:59,931 AND THE PROGRESS I'VE MADE LETS ME KNOW 540 00:25:59,931 --> 00:26:03,241 THAT DOING ANOTHER 20 POUNDS SHOULD BE EASY FOR ME. 541 00:26:05,137 --> 00:26:08,931 SO THAT'S GONNA BE MY FOCUS FOR THE NEXT MONTH. 542 00:26:08,931 --> 00:26:11,000 SO THAT WHEN I COME BACK THE NEXT TIME, 543 00:26:11,000 --> 00:26:14,965 I CAN BE SURE TO GET MY APPROVAL THEN, 544 00:26:14,965 --> 00:26:16,517 BECAUSE WITHOUT WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 545 00:26:16,517 --> 00:26:19,896 I KNOW I'M NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO MAKE IT AND CHANGE MY EATING. 546 00:26:36,034 --> 00:26:37,689 Ashley: IT'S BEEN ABOUT TWO WEEKS 547 00:26:37,689 --> 00:26:39,586 SINCE MY FIRST APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW. 548 00:26:39,586 --> 00:26:40,655 YOU KNOW, RIGHT AFTER, 549 00:26:40,655 --> 00:26:42,551 I STRUGGLED SOME FROM BEING FRUSTRATED 550 00:26:42,551 --> 00:26:43,862 BECAUSE I DIDN'T GET THE SURGERY 551 00:26:43,862 --> 00:26:46,896 I NEEDED WHAT I KNOW I'M READY FOR IT. 552 00:26:46,896 --> 00:26:49,896 BUT ONCE I GOT HOME, AND I TOOK EVERYTHING IN, 553 00:26:49,896 --> 00:26:51,482 I READ ALL THE PAPERWORK HE GAVE ME, I WAS LIKE, 554 00:26:51,482 --> 00:26:53,275 "I CAN DO THIS." 555 00:26:53,275 --> 00:26:55,379 WHAT UP, WHAT UP, WHAT UP? YOU READY TO EAT? 556 00:26:55,379 --> 00:26:57,827 YEAH, I'M READY FOR LUNCH, SOMETHING QUICK. 557 00:26:57,827 --> 00:27:00,724 ALRIGHT. 558 00:27:00,724 --> 00:27:03,068 SO I'VE BEEN MAKING ADJUSTMENTS TO LOSE THE 20 POUNDS 559 00:27:03,068 --> 00:27:08,068 I NEED TO SHOW DR. NOW AN EXAMPLE OF MY HARD WORK. 560 00:27:08,068 --> 00:27:13,827 I HAVE MADE DRAMATIC CHANGES. I DON'T EAT FAST FOOD ANYMORE. 561 00:27:13,827 --> 00:27:17,310 I DON'T EAT FRIED FOODS ANYMORE. 562 00:27:17,310 --> 00:27:19,758 AND I'VE ALWAYS MADE SURE I HAVE THE FOOD 563 00:27:19,758 --> 00:27:23,103 I LIKE AROUND ME, AND I STILL HAVE STASHES AROUND MY HOUSE. 564 00:27:23,103 --> 00:27:26,586 I'M NOT GONNA LIE. BUT I HAVEN'T TOUCHED THEM, 565 00:27:26,586 --> 00:27:29,241 AND I FEEL MYSELF GETTING BETTER WITH THAT, YOU KNOW? 566 00:27:34,793 --> 00:27:36,620 MY BODY IS CHANGING IN WAYS 567 00:27:36,620 --> 00:27:38,724 I NEVER THOUGHT IT WAS ABLE TO DO, 568 00:27:38,724 --> 00:27:41,206 AND I FEEL LIKE THE EXERCISE IS HELPING ME, TOO, 569 00:27:41,206 --> 00:27:43,862 BECAUSE I'M MOVING AROUND AS MUCH AS I CAN. 570 00:27:46,482 --> 00:27:49,275 SO I'M FOLLOWING EVERYTHING DR. NOW GAVE ME TO FOLLOW, 571 00:27:49,275 --> 00:27:50,586 AND I'M FEELING REALLY GOOD. 572 00:27:55,862 --> 00:27:57,793 WANT ME TO GET YOU MY RANCH OR NO? 573 00:27:57,793 --> 00:28:00,137 NO, IT'S OKAY. I'M GOOD. 574 00:28:00,137 --> 00:28:01,241 THE GOOD THING ABOUT SALAD, 575 00:28:01,241 --> 00:28:03,482 YOU CAN HAVE AS MUCH AS YOU WANT, SO... 576 00:28:03,482 --> 00:28:06,620 BUT I FEEL LIKE A RABBIT. 577 00:28:09,137 --> 00:28:11,758 AND SO MY HOPE IS THAT THIS TIME, 578 00:28:11,758 --> 00:28:13,448 WHEN I GO BACK IN TWO WEEKS, 579 00:28:13,448 --> 00:28:16,206 HE TAKES ME MORE SERIOUS AND HE APPROVES ME FOR SURGERY, 580 00:28:16,206 --> 00:28:18,862 BECAUSE I NEED IT AND I'M MORE THAN READY FOR IT. 581 00:28:33,172 --> 00:28:35,724 I'VE COME BACK DOWN TO HOUSTON FOR MY NEXT APPOINTMENT 582 00:28:35,724 --> 00:28:38,620 AND I'M HOPING THAT THIS ONE IS A BETTER OUTCOME, 583 00:28:38,620 --> 00:28:40,758 BUT I'VE CHANGED UP MY WHOLE LIFESTYLE 584 00:28:40,758 --> 00:28:43,551 TO GET TO DR. NOW'S GOAL. 585 00:28:43,551 --> 00:28:47,586 I MADE A LOT OF CHANGES AND I'M FEELING GOOD ABOUT THINGS. 586 00:28:47,586 --> 00:28:50,000 YOU KNOW, I CAN FEEL MY PROGRESS 587 00:28:50,000 --> 00:28:53,689 AND THAT I'M VERY READY FOR MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 588 00:28:53,689 --> 00:28:55,344 I'M JUST HOPING TO HEAR THAT I DID GOOD 589 00:28:55,344 --> 00:28:57,620 AND THAT HE SEES THE PROGRESS THAT I'VE BEEN MAKING 590 00:28:57,620 --> 00:29:00,379 BECAUSE I'VE REALLY BEEN TRYING SINCE I LAST SEEN HIM. 591 00:29:03,000 --> 00:29:06,551 ASHLEY? 592 00:29:06,551 --> 00:29:07,586 AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT, 593 00:29:07,586 --> 00:29:10,689 I HAD DROPPED DRASTICALLY TO 486. 594 00:29:10,689 --> 00:29:15,068 MY WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL I WAS GIVEN WAS TO LOSE 20 POUNDS, 595 00:29:15,068 --> 00:29:17,655 SO I SHOULD BE AT 466 FOR THAT. 596 00:29:24,206 --> 00:29:26,793 476. 597 00:29:26,793 --> 00:29:30,310 THANK YOU. 598 00:29:30,310 --> 00:29:34,379 I FEEL LIKE THAT'S A GOOD DROP, REALLY GOOD. 599 00:29:34,379 --> 00:29:37,448 I FEEL HAPPY ABOUT THAT NUMBER, THAT MEANS IT'S COMING DOWN. 600 00:29:37,448 --> 00:29:39,827 IT MAKES ME HAPPY BECAUSE I'VE BEEN PUTTING IN A LOT OF WORK. 601 00:29:39,827 --> 00:29:42,344 IT'S GOOD TO SEE THE NUMBER 602 00:29:42,344 --> 00:29:44,620 BECAUSE IT'S ACTUALLY COMING OFF. 603 00:29:44,620 --> 00:29:48,344 I'M LIKE, "OH, MY GOD, I'M MAKING PROGRESS." 604 00:29:48,344 --> 00:29:50,310 HOPEFULLY DR. NOW SEES THAT, TOO, 605 00:29:50,310 --> 00:29:53,137 AND SEES HOW SERIOUS I AM 606 00:29:53,137 --> 00:29:55,103 AND APPROVES ME FOR SURGERY TODAY. 607 00:29:57,793 --> 00:29:59,241 HELLO. Ashley: HELLO. 608 00:29:59,241 --> 00:30:01,275 HOW ARE YOU TODAY?I'M GREAT. HOW ARE YOU? 609 00:30:01,275 --> 00:30:03,655 I'M DOING OKAY. SO HOW HAVE YOU BEEN? 610 00:30:03,655 --> 00:30:05,620 I'VE BEEN GREAT. 611 00:30:05,620 --> 00:30:08,689 ALRIGHT, SO YOU LOST LIKE 10 POUNDS? 612 00:30:08,689 --> 00:30:10,241 YES, SIR. 613 00:30:10,241 --> 00:30:12,724 THAT'S NOT AS MUCH AS YOU SHOULD HAVE. 614 00:30:12,724 --> 00:30:15,689 TELL ME WHAT KIND OF CHANGES YOU MADE IN YOUR EATING HABIT. 615 00:30:15,689 --> 00:30:18,689 I STOPPED EATING OUT, LIKE YOU TOLD ME TO. 616 00:30:18,689 --> 00:30:21,103 OKAY.I STOPPED DRINKING SODA. 617 00:30:21,103 --> 00:30:22,758 OKAY. AND NOW I'M COOKING 618 00:30:22,758 --> 00:30:25,137 AND I'M DOING THE PAPER THAT YOU GAVE ME. 619 00:30:25,137 --> 00:30:26,172 I'VE BEEN FOLLOWING ALL THE STUFF 620 00:30:26,172 --> 00:30:27,896 AND I'M WORKING OUT NOW. 621 00:30:27,896 --> 00:30:31,068 OKAY, SO THAT'S A GOOD STARTING POINT. 622 00:30:31,068 --> 00:30:33,310 BUT MY CONCERN IS THAT EVEN THOUGH YOU MADE 623 00:30:33,310 --> 00:30:35,172 SOME ADJUSTMENT IN YOUR EATING HABIT, 624 00:30:35,172 --> 00:30:38,620 YOU'RE STILL EATING 4,000 TO 5,000 CALORIES A DAY. 625 00:30:38,620 --> 00:30:40,206 WHAT WE CAN DO NOW IS 626 00:30:40,206 --> 00:30:42,413 WE'RE GONNA GET YOU TO SEE A THERAPY, 627 00:30:42,413 --> 00:30:45,482 SEE IF WE CAN WORK WITH YOU ON SOME THINGS. 628 00:30:45,482 --> 00:30:47,137 SO I WANT YOU TO START THAT. 629 00:30:47,137 --> 00:30:49,137 I KNOW YOU DON'T THINK YOU NEED IT, 630 00:30:49,137 --> 00:30:51,137 BUT IT'S GONNA BE PART OF THIS PROCESS 631 00:30:51,137 --> 00:30:53,068 IF YOU WANT TO DO THIS. 632 00:30:53,068 --> 00:30:54,965 SO DO YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT? 633 00:30:54,965 --> 00:30:56,068 YES, SIR. 634 00:30:56,068 --> 00:30:57,379 ALRIGHT. ANY QUESTIONS? 635 00:30:57,379 --> 00:30:58,689 NO, SIR. 636 00:30:58,689 --> 00:31:01,827 OKAY. YOU NEED TO TAKE THIS MORE SERIOUSLY, ASHLEY, 637 00:31:01,827 --> 00:31:04,965 BECAUSE YOU STILL HAVE A VERY HIGH BMI. 638 00:31:04,965 --> 00:31:09,137 NORMAL BODY MASS INDEX IS 18 TO 25. 639 00:31:09,137 --> 00:31:10,379 YES. 640 00:31:10,379 --> 00:31:12,827 SO A BMI OF 86 IS VERY HIGH. 641 00:31:12,827 --> 00:31:14,896 YES, SIR. 642 00:31:14,896 --> 00:31:18,103 IT'S VERY IMPORTANT, AS YOUNG AS YOU ARE, 643 00:31:18,103 --> 00:31:22,034 THAT WE GET YOU TO UNDERSTAND 644 00:31:22,034 --> 00:31:23,517 WHAT THE HEALTHY EATING HABIT IS 645 00:31:23,517 --> 00:31:25,137 AND WHAT YOU CAN DO 646 00:31:25,137 --> 00:31:28,241 TO BE ABLE TO MAINTAIN HEALTHY WEIGHT 647 00:31:28,241 --> 00:31:32,000 WHEN YOU'RE 50s AND 60s. 648 00:31:32,000 --> 00:31:33,862 BUT THAT'S NOT GOING TO BE POSSIBLE 649 00:31:33,862 --> 00:31:36,827 IF YOU DON'T START DOING WHAT YOU NEED NOW. 650 00:31:36,827 --> 00:31:38,551 YOU ONLY EAT TWO OR THREE TIME A DAY, 651 00:31:38,551 --> 00:31:42,482 NO SODA, NO SUGARY THING, NO CARB. 652 00:31:42,482 --> 00:31:44,827 THEN I WANT YOU TO LOSE 40 POUNDS 653 00:31:44,827 --> 00:31:47,620 OVER THE NEXT TWO MONTHS. OKAY? 654 00:31:47,620 --> 00:31:49,379 YES, SIR. 655 00:31:49,379 --> 00:31:52,172 THAT'S THE SAME AMOUNT YOU SHOULD BE LOSING IN A MONTH, 656 00:31:52,172 --> 00:31:53,689 BUT I WANT YOU TO SHOW ME 657 00:31:53,689 --> 00:31:56,103 SOME CONSISTENCY WITH THAT, TOO. 658 00:31:56,103 --> 00:31:57,275 OKAY. 659 00:31:57,275 --> 00:31:59,896 AND HOPEFULLY THERAPY WILL HELP YOU WITH THAT. 660 00:31:59,896 --> 00:32:01,172 ALRIGHTY. 661 00:32:01,172 --> 00:32:03,896 OKAY. IF YOU NEED ANYTHING, GIVE ME A CALL. 662 00:32:03,896 --> 00:32:05,517 OKAY. 663 00:32:08,793 --> 00:32:12,931 UNFORTUNATELY, ASHLEY DOESN'T SEEM TO BE TAKING HER SITUATION 664 00:32:12,931 --> 00:32:14,862 AS SERIOUSLY AS SHE SAYS. 665 00:32:14,862 --> 00:32:17,068 I GAVE HER A VERY MODEST GOAL 666 00:32:17,068 --> 00:32:20,275 THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN MORE THAN EASY FOR HER TO ACCOMPLISH, 667 00:32:20,275 --> 00:32:23,172 BUT DESPITE SOME PROGRESS, SHE'S STILL FAR OFF 668 00:32:23,172 --> 00:32:25,724 FROM MAKING THE CHANGES SHE NEEDS. 669 00:32:25,724 --> 00:32:29,172 I STILL HAVE THE SAME CONCERN I HAD AT THE LAST APPOINTMENT, 670 00:32:29,172 --> 00:32:33,275 WHERE THINGS DON'T ALL ADD UP WITH HER AND WHAT SHE SAYS. 671 00:32:33,275 --> 00:32:36,862 I'M HOPING STARTING PSYCHOTHERAPY FOR HER WILL HELP, 672 00:32:36,862 --> 00:32:40,310 BECAUSE IF ASHLEY HAS SPENT A SIGNIFICANT PART OF HER LIFE 673 00:32:40,310 --> 00:32:44,310 PRETENDING TO BE THINGS SHE ISN'T AS A MEANS OF MANIPULATION 674 00:32:44,310 --> 00:32:45,689 TO GET WHAT SHE WANTS, 675 00:32:45,689 --> 00:32:47,931 THERE IS NO REASON THIS SITUATION 676 00:32:47,931 --> 00:32:51,068 IS GOING TO BE ANY DIFFERENT FOR HER. 677 00:32:51,068 --> 00:32:54,000 UNTIL THAT CHANGES, WE'RE NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO MAKE MUCH, 678 00:32:54,000 --> 00:32:56,862 IF ANY, PROGRESS WITH HER. 679 00:32:56,862 --> 00:32:59,172 Ashley: I'M DISAPPOINTED, I'M NOT GONNA LIE, 680 00:32:59,172 --> 00:33:01,448 BECAUSE I WAS HOPING FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 681 00:33:01,448 --> 00:33:03,068 BEING TOLD I NEED TO GO TO THERAPY, 682 00:33:03,068 --> 00:33:05,896 THAT'S FRUSTRATED ME SOME. 683 00:33:05,896 --> 00:33:08,034 IT'S HARD TO HEAR THAT I'M STILL NOT GETTING SURGERY, 684 00:33:08,034 --> 00:33:10,344 BECAUSE I KNOW I DESERVE THE SURGERY, 685 00:33:10,344 --> 00:33:12,517 BUT I DO FEEL LIKE I STAYED RESPECTFUL 686 00:33:12,517 --> 00:33:15,689 EVEN WHEN DR. NOW WAS NEGATIVE ABOUT THINGS. 687 00:33:15,689 --> 00:33:17,448 I KNOW I JUST HAVE TO DO THIS 688 00:33:17,448 --> 00:33:18,689 AND JUST CONTINUE WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING, 689 00:33:18,689 --> 00:33:21,758 JUST DO IT 10 TIMES HARDER NOW. 690 00:33:34,620 --> 00:33:36,344 Ashley: I'M HEADING TO THE THERAPY 691 00:33:36,344 --> 00:33:37,620 DR. NOW TOLD ME I NEEDED, 692 00:33:37,620 --> 00:33:40,551 BUT I THINK DOING THIS IS AN UNNECESSARY PROCESS, 693 00:33:40,551 --> 00:33:41,931 BECAUSE I'M MAKING PROGRESS 694 00:33:41,931 --> 00:33:44,034 AND WHAT I NEED TO FOCUS ON RIGHT NOW 695 00:33:44,034 --> 00:33:48,103 IS PUSHING MYSELF HARDER WITH THE DIET AND MY EXERCISES, 696 00:33:48,103 --> 00:33:50,000 BUT I'LL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES AND ENDURE 697 00:33:50,000 --> 00:33:52,310 THIS PROCESS IF I NEED TO SHOW DR. NOW 698 00:33:52,310 --> 00:33:55,448 MY COMMITMENT AND MY SERIOUSNESS TO THIS PROGRAM. 699 00:33:55,448 --> 00:33:59,965 HOPEFULLY THIS GOES WELL AND IS NOT A BAD EXPERIENCE FOR ME. 700 00:33:59,965 --> 00:34:01,517 OKAY, ASHLEY. 701 00:34:01,517 --> 00:34:03,413 JUST COME AND HAVE A SEAT ANYWHERE YOU'RE COMFY. 702 00:34:03,413 --> 00:34:04,724 ALRIGHTY. 703 00:34:08,551 --> 00:34:11,586 THANK YOU, MA'AM. 704 00:34:11,586 --> 00:34:13,379 WELL, WELCOME, ASHLEY. 705 00:34:13,379 --> 00:34:14,793 HI. 706 00:34:14,793 --> 00:34:16,965 SO NOW, TELL ME A LITTLE BIT ABOUT YOURSELF. 707 00:34:16,965 --> 00:34:20,793 HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOUR CHILDHOOD GROWING UP? 708 00:34:20,793 --> 00:34:22,551 IT WAS GOOD. 709 00:34:22,551 --> 00:34:23,862 I DIDN'T WANT FOR ANYTHING. 710 00:34:23,862 --> 00:34:25,724 MY GRANDMA ALWAYS MADE SURE I HAD EVERYTHING I NEEDED, 711 00:34:25,724 --> 00:34:27,448 HER AND MY MOM. 712 00:34:27,448 --> 00:34:30,000 TO YOUR KNOWLEDGE, DO YOU HAVE ANY FAMILY MEMBERS 713 00:34:30,000 --> 00:34:31,724 WITH EMOTIONAL ISSUES, 714 00:34:31,724 --> 00:34:35,379 PSYCHIATRIC ISSUES OR SUBSTANCE-USE PROBLEMS? 715 00:34:35,379 --> 00:34:37,172 NOT TO MY KNOWLEDGE, I DO NOT, 716 00:34:37,172 --> 00:34:40,034 BUT I'M NOT CLOSE WITH MY FAMILY. 717 00:34:40,034 --> 00:34:42,103 WHAT PROMPTED THAT DECISION? 718 00:34:42,103 --> 00:34:45,379 IT'S JUST I'VE DONE SOME STUFF, THEY'VE DONE SOME STUFF. 719 00:34:45,379 --> 00:34:46,827 I'VE DONE MORE THAN THEM, BUT -- 720 00:34:46,827 --> 00:34:48,793 SO YOU'RE ACKNOWLEDGING THAT YOU'VE DONE SOME THINGS. 721 00:34:48,793 --> 00:34:51,413 MM-HMM, I'VE DONE SOME STUFF TO HURT THEM. 722 00:34:51,413 --> 00:34:53,482 I'M NO ANGEL. 723 00:34:53,482 --> 00:34:55,172 SO NOW YOU HAVE ME CURIOUS. 724 00:34:55,172 --> 00:34:57,793 TELL ME MORE. 725 00:34:57,793 --> 00:35:00,103 SINCE I WAS CATFISHING PEOPLE, 726 00:35:00,103 --> 00:35:02,172 AND I WENT VIRAL. 727 00:35:02,172 --> 00:35:03,896 THAT'S WHY ME AND MY FAMILY DON'T TALK, 728 00:35:03,896 --> 00:35:06,413 BECAUSE IT HURT THEM. 729 00:35:06,413 --> 00:35:09,344 AND PEOPLE JUST KEEP LIKE, "OH..." 730 00:35:09,344 --> 00:35:12,034 JUST SO THAT I'M CLEAR, YOU'RE SAYING 731 00:35:12,034 --> 00:35:14,931 THAT YOU PARTICIPATED IN CATFISHING PEOPLE? 732 00:35:14,931 --> 00:35:16,034 YEAH. 733 00:35:16,034 --> 00:35:17,551 AND THAT YOUR FAMILY GOT SOME BACKLASH 734 00:35:17,551 --> 00:35:19,758 FROM ONE OF YOUR ONLINE PERSONAS? 735 00:35:19,758 --> 00:35:21,137 EXACTLY. 736 00:35:21,137 --> 00:35:24,793 SO YOUR ALTER EGO, THIS OTHER PERSONA, 737 00:35:24,793 --> 00:35:26,137 IT WAS BORN OUT OF WHAT? 738 00:35:26,137 --> 00:35:28,620 IT WAS SOMETHING I JUST MADE UP 739 00:35:28,620 --> 00:35:32,068 AND IT CREATED A LIFE OF ITS OWN. 740 00:35:32,068 --> 00:35:33,724 WERE THERE MORE THAN ONE? 741 00:35:33,724 --> 00:35:35,896 DID YOU HAVE ANY OTHER PERSONAS? 742 00:35:35,896 --> 00:35:37,586 YEAH, IT WAS 3,000. 743 00:35:37,586 --> 00:35:39,103 YOU HAD 3,000? 744 00:35:39,103 --> 00:35:43,241 YEAH, IT WAS 3,000 PERSONAS. 745 00:35:43,241 --> 00:35:44,724 AND SO, 746 00:35:44,724 --> 00:35:48,206 CAN YOU TELL ME WHAT SOME OF THESE PERSONALITIES 747 00:35:48,206 --> 00:35:49,827 REPRESENTED FOR YOU? 748 00:35:52,172 --> 00:35:54,517 SOME OF THEM REPRESENTED FUN, 749 00:35:54,517 --> 00:35:56,655 SOME OF THEM REPRESENTED SADNESS, 750 00:35:56,655 --> 00:35:59,517 SOME OF THAT REPRESENTED MADNESS. 751 00:35:59,517 --> 00:36:02,620 WHAT PORTION REPRESENTED MADNESS? 752 00:36:02,620 --> 00:36:03,965 WHAT PERCENTAGE? 753 00:36:03,965 --> 00:36:06,586 10% OF THEM HAD MADNESS IN IT. 754 00:36:06,586 --> 00:36:08,034 OKAY. 755 00:36:08,034 --> 00:36:12,310 AND WHAT PERCENTAGE REPRESENTED SADNESS? 756 00:36:12,310 --> 00:36:13,655 50%. 757 00:36:13,655 --> 00:36:15,620 50%. 758 00:36:15,620 --> 00:36:18,655 1% REPRESENTED PEACE. 759 00:36:18,655 --> 00:36:20,275 1%? 760 00:36:20,275 --> 00:36:23,000 AND THE REST WAS JUST FEAR. 761 00:36:23,000 --> 00:36:26,620 WOW. ASHLEY, I WANT YOU TO LISTEN 762 00:36:26,620 --> 00:36:28,482 TO WHAT I'M ABOUT TO DESCRIBE TO YOU. 763 00:36:28,482 --> 00:36:32,655 OKAY? YOU'RE DESCRIBING A PSYCHOTIC BREAK. 764 00:36:32,655 --> 00:36:36,034 THAT'S A BREAK FROM REALITY BECAUSE YOUR REAL LIFE 765 00:36:36,034 --> 00:36:38,482 WAS TOO MUCH TO COPE WITH. 766 00:36:38,482 --> 00:36:40,517 YEAH. NO ONE KNEW WHAT I WAS GOING THROUGH. 767 00:36:40,517 --> 00:36:43,137 NO ONE KNEW I WAS HURTING ON THE INSIDE. NO ONE KNEW. 768 00:36:43,137 --> 00:36:44,896 I'M SORRY, ASHLEY. 769 00:36:44,896 --> 00:36:46,724 I'M SORRY THAT YOU WERE IN SO MUCH PAIN 770 00:36:46,724 --> 00:36:49,137 AND NO ONE NOTICED. 771 00:36:49,137 --> 00:36:51,448 SO I HAVE SOME HOMEWORK FOR YOU. 772 00:36:51,448 --> 00:36:52,896 OKAY. 773 00:36:52,896 --> 00:36:54,103 FOR YOU TO WRITE 774 00:36:54,103 --> 00:36:59,758 A TRUTHFUL, TRANSPARENT ONLINE DESCRIPTION 775 00:36:59,758 --> 00:37:02,586 AND PROFILE FOR YOURSELF. OKAY? 776 00:37:02,586 --> 00:37:05,413 I WANT YOU TO SHARE WHO YOU REALLY ARE. 777 00:37:05,413 --> 00:37:07,137 OKAY. 778 00:37:07,137 --> 00:37:08,344 IS THAT SOMETHING YOU CAN DO? 779 00:37:08,344 --> 00:37:09,896 I CAN DO IT. 780 00:37:09,896 --> 00:37:11,137 OKAY, ASHLEY. 781 00:37:11,137 --> 00:37:13,172 THANKS SO MUCH FOR BEING HERE TODAY, ASHLEY. 782 00:37:13,172 --> 00:37:14,862 THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR HAVING ME. 783 00:37:14,862 --> 00:37:17,965 YOU'RE WELCOME. OKAY. 784 00:37:17,965 --> 00:37:21,275 Ashley: I FEEL LIKE THIS THERAPY IS SOMETHING THAT I DIDN'T WANT. 785 00:37:21,275 --> 00:37:23,344 IT TOOK ME BACK TO SOME THINGS 786 00:37:23,344 --> 00:37:26,172 THAT I WANTED TO LEAVE BEHIND AND MOVE PAST. 787 00:37:26,172 --> 00:37:28,413 SO I'M A LITTLE EMOTIONAL ABOUT THAT. 788 00:37:28,413 --> 00:37:30,586 LOLA DID GIVE ME SOME FOOD FOR THOUGHT 789 00:37:30,586 --> 00:37:32,896 WITH SOME OF THE THINGS SHE SAID. 790 00:37:32,896 --> 00:37:34,551 SO I SEE THE POSITIVE IN THAT. 791 00:37:34,551 --> 00:37:37,068 SO I'LL THINK ABOUT IT ALL, BUT RIGHT NOW, 792 00:37:37,068 --> 00:37:40,689 I'M NOT SURE WHAT MY NEXT STEPS ARE GONNA BE NECESSARILY. 793 00:37:40,689 --> 00:37:43,551 I'M WILLING TO DO THOSE THINGS, BUT THE THING FOR ME IS, 794 00:37:43,551 --> 00:37:45,620 RIGHT NOW MAY NOT BE THE BEST TIME. 795 00:37:45,620 --> 00:37:47,448 SO I'LL THINK ABOUT IT AND WE'LL SEE. 796 00:38:01,275 --> 00:38:03,310 AFTER MY THERAPY APPOINTMENT WITH LOLA, 797 00:38:03,310 --> 00:38:07,793 I GAVE THE THING SHE SAID FOR ME TO DO SOME VERY SERIOUS THOUGHT 798 00:38:07,793 --> 00:38:09,862 AND I DECIDED IT WOULD BE GOOD FOR ME TO DO THEM, 799 00:38:09,862 --> 00:38:11,241 BUT NOT RIGHT NOW 800 00:38:11,241 --> 00:38:13,896 BECAUSE THAT APPOINTMENT HAD ALREADY MADE ME EMOTIONAL 801 00:38:13,896 --> 00:38:16,896 TO THE POINT WHERE I HAD BEEN STRUGGLING MORE. 802 00:38:16,896 --> 00:38:20,103 WHAT I NEED TO DO IS FOCUS ON MY DIET, 803 00:38:20,103 --> 00:38:22,758 BUT THE REALITY IS, WITH THE STRESS OF THERAPY, 804 00:38:22,758 --> 00:38:26,310 I'VE EARNED A LITTLE TREAT FOR TAKING SOME GOOD STEPS. 805 00:38:30,793 --> 00:38:32,068 PIZZA IS HERE. 806 00:38:33,000 --> 00:38:34,655 I'M HUNGRY. 807 00:38:38,413 --> 00:38:41,172 HI.HI. IT'S $44.30. 808 00:38:41,172 --> 00:38:43,068 THANK YOU SO MUCH. YOU KEEP THE CHANGE. 809 00:38:43,068 --> 00:38:44,172 THANK YOU. HAVE A GOOD NIGHT. 810 00:38:44,172 --> 00:38:45,758 YOU TOO. 811 00:38:51,344 --> 00:38:54,655 BIGGEST THING I'VE LEARNED IS CONTROLLING PORTION SIZE 812 00:38:54,655 --> 00:38:56,827 SO I CAN AFFORD SOME THINGS LIKE THIS. 813 00:38:56,827 --> 00:38:59,310 IT'S NOT A LOT. 814 00:38:59,310 --> 00:39:03,137 IF I MAKE AN EXCEPTION AND TREAT MYSELF WITH HAVING MY PROGRESS, 815 00:39:03,137 --> 00:39:06,000 I STAY IN CONTROL OF MY PORTIONS, LIKE I SHOULD. 816 00:39:06,000 --> 00:39:09,206 SO I KEEP MY CALORIES OUT AND STAY IN MY LIMITS. 817 00:39:11,034 --> 00:39:13,379 EVEN WHEN I WANT TO EAT THE WHOLE PIZZA, 818 00:39:13,379 --> 00:39:15,206 I JUST HAVE TO STOP MYSELF AND SAY, 819 00:39:15,206 --> 00:39:17,379 "THAT'S ENOUGH FOR NOW." 820 00:39:17,379 --> 00:39:19,448 I'M BEING VERY FOCUSED TO DO THIS 821 00:39:19,448 --> 00:39:22,310 AND MAKE SURE I MAKE EVEN MORE PROGRESS THIS TIME 822 00:39:22,310 --> 00:39:26,000 SO I CAN GO BACK TO DR. NOW AND FINALLY GET MY SURGERY. 823 00:39:26,000 --> 00:39:27,758 AND I'M MAKING SURE TO KEEP MY EYE ON THAT 824 00:39:27,758 --> 00:39:30,413 AND STAY MOTIVATED AND IN CONTROL TO DO THAT. 825 00:39:48,137 --> 00:39:50,275 Ashley: I'M BACK TO SEE DR. NOW ONCE AGAIN 826 00:39:50,275 --> 00:39:52,551 AND I'M HONESTLY A LITTLE NERVOUS. 827 00:39:52,551 --> 00:39:53,793 OKAY, LET'S DO IT. 828 00:39:53,793 --> 00:39:56,482 Y'ALL READY? COME ON, AMIGOS. 829 00:39:59,172 --> 00:40:00,551 I KNOW HOW HARD I WORKED AGAIN 830 00:40:00,551 --> 00:40:03,379 AND HOW I PUSHED MYSELF EVEN MORE THIS TIME 831 00:40:03,379 --> 00:40:06,517 AND THAT GIVES ME CONFIDENCE, BUT I STILL HAVE A LOT OF FEARS 832 00:40:06,517 --> 00:40:08,206 RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD AGAIN FOR THIS APPOINTMENT 833 00:40:08,206 --> 00:40:10,103 BECAUSE IT IS VERY IMPORTANT TO ME 834 00:40:10,103 --> 00:40:12,172 THAT I GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY THIS TIME. 835 00:40:15,586 --> 00:40:18,413 ASHLEY? 836 00:40:18,413 --> 00:40:21,413 AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT, I WAS AT 476 837 00:40:21,413 --> 00:40:24,931 AND DR. NOW WANTED ME TO LOSE ANOTHER 40 POUNDS. 838 00:40:24,931 --> 00:40:26,172 SO TO HAVE THAT DONE 839 00:40:26,172 --> 00:40:29,172 MEANS I HAVE TO HAVE A NUMBER LOWER THAN 436. 840 00:40:33,448 --> 00:40:35,068 475. 841 00:40:38,206 --> 00:40:41,620 I'M NOT SURE ABOUT THAT, 842 00:40:41,620 --> 00:40:44,758 BUT THAT NUMBER IS VERY UPSETTING 843 00:40:44,758 --> 00:40:46,724 AND IT IS NOT MAKING SENSE TO ME 844 00:40:46,724 --> 00:40:49,551 BECAUSE I KNOW THE LEVEL OF MY WORK. 845 00:40:49,551 --> 00:40:52,482 AND THERE'S NO WAY THAT NUMBER REFLECTS THAT. 846 00:40:52,482 --> 00:40:54,241 SO I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED, 847 00:40:54,241 --> 00:40:55,931 BUT I'M VERY UPSET AND WORRIED RIGHT NOW 848 00:40:55,931 --> 00:40:57,793 BECAUSE WHAT I NEED IS WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 849 00:40:57,793 --> 00:41:00,413 FROM DR. NOW. 850 00:41:00,413 --> 00:41:02,586 IF I'M NOT GONNA GET AN APPROVAL TODAY, 851 00:41:02,586 --> 00:41:06,310 THEN THE LEAST HE CAN DO IS RESPECT HOW HARD I'M WORKING. 852 00:41:13,448 --> 00:41:15,103 HELLO. HEY, DR. NOW. 853 00:41:15,103 --> 00:41:16,172 HOW ARE YOU ALL DOING? 854 00:41:16,172 --> 00:41:17,655 -ALRIGHT. -GOOD. 855 00:41:17,655 --> 00:41:20,034 GOOD. ALRIGHT, ASHLEY. 856 00:41:20,034 --> 00:41:22,275 YOU GOT THE WHOLE CREW WITH YOU TODAY. 857 00:41:22,275 --> 00:41:23,482 WHO DO YOU GOT WITH YOU? 858 00:41:23,482 --> 00:41:27,931 THIS IS MY FRIEND DEE. THIS IS MY FRIEND MAC. 859 00:41:27,931 --> 00:41:30,241 OKAY, WELL, GOOD TO MEET YOU ALL. 860 00:41:30,241 --> 00:41:33,758 ALRIGHT, ASHLEY. HOW HAVE YOU BEEN? 861 00:41:33,758 --> 00:41:35,379 I'VE BEEN GOOD. HOW HAVE YOU BEEN? 862 00:41:35,379 --> 00:41:38,068 I'M GOOD, BUT I'M CONCERNED ABOUT A FEW THINGS. 863 00:41:38,068 --> 00:41:41,103 ONE IS YOUR LACK OF WEIGHT LOSS 864 00:41:41,103 --> 00:41:43,758 BECAUSE YOU ARE 475 TODAY, 865 00:41:43,758 --> 00:41:45,517 WHICH IS PRETTY MUCH NO PROGRESS. 866 00:41:45,517 --> 00:41:47,068 THAT MEANS YOU'RE STILL EATING 867 00:41:47,068 --> 00:41:49,862 BETWEEN 4,000 TO 5,000 CALORIES A DAY. 868 00:41:49,862 --> 00:41:51,448 WHAT DO YOU THINK THE CHANGES ARE 869 00:41:51,448 --> 00:41:52,517 THAT YOU HAVE MADE? 870 00:41:52,517 --> 00:41:54,931 I'VE BEEN DOING THE EXERCISES MORE. 871 00:41:54,931 --> 00:41:57,827 I'VE BEEN DOING THE DIET, LIKE YOU TOLD ME. 872 00:41:57,827 --> 00:42:01,275 I CUT OFF ALL THE SODA, NO MORE SODA. 873 00:42:01,275 --> 00:42:03,931 THEY GOT RID OF EVERYTHING FOR ME. 874 00:42:03,931 --> 00:42:06,758 BUT YOU HAVEN'T LOST MUCH WEIGHT. 875 00:42:06,758 --> 00:42:08,413 IF YOU MADE ALL THESE POSITIVE CHANGES, 876 00:42:08,413 --> 00:42:10,896 WHY IS THAT? 877 00:42:10,896 --> 00:42:13,482 I DON'T KNOW. I'VE BEEN DOING WHAT I SHOULD. 878 00:42:13,482 --> 00:42:15,137 I'VE BEEN HAVING PROBLEMS WITH MY MOM ALSO. 879 00:42:15,137 --> 00:42:17,655 I'VE BEEN HAVING FAMILY PROBLEMS, TOO. 880 00:42:17,655 --> 00:42:19,482 WITH YOUR MOM. ABOUT WHAT? 881 00:42:19,482 --> 00:42:21,517 'CAUSE SHE'S BEEN A LITTLE SICK. 882 00:42:21,517 --> 00:42:24,068 WHAT DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH NOT LOSING WEIGHT? 883 00:42:24,068 --> 00:42:26,827 BECAUSE I'M HER ONLY CHILD. I'VE GOT TO BE THERE FOR MY MOM. 884 00:42:26,827 --> 00:42:29,103 I'M STILL NOT UNDERSTANDING WHAT THAT MEANS. 885 00:42:29,103 --> 00:42:31,965 YOU COULD EAT HEALTHY AND DO WHAT YOU NEEDED 886 00:42:31,965 --> 00:42:35,344 IF YOU HAD TO BE WITH HER BECAUSE TAKING CARE OF HER 887 00:42:35,344 --> 00:42:38,206 DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOU HAVE TO OVEREAT, RIGHT? 888 00:42:38,206 --> 00:42:41,551 NOBODY OVERATE NOTHING. 889 00:42:41,551 --> 00:42:43,517 SO YOU WANT TO DISCUSS THAT WITH THE SCALE? 890 00:42:43,517 --> 00:42:46,586 IT DOESN'T MATTER TO ME. I KNOW WHAT I DID. 891 00:42:46,586 --> 00:42:48,034 ALRIGHT, ASHLEY. 892 00:42:48,034 --> 00:42:50,275 THE BIG QUESTION IS, 893 00:42:50,275 --> 00:42:52,931 WHAT IS YOUR OBJECTIVE WITH THIS PROGRAM 894 00:42:52,931 --> 00:42:54,689 AND SAYING YOU WANT TO DO THIS 895 00:42:54,689 --> 00:42:57,551 IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA TRY AND LOSE WEIGHT? 896 00:42:57,551 --> 00:43:00,931 I WANT TO GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 897 00:43:00,931 --> 00:43:05,034 AND LOSE THE WEIGHT AND JUST BE MORE HEALTHIER. 898 00:43:05,034 --> 00:43:08,586 SO YOU WANT TO HAVE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY? 899 00:43:08,586 --> 00:43:10,034 YES, SIR. 900 00:43:10,034 --> 00:43:13,137 OKAY. WE WANT TO GET SOME LAB WORK FROM YOU, 901 00:43:13,137 --> 00:43:15,000 BUT YOU REFUSED. 902 00:43:15,000 --> 00:43:17,137 SO WE DON'T KNOW WHAT YOUR LAB WORK IS. 903 00:43:17,137 --> 00:43:18,413 WE TRIED TO GET YOUR LAB WORK. 904 00:43:18,413 --> 00:43:20,517 YEAH, I'M GONNA GO TO THE DOCTOR TOMORROW 905 00:43:20,517 --> 00:43:22,482 AND LET MY PEOPLE DRAW MY BLOOD 906 00:43:22,482 --> 00:43:25,103 BECAUSE I KNOW MY VEINS AND THE LADY 907 00:43:25,103 --> 00:43:28,000 THAT I GO TO GET MY BLOOD DRAWN, SHE ALWAYS FINDS IT. 908 00:43:28,000 --> 00:43:29,241 I'D RATHER JUST HAVE HER DO IT 909 00:43:29,241 --> 00:43:31,482 AND I CAN JUST HAVE THEM SEND YOU ALL OF THE STUFF. 910 00:43:31,482 --> 00:43:33,620 I'M GONNA GO TO THEM TOMORROW WHEN I GET UP. 911 00:43:33,620 --> 00:43:35,896 OKAY. SO LET ME UNDERSTAND THAT. 912 00:43:35,896 --> 00:43:37,482 YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND -- 913 00:43:37,482 --> 00:43:39,379 YOU DON'T TRUST US TO DO YOUR BLOOD TEST, 914 00:43:39,379 --> 00:43:42,000 BUT YOU TRUST US TO DO WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ON YOU? 915 00:43:42,000 --> 00:43:45,000 NO. IT'S NOT LIKE THAT. 916 00:43:45,000 --> 00:43:47,068 CAN YOU EXPLAIN THAT TO ME? 917 00:43:47,068 --> 00:43:48,896 NO, IT'S NOT LIKE THAT, DR. NOW. 918 00:43:48,896 --> 00:43:50,448 I TRUST YOU ALL. 919 00:43:50,448 --> 00:43:52,241 I WOULDN'T BE HERE IF I DIDN'T TRUST YOU. 920 00:43:52,241 --> 00:43:54,241 WELL, BUT NOT ENOUGH TO DO YOUR BLOOD, 921 00:43:54,241 --> 00:43:57,379 BUT DO YOU WANT US TO DO WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ON YOU? 922 00:43:57,379 --> 00:43:58,655 I DON'T GET THAT. 923 00:43:58,655 --> 00:44:00,965 IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T TRUST YOU, DR. NOW. 924 00:44:00,965 --> 00:44:03,310 IT'S JUST, ONCE AGAIN, 925 00:44:03,310 --> 00:44:06,965 I'D RATHER HAVE MY LADY DRAW MY BLOOD 926 00:44:06,965 --> 00:44:09,793 BECAUSE SHE KNOWS MY VEINS. 927 00:44:09,793 --> 00:44:11,517 AND I'M COMFORTABLE WITH HER. 928 00:44:11,517 --> 00:44:12,931 IF WE'RE BEING HONEST, 929 00:44:12,931 --> 00:44:15,689 I'M COMFORTABLE WITH HER, NO OFFENSE. 930 00:44:15,689 --> 00:44:17,000 NONE TAKEN, 931 00:44:17,000 --> 00:44:19,724 BUT WE SEE A LITTLE BIT DISCONNECTING HERE. OKAY? 932 00:44:19,724 --> 00:44:22,758 IF WE ARE NOT ABLE TO DO YOUR WORKUP, 933 00:44:22,758 --> 00:44:24,931 WE'RE NOT ABLE TO GET YOUR BLOOD 934 00:44:24,931 --> 00:44:27,310 AND WE'RE NOT ABLE TO DO ANYTHING, 935 00:44:27,310 --> 00:44:28,793 HOW ARE WE GOING TO DO YOUR SURGERY? 936 00:44:28,793 --> 00:44:31,413 I'M NOT GONNA HAVE SOME STRANGER DRAW MY BLOOD. 937 00:44:31,413 --> 00:44:33,965 I TOLD YOU THAT I WAS GOING TO HAVE MY LADY DRAW MY BLOOD 938 00:44:33,965 --> 00:44:35,586 AND I WAS GONNA SEND IT OVER HERE. 939 00:44:35,586 --> 00:44:36,551 IF YOU'RE NOT COMFORTABLE WITH THAT, 940 00:44:36,551 --> 00:44:38,068 I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO TELL YOU. 941 00:44:38,068 --> 00:44:40,172 WE'VE DONE PEOPLE THAT OVER 1,000 POUNDS. 942 00:44:40,172 --> 00:44:42,000 WE DRAW BLOOD ON ALL THOSE PEOPLE. 943 00:44:42,000 --> 00:44:43,344 OKAY, THAT'S FINE, BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, 944 00:44:43,344 --> 00:44:44,551 IF I'M COMFORTABLE -- NOW I'M GETTING MAD. 945 00:44:44,551 --> 00:44:46,068 SO NOW I'M GONNA HAVE TO JUST TALK TO YOU 946 00:44:46,068 --> 00:44:47,517 LIKE I TALKED TO THEM.Quenton: OH, GOD. 947 00:44:47,517 --> 00:44:49,275 ASHLEY, YOU HAVE TO TRUST US 948 00:44:49,275 --> 00:44:51,586 TO TREAT YOU IF YOU WANT TO DO THIS. 949 00:44:51,586 --> 00:44:55,068 AND WE DON'T KNOW WHAT ISSUES YOU MAY HAVE IF YOU DON'T. 950 00:44:55,068 --> 00:44:56,931 BUT IF YOU'RE NOT COMFORTABLE WITH THAT, 951 00:44:56,931 --> 00:44:58,517 HOW DO YOU EXPECT THIS TO WORK? 952 00:44:58,517 --> 00:45:01,310 BECAUSE WE HAVE TO GIVE YOU AN I.V. FOR SURGERY. 953 00:45:01,310 --> 00:45:02,724 THAT'S THE SAME THING 954 00:45:02,724 --> 00:45:05,172 AND WE CAN'T HAVE YOUR PERSON HERE FOR THAT. 955 00:45:05,172 --> 00:45:06,896 SO THIS IS AN ISSUE. 956 00:45:06,896 --> 00:45:09,448 YOU HAVEN'T LOST ANY WEIGHT 957 00:45:09,448 --> 00:45:13,689 AND YOU WANT US TO DO MAGIC FOR YOU. 958 00:45:13,689 --> 00:45:16,724 ASHLEY, DON'T DO IT. NO, DON'T DO IT. 959 00:45:16,724 --> 00:45:20,689 OH, GOD. I CAN'T. THIS IS GOING ALL WRONG. 960 00:45:20,689 --> 00:45:24,448 SO IF YOU STICK WITH THE DIET AND YOU EAT LOW CALORIE, 961 00:45:24,448 --> 00:45:26,379 YOU SHOULD LOSE MORE WEIGHT. 962 00:45:26,379 --> 00:45:28,275 IS THAT HARD TO UNDERSTAND? 963 00:45:30,379 --> 00:45:32,448 MNH-MNH. MNH-MNH. 964 00:45:32,448 --> 00:45:33,655 MNH-MNH. 965 00:45:33,655 --> 00:45:37,379 THINK ABOUT THAT REALLY HARD BEFORE YOU SAY THAT. 966 00:45:37,379 --> 00:45:39,448 OH, MY GOD. 967 00:45:39,448 --> 00:45:42,172 I NEED A MINUTE BECAUSE THIS IS GOING ALL WRONG 968 00:45:42,172 --> 00:45:45,344 AND I'M TRYING TO BE RESPECTFUL, 969 00:45:45,344 --> 00:45:48,931 BUT THIS IS JUST, LIKE... 970 00:45:48,931 --> 00:45:52,310 ASHLEY, WHAT THIS COMES DOWN TO IS SIMPLE. 971 00:45:52,310 --> 00:45:55,275 IF YOU WON'T DO THE THINGS YOU NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT, 972 00:45:55,275 --> 00:45:56,586 HOW DO YOU THINK WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 973 00:45:56,586 --> 00:45:58,413 IS GONNA MAKE YOU LOSE WEIGHT? 974 00:45:58,413 --> 00:45:59,862 I KNOW IT'S GONNA HELP ME LOSE WEIGHT. 975 00:45:59,862 --> 00:46:02,172 AND AT THE END OF THAT, I KNOW WHAT I WANT FOR MYSELF. 976 00:46:02,172 --> 00:46:04,379 NO, NO. THAT'S NOT THE QUESTION. 977 00:46:04,379 --> 00:46:08,172 HOW DO YOU THINK WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY IS GONNA HELP YOU? 978 00:46:08,172 --> 00:46:09,310 IT'LL HELP ME IN SO MANY WAYS. 979 00:46:09,310 --> 00:46:11,000 IT'LL HELP ME TO GET MORE HEALTHIER. 980 00:46:11,000 --> 00:46:14,103 IT'LL HELPED ME WITH LOSING THE WEIGHT. 981 00:46:14,103 --> 00:46:16,137 OKAY. WITH HELPING LOSING WEIGHT. 982 00:46:16,137 --> 00:46:18,586 HOW IT'S GONNA HELP YOU LOSE WEIGHT? 983 00:46:18,586 --> 00:46:20,379 THAT'S WHAT THE QUESTION IS. HOW? 984 00:46:20,379 --> 00:46:22,724 THE QUESTION IS HOW? HOW IS IT GONNA HELP YOU? 985 00:46:22,724 --> 00:46:23,758 DO YOU WANT ME TO GIVE YOU THE ANSWER? 986 00:46:23,758 --> 00:46:25,413 Y'ALL FITTIN' TO GO? 'CAUSE I'M DONE. 987 00:46:25,413 --> 00:46:26,793 I'M DONE. 988 00:46:26,793 --> 00:46:28,275 OKAY, LOOK AT ME. 989 00:46:28,275 --> 00:46:33,137 IT'S GONNA HELP YOU BY MAKING YOU EAT LESS. 990 00:46:33,137 --> 00:46:34,689 YOU GOT THAT?MM-HMM. 991 00:46:34,689 --> 00:46:37,241 OKAY. SO WHEN YOU HAVE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 992 00:46:37,241 --> 00:46:38,586 YOU'RE GONNA EAT LESS 993 00:46:38,586 --> 00:46:39,827 AND YOU'RE GONNA LOSE WEIGHT, RIGHT? 994 00:46:39,827 --> 00:46:41,310 YEAH. OKAY. 995 00:46:41,310 --> 00:46:44,344 NOW THAT YOU'RE NOT EATING LESS, 996 00:46:44,344 --> 00:46:46,517 YOU'RE NOT LOSING WEIGHT, YOU GET THAT? 997 00:46:46,517 --> 00:46:47,586 YEAH, DR. NOW. 998 00:46:47,586 --> 00:46:49,310 SO IF YOU'RE NOT WILLING TO EAT LESS 999 00:46:49,310 --> 00:46:51,034 AND YOU'RE CHOOSING TO OVEREAT, 1000 00:46:51,034 --> 00:46:53,413 THEN SURGERY IS NOT GONNA CHANGE THAT. 1001 00:46:53,413 --> 00:46:54,517 AND IN LONG TERM 1002 00:46:54,517 --> 00:46:56,827 IS GONNA FAIL TO DO ANYTHING FOR YOU. 1003 00:46:56,827 --> 00:46:59,517 SO RIGHT NOW THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH YOUR EATING HABIT? 1004 00:46:59,517 --> 00:47:00,758 NO, BECAUSE, LIKE, NOW 1005 00:47:00,758 --> 00:47:02,758 I'VE RARELY BEEN EATING NOWADAYS. 1006 00:47:02,758 --> 00:47:04,241 I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON. 1007 00:47:04,241 --> 00:47:07,517 I GET THAT YOU THINK THAT, BUT IT'S NOT REALITY. 1008 00:47:07,517 --> 00:47:09,310 SO NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY TO ME, 1009 00:47:09,310 --> 00:47:11,827 IF YOU DON'T LOSE WEIGHT, THEN THAT'S AN ISSUE. 1010 00:47:11,827 --> 00:47:13,655 EVEN IF YOU BRING SOMEONE TO WITNESS 1011 00:47:13,655 --> 00:47:16,344 TO CONVINCE ME THAT YOU'RE NOT EATING... 1012 00:47:16,344 --> 00:47:17,413 I DIDN'T BRING THEM HERE TO DO ANYTHING. 1013 00:47:17,413 --> 00:47:19,586 I BROUGHT MY FRIENDS IN FOR SUPPORT. 1014 00:47:19,586 --> 00:47:20,551 YOU KNOW WHAT? Y'ALL READY TO GO? 1015 00:47:20,551 --> 00:47:21,965 BECAUSE I'M NOT DOING THIS. 1016 00:47:21,965 --> 00:47:23,413 I'M NOT. HE'S NOT FITTIN' TO TALK TO ME LIKE I'M CRAZY. 1017 00:47:23,413 --> 00:47:25,931 I'VE BEEN ABLE TO COME TO THIS APPOINTMENT. 1018 00:47:25,931 --> 00:47:27,448 YOU'RE NOT FITTIN' TO DISRESPECT ME. 1019 00:47:27,448 --> 00:47:28,758 I'VE BEEN NOTHING BUT NICE TO YOUR ASS. 1020 00:47:28,758 --> 00:47:30,137 YOU'RE NOT FITTIN' TO DO ME LIKE THAT. 1021 00:47:30,137 --> 00:47:31,931 Y'ALL READY TO GO BECAUSE I'M READY TO GO? 1022 00:47:31,931 --> 00:47:33,517 LET'S GO. 1023 00:47:33,517 --> 00:47:35,689 MOVE. 1024 00:47:35,689 --> 00:47:37,931 YOU WILL GET TRAMPLED. 1025 00:47:37,931 --> 00:47:39,000 UM... 1026 00:47:55,689 --> 00:47:58,241 YOU KNOW, I WOULD TAKE A COUPLE OF DEEP BREATHS. 1027 00:47:58,241 --> 00:47:59,448 NO, I'M DONE. 1028 00:47:59,448 --> 00:48:00,551 LIKE AT THE END OF THE DAY, I'M BEEN COMING THERE -- 1029 00:48:00,551 --> 00:48:02,103 LIKE, NO, I'M NOT GONNA WASTE MY MONEY 1030 00:48:02,103 --> 00:48:03,413 COMING TO THIS APPOINTMENT. 1031 00:48:03,413 --> 00:48:05,724 I'VE BEEN AT WORK ALL I'VE GOT TOO MUCH GOING ON. 1032 00:48:05,724 --> 00:48:07,827 HE'S NOT GONNA TALK TO ME LIKE THAT. 1033 00:48:07,827 --> 00:48:09,034 LIKE, YOU DON'T KNOW ME, BRUH. 1034 00:48:09,034 --> 00:48:10,862 I'M GONNA GET THIS PLACE SHUT THE DOWN. 1035 00:48:29,896 --> 00:48:31,000 LET'S GO. 1036 00:49:25,586 --> 00:49:26,827 IT JUST DOES ME NO GOOD. 1037 00:49:26,827 --> 00:49:29,206 THEY CAN PAY UP, BECAUSE I DON'T NEED THIS. 1038 00:49:29,206 --> 00:49:31,413 I CAN GO BACK HOME. 1039 00:49:35,896 --> 00:49:39,413 HE GOT THE RIGHT ONE. 1040 00:49:39,413 --> 00:49:43,068 HE GOT THE RIGHT ONE BECAUSE I DON'T DO DISRESPECT. 1041 00:49:49,862 --> 00:49:51,310 I'M UPSET AT DR. NOW RIGHT NOW 1042 00:49:51,310 --> 00:49:55,551 BECAUSE I DON'T APPRECIATE HOW HE PUSHES ME. 1043 00:49:55,551 --> 00:49:58,482 BUT QUENTON AND DIERRA TALKED ME INTO GOING BACK IN 1044 00:49:58,482 --> 00:50:00,137 AND FINISHING MY APPOINTMENT, 1045 00:50:00,137 --> 00:50:04,413 BECAUSE FOR ME, I FEEL LIKE IF I WAS TO JUST GO HOME, 1046 00:50:04,413 --> 00:50:05,862 THAT WOULD BE A SLAP IN THE FACE NOT ONLY FOR ME, 1047 00:50:05,862 --> 00:50:08,103 BUT TO THEM ALSO. THAT WOULD BE DISRESPECTFUL. 1048 00:50:08,103 --> 00:50:09,310 AND I'M NOT GOING TO DISRESPECT THEM 1049 00:50:09,310 --> 00:50:10,724 BECAUSE THEY HELP ME ON A DAILY BASIS. 1050 00:50:10,724 --> 00:50:11,827 THEY AIN'T GOT TO DO THAT. 1051 00:50:17,862 --> 00:50:21,482 SO I OWE IT TO THEM, BUT I'M STILL EXTREMELY UPSET. 1052 00:50:21,482 --> 00:50:23,275 AND IF IT GOES THE SAME WAY AGAIN, 1053 00:50:23,275 --> 00:50:26,000 THEN I'M DONE BECAUSE I DON'T DESERVE THAT. 1054 00:50:26,000 --> 00:50:28,034 AND I JUST DON'T NEED THE NEGATIVITY 1055 00:50:28,034 --> 00:50:31,137 WHEN I'M TRYING TO PUT MY LIFE BACK TOGETHER AND BETTER MYSELF. 1056 00:50:37,000 --> 00:50:40,448 ALRIGHT, ASHLEY, YOU'RE BACK IN. 1057 00:50:40,448 --> 00:50:43,758 YEAH, DOC, I DECIDED TO GIVE YOU ONE MORE CHANCE. 1058 00:50:43,758 --> 00:50:46,344 OKAY, WELL, I'M GLAD YOU'RE BACK, 1059 00:50:46,344 --> 00:50:48,551 BUT THE PROBLEM IS STILL THE SAME. 1060 00:50:48,551 --> 00:50:50,758 AND IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA ANSWER MY QUESTIONS 1061 00:50:50,758 --> 00:50:54,034 AND YOU'RE GONNA GET UPSET AND STORM OUT OF HERE, 1062 00:50:54,034 --> 00:50:55,655 THEN THAT'S NOT GONNA WORK. 1063 00:50:55,655 --> 00:50:58,724 YOU THINK THAT'S OKAY? 1064 00:50:58,724 --> 00:51:01,034 FOR REAL? FOR REAL? 1065 00:51:01,034 --> 00:51:02,896 SO THIS IS THE PROCESS 1066 00:51:02,896 --> 00:51:05,758 THAT WE GRILL EVERYBODY 10 TIME, 1067 00:51:05,758 --> 00:51:09,310 ASK THE QUESTION, GET THEIR ATTITUDE RIGHT 1068 00:51:09,310 --> 00:51:11,793 AND SEE IF THEY'RE COMPLIANT 1069 00:51:11,793 --> 00:51:15,310 AND SEE WHAT THEIR LEVEL OF TOLERANCE IS. 1070 00:51:15,310 --> 00:51:17,758 AND YOU SHOW THAT YOU HAVE NO TOLERANCE 1071 00:51:17,758 --> 00:51:21,827 AND YOU GOT THE VERY EXPLOSIVE PERSONALITY 1072 00:51:21,827 --> 00:51:25,241 AND YOU GET VERY UPSET. 1073 00:51:25,241 --> 00:51:27,586 AND YOU'RE NOT TRUSTING US 1074 00:51:27,586 --> 00:51:31,586 AND YOU JUST WANT US TO DO A SURGERY ON YOU. 1075 00:51:31,586 --> 00:51:34,965 AND THAT'S NOT VERY GOOD SETUP. OKAY? 1076 00:51:34,965 --> 00:51:38,586 IF YOU DON'T TRUST US TO DO ANYTHING, 1077 00:51:38,586 --> 00:51:40,862 THEN YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE SURGERY WITH US. 1078 00:51:40,862 --> 00:51:42,551 OKAY? 1079 00:51:42,551 --> 00:51:45,172 BECAUSE THAT'S NOT VERY COMFORTABLE FOR YOU. 1080 00:51:45,172 --> 00:51:46,275 YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? RIGHT? 1081 00:51:46,275 --> 00:51:47,379 YES. 1082 00:51:47,379 --> 00:51:50,655 OKAY. SO WHY ARE YOU GETTING UPSET? 1083 00:51:50,655 --> 00:51:52,310 IT'S MY TURN. IT'S MY TURN TO TALK NOW? 1084 00:51:52,310 --> 00:51:54,724 YES. OKAY. 1085 00:51:54,724 --> 00:51:58,758 I TRUST YOU, BUT I KNOW MY VEINS 1086 00:51:58,758 --> 00:52:00,413 AND IT'S... 1087 00:52:00,413 --> 00:52:02,448 I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE SAYING. 1088 00:52:02,448 --> 00:52:04,103 I DID GET UPSET WITH YOU, 1089 00:52:04,103 --> 00:52:07,724 AND I SAID MY APOLOGIZE, BUT YOU WAS TRYING ME. 1090 00:52:07,724 --> 00:52:09,724 AND, YOU KNOW, I JUST... 1091 00:52:09,724 --> 00:52:10,758 I DIDN'T MEAN TO STORM OUT ON YOU, DR. NOW. 1092 00:52:10,758 --> 00:52:14,000 IT'S JUST, IT'S BEEN A LONG DAY. 1093 00:52:14,000 --> 00:52:15,275 I'M COMMITTED TO THIS. 1094 00:52:15,275 --> 00:52:16,896 IF I WASN'T COMMITTED, I WOULD BE HOME RIGHT NOW. 1095 00:52:16,896 --> 00:52:19,413 BUT I'M TIRED, BUT I STILL CAME TO THIS APPOINTMENT 1096 00:52:19,413 --> 00:52:21,827 BECAUSE I AM DEDICATED TO THIS. IF I WASN'T DEDICATED, 1097 00:52:21,827 --> 00:52:24,379 I WOULDN'T HAVE MY FRIENDS OUT HERE. THEY GOT KIDS. 1098 00:52:24,379 --> 00:52:26,344 IF WE KEEPING IT ALL THE WAY REAL. 1099 00:52:26,344 --> 00:52:30,103 I AM DEDICATED TO THIS. I DO TRUST Y'ALL, IT'S JUST, 1100 00:52:30,103 --> 00:52:31,965 I'D RATHER HAVE SOMEBODY WHO I KNOW 1101 00:52:31,965 --> 00:52:34,482 HAS TAKEN MY BLOOD SEVERAL TIMES DO THAT FOR ME. 1102 00:52:34,482 --> 00:52:37,344 AND IF Y'ALL CAN'T RESPECT THAT, THEN I'M SORRY. 1103 00:52:37,344 --> 00:52:40,551 OKAY, WELL, WHAT WAS IT TO GET YOU UPSET? 1104 00:52:40,551 --> 00:52:41,793 WHAT GOT YOU UPSET 1105 00:52:41,793 --> 00:52:44,965 OR IS I GAVE AN ANALOGY AFTER SURGERY, YOU EAT LESS... 1106 00:52:44,965 --> 00:52:47,448 NO, THAT AIN'T MAKE ME --...AND YOU LOSE WEIGHT. 1107 00:52:47,448 --> 00:52:50,551 THAT DIDN'T MAKE ME UPSET. THAT DIDN'T MAKE ME UPSET. 1108 00:52:50,551 --> 00:52:52,068 THAT DIDN'T GET YOU UPSET?NO, SIR. 1109 00:52:52,068 --> 00:52:53,517 SO WHAT DID YOU GET UPSET FOR? 1110 00:52:53,517 --> 00:52:55,206 IT'S JUST THE FACT, LIKE, OKAY, 1111 00:52:55,206 --> 00:52:57,000 THIS IS MY THIRD TIME MEETING YOU. 1112 00:52:57,000 --> 00:52:58,275 AND IT'S LIKE EVERY TIME 1113 00:52:58,275 --> 00:53:01,137 I'VE CAME TO YOUR OFFICE, THE LAST FEW TIMES, 1114 00:53:01,137 --> 00:53:03,758 I'VE BEEN NOTHING BUT NICE TO YOU. 1115 00:53:03,758 --> 00:53:06,413 AND YOU'VE BEEN NOTHING BUT RUDE. 1116 00:53:06,413 --> 00:53:09,000 AND, YOU KNOW, IT'S JUST LIKE YOU POKE, 1117 00:53:09,000 --> 00:53:10,862 YOU POKE, YOU POKE, YOU POKE. 1118 00:53:10,862 --> 00:53:12,241 EVENTUALLY, YOU KEEP POKING AT SOMEBODY, 1119 00:53:12,241 --> 00:53:14,068 THEY GONNA BLOW UP ON YOUR ASS. 1120 00:53:14,068 --> 00:53:15,482 AND THAT'S JUST WHAT HAPPENED TODAY. 1121 00:53:15,482 --> 00:53:17,896 AND I'M SORRY FOR THAT. I'M SORRY FOR BLOWING UP ON YOU, 1122 00:53:17,896 --> 00:53:19,000 BECAUSE I DO RESPECT YOU AS A DOCTOR. 1123 00:53:19,000 --> 00:53:20,344 I HAVE NOTHING BUT RESPECT FOR YOU, 1124 00:53:20,344 --> 00:53:22,206 BECAUSE YOU ARE THE BEST DOCTOR. I HAVE RESEARCHED YOU, 1125 00:53:22,206 --> 00:53:24,413 BECAUSE I DO RESEARCH ON THE PEOPLE THAT WORK ON MY BODY. 1126 00:53:24,413 --> 00:53:27,896 BUT IT'S JUST YOU KEEP POKING AND POKING AND POKING. 1127 00:53:27,896 --> 00:53:29,620 IT'S BEEN A LONG DAY FOR ME. 1128 00:53:29,620 --> 00:53:31,275 AND I'M SORRY FOR TAKING IT OUT ON YOU, 1129 00:53:31,275 --> 00:53:32,758 BUT YOU CAN'T KEEP POKING. 1130 00:53:32,758 --> 00:53:35,620 YOU CAN'T KEEP JUST, "EH, EH, EH, EH." 1131 00:53:35,620 --> 00:53:37,137 YOU CAN'T KEEP DOING THAT. I UNDERSTAND. 1132 00:53:37,137 --> 00:53:39,965 YOU GOT TO DO YOUR JOB, THAT'S WHAT YOU GET PAID FOR. 1133 00:53:39,965 --> 00:53:44,931 BUT I COME TO THIS STRIP MALL TO SEE YOU, 1134 00:53:44,931 --> 00:53:48,448 AND I COME HERE, YOU KNOW, TO GET MEDICAL TREATMENT. 1135 00:53:48,448 --> 00:53:50,413 AND TRY TO HOPEFULLY GET APPROVED FOR SURGERY. 1136 00:53:50,413 --> 00:53:53,724 I'M NOT SAYING I WANT YOU TO MAGICALLY MAKE ME SKINNY. 1137 00:53:53,724 --> 00:53:55,000 OH, YEAH, MAKE ME SKINNY. MAKE ME SKINNY. 1138 00:53:55,000 --> 00:53:56,827 I DON'T WANT THAT. NO. 1139 00:53:56,827 --> 00:53:58,896 BUT WHAT I'M SAYING IS, THOUGH, 1140 00:53:58,896 --> 00:54:00,862 IT'S A LOT OF RESPECT THAT HAS TO BE UNDERSTOOD, 1141 00:54:00,862 --> 00:54:02,172 BECAUSE MY MOM -- 1142 00:54:02,172 --> 00:54:05,379 MY MOM DON'T TALK TO ME THE WAY YOU TALK TO ME. 1143 00:54:05,379 --> 00:54:08,310 NO ONE TALKS TO ME THAT WAY. AND SO I UNDERSTAND. 1144 00:54:08,310 --> 00:54:10,206 YOU'RE DOING YOUR JOB. I GET THAT. 1145 00:54:10,206 --> 00:54:12,413 IT'S JUST THE LEVEL OF RESPECT THAT HAS TO BE SHOWN. 1146 00:54:12,413 --> 00:54:14,827 BECAUSE I'VE BEEN NOTHING BUT NICE TO YOU. 1147 00:54:14,827 --> 00:54:18,896 EVEN WHEN YOU DISRESPECTED ME, I'VE BEEN NOTHING BUT NICE. 1148 00:54:18,896 --> 00:54:22,758 AND YOU, NO OFFENSE, BUT YOU'VE BEEN A 1149 00:54:22,758 --> 00:54:24,620 AND THAT'S ALL I GOT TO SAY. 1150 00:54:24,620 --> 00:54:27,000 OKAY, ASHLEY, FIRST, THIS IS A PROCESS 1151 00:54:27,000 --> 00:54:28,517 THAT WE ASK YOU A QUESTION, 1152 00:54:28,517 --> 00:54:30,448 AND YOU CALL THAT POKING AT YOU? 1153 00:54:30,448 --> 00:54:33,620 NO, I'M NOT. SEE, YOU GETTING MAD, DR. NOW. 1154 00:54:33,620 --> 00:54:35,586 WELL, THIS IS A PROCESS THAT EVERYBODY GO THROUGH. 1155 00:54:35,586 --> 00:54:37,655 AND I GET THAT, BUT YOU'RE NOT FITTIN' TO GET LOUD WITH ME. 1156 00:54:37,655 --> 00:54:38,758 Quenton: ASHLEY. 1157 00:54:38,758 --> 00:54:40,689 NO, NO, NO. 1158 00:54:40,689 --> 00:54:43,137 BRING IT DOWN. COUPLE OF NOTCHES. 1159 00:54:43,137 --> 00:54:44,413 YOU GET LOUD WITH ME WHEN I'M RIGHT HERE. 1160 00:54:44,413 --> 00:54:46,413 WE RIGHT HERE WITH EACH OTHER. 1161 00:54:46,413 --> 00:54:47,758 YOU NOT GONNA GET LOUD WITH ME. 1162 00:54:47,758 --> 00:54:49,137 NO, DON'T DO THAT. I GET WHAT YOU'RE SAYING. 1163 00:54:49,137 --> 00:54:50,758 I GET THE PROCESS, I GET ALL OF THAT. 1164 00:54:50,758 --> 00:54:52,310 AND I'M WILLING TO COMPLY. 1165 00:54:52,310 --> 00:54:53,724 BUT YOU CANNOT GET LOUD! 1166 00:54:53,724 --> 00:54:56,517 YOU'RE OKAY TO USE THE "F" WORD, 1167 00:54:56,517 --> 00:54:59,482 AND THEN WALKING OUT AND ALL THAT. 1168 00:54:59,482 --> 00:55:02,517 AND YOU THINK I AM LOUD WITH YOU? 1169 00:55:02,517 --> 00:55:03,758 YOU BEING LOUD RIGHT NOW, 1170 00:55:03,758 --> 00:55:06,689 AND I'M LITERALLY TWO FEET AWAY FROM YOU. 1171 00:55:06,689 --> 00:55:08,172 LIKE, I UNDERSTAND. 1172 00:55:08,172 --> 00:55:10,206 I USED SOME "F" BOMBS, AND I DROPPED A COUPLE OF "F" BOMBS. 1173 00:55:10,206 --> 00:55:12,344 OKAY, ASHLEY, THIS IS REALITY. 1174 00:55:12,344 --> 00:55:16,310 YOU ARE NOT CANDIDATE FOR ANY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 1175 00:55:16,310 --> 00:55:18,758 BECAUSE YOU DON'T HAVE RIGHT ATTITUDE. 1176 00:55:18,758 --> 00:55:21,137 AND YOU'RE NOT GONNA DO WELL WITH THE SURGERY, EITHER. 1177 00:55:21,137 --> 00:55:22,586 ALRIGHT. SO THERE IT IS. 1178 00:55:22,586 --> 00:55:24,000 OKAY? THAT'S A WRAP. 1179 00:55:24,000 --> 00:55:25,965 SO THIS IS SOMETHING 1180 00:55:25,965 --> 00:55:29,758 THAT PEOPLE THAT UNDERSTAND THE PROCESS, 1181 00:55:29,758 --> 00:55:32,896 THEY ANSWER THE QUESTION WHEN WE ASK THEM, 1182 00:55:32,896 --> 00:55:34,344 THEY DON'T GET UPSET, 1183 00:55:34,344 --> 00:55:37,275 THEY DON'T BECOME IRRATIONAL 1184 00:55:37,275 --> 00:55:40,896 AND THEY UNDERSTAND WHAT WE'RE TRYING TO DO, EDUCATE THEM. 1185 00:55:40,896 --> 00:55:44,620 BUT WHEN WE ASK YOU A QUESTION, YOU GET VERY DEFENSIVE. 1186 00:55:44,620 --> 00:55:46,103 YOU DON'T WANT TO ANSWER THE QUESTION... 1187 00:55:46,103 --> 00:55:47,448 YOU'RE TALKING TO ME CRAZY. 1188 00:55:47,448 --> 00:55:49,655 ...BECAUSE THE WHOLE PURPOSE OF THE QUESTION AND ANSWER 1189 00:55:49,655 --> 00:55:52,344 IS TO GET YOU TO UNDERSTAND WHAT THE PROCESS IS GONNA DO. 1190 00:55:52,344 --> 00:55:53,931 OKAY, YEAH. YOU'RE RIGHT.YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? 1191 00:55:53,931 --> 00:55:55,000 I'M WRONG. 1192 00:55:55,000 --> 00:55:57,448 AND THAT QUESTION IS NOT POKING, 1193 00:55:57,448 --> 00:56:00,413 AND THAT'S NOT BEING DISRESPECTFUL. 1194 00:56:00,413 --> 00:56:04,034 AND THIS IS NOT THE PROCESS THAT YOU CAN GO THROUGH 1195 00:56:04,034 --> 00:56:06,965 WITHOUT US MAKING SURE YOU UNDERSTAND THESE THINGS. 1196 00:56:06,965 --> 00:56:10,931 BECAUSE SURGERY IS NOT SOMETHING BENIGN. 1197 00:56:10,931 --> 00:56:12,206 THERE'S A RISK WITH IT. 1198 00:56:12,206 --> 00:56:15,689 AND IF YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO USE THAT TOOL, 1199 00:56:15,689 --> 00:56:17,344 YOU CAN HARM YOURSELF. 1200 00:56:17,344 --> 00:56:20,896 SO THIS IS EDUCATIONAL THING THAT WE ASK YOU. 1201 00:56:20,896 --> 00:56:22,275 OKAY. 1202 00:56:22,275 --> 00:56:24,137 AND EVERY TIME I ASK YOU A QUESTION, YOU DON'T ANSWER. 1203 00:56:27,310 --> 00:56:28,793 ALRIGHT. OKAY? 1204 00:56:28,793 --> 00:56:29,931 YOU'RE RIGHT. 1205 00:56:29,931 --> 00:56:31,689 YOU UNDERSTAND THAT?YES, SIR. 1206 00:56:31,689 --> 00:56:34,965 YOU SEEM TO BE A LITTLE SARCASTIC, SO I'M NOT SURE. 1207 00:56:34,965 --> 00:56:36,793 AND YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND. 1208 00:56:36,793 --> 00:56:38,517 FROM THIS POINT 1209 00:56:38,517 --> 00:56:41,620 TO THE POINT THAT YOU WANT TO BE HEALTHY, 1210 00:56:41,620 --> 00:56:43,517 THERE'S A STEP TO GO THROUGH. 1211 00:56:43,517 --> 00:56:45,448 YOU HAVE TO MAKE THOSE STEPS. 1212 00:56:45,448 --> 00:56:48,689 WE ARE HERE TO GUIDE YOU IN THE RIGHT CHANNEL. 1213 00:56:48,689 --> 00:56:50,724 WE GIVE YOU THE ROADMAP, 1214 00:56:50,724 --> 00:56:53,965 BUT WE CAN'T MAGICALLY MAKE THOSE THINGS TO HAPPEN. 1215 00:56:53,965 --> 00:56:55,482 OKAY? 1216 00:56:55,482 --> 00:56:57,448 SO WHEN I'M ASKING A QUESTION, 1217 00:56:57,448 --> 00:56:59,413 THAT YOU'RE NOT LOSING WEIGHT, 1218 00:56:59,413 --> 00:57:02,103 YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND THAT YOU'RE OVEREATING. 1219 00:57:02,103 --> 00:57:04,517 OKAY? AND YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND, 1220 00:57:04,517 --> 00:57:07,413 THE ONLY WAY THIS SURGERY'S GONNA CHANGE THAT IS, 1221 00:57:07,413 --> 00:57:09,448 IF YOU'RE WILLING TO MAKE THE CHOICES 1222 00:57:09,448 --> 00:57:10,551 TO STOP OVEREATING. 1223 00:57:10,551 --> 00:57:13,482 IT'S NOT GONNA HELP YOU IF YOU DON'T DO THAT. 1224 00:57:13,482 --> 00:57:15,137 OKAY? 1225 00:57:15,137 --> 00:57:18,827 SO THE SURGERY IS GOING TO MAKE CERTAIN CHANGES 1226 00:57:18,827 --> 00:57:23,000 THAT YOU SHOULD BE MAKING THOSE CHANGES NOW. 1227 00:57:23,000 --> 00:57:25,413 IF IT'S GONNA HAVE AN EFFECT AT ALL 1228 00:57:25,413 --> 00:57:28,931 AND FOR YOU TO BE SUCCESSFUL IN THE LONG RUN. 1229 00:57:28,931 --> 00:57:31,517 YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M SAYING? 1230 00:57:31,517 --> 00:57:33,586 OKAY? 1231 00:57:33,586 --> 00:57:38,206 SO, THE QUESTION IS, DO YOU VALUE YOUR LIFE? 1232 00:57:38,206 --> 00:57:41,103 OKAY. THEN, IF YOU'RE BEING HONEST ABOUT THINGS, 1233 00:57:41,103 --> 00:57:43,241 AND WHAT YOU'RE DOING, THEN TELL ME, 1234 00:57:43,241 --> 00:57:45,482 DO YOU SEE ANY PROBLEM WITH WHAT YOU'RE DOING 1235 00:57:45,482 --> 00:57:46,517 WITH YOUR CHOICES 1236 00:57:46,517 --> 00:57:49,172 THAT ARE KEEPING YOU AT THIS WEIGHT? 1237 00:57:49,172 --> 00:57:50,862 OKAY. WHAT IS THE PROBLEM 1238 00:57:50,862 --> 00:57:52,896 THAT HOLDING YOU FROM THIS POINT 1239 00:57:52,896 --> 00:57:54,862 TO GET TO THE POINT THAT YOU WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT? 1240 00:57:54,862 --> 00:57:59,206 MYSELF, AND I OVEREAT. 1241 00:57:59,206 --> 00:58:02,689 AND I DID CHEAT A COUPLE OF TIMES 1242 00:58:02,689 --> 00:58:05,241 SINCE OUR LAST APPOINTMENT. 1243 00:58:05,241 --> 00:58:06,724 ASHLEY, A FEW MINUTES AGO, 1244 00:58:06,724 --> 00:58:08,724 I ASKED YOU IF YOU WERE OVEREATING, 1245 00:58:08,724 --> 00:58:10,931 YOU SAID YOU NEVER --YES, I DO OVEREAT. 1246 00:58:10,931 --> 00:58:13,448 OKAY, THIS IS A GOOD STEP TO ADMIT THAT. 1247 00:58:13,448 --> 00:58:15,137 BUT THEN HOW DO YOU SEE THE SURGERY 1248 00:58:15,137 --> 00:58:16,448 IS GONNA CHANGE THAT? 1249 00:58:16,448 --> 00:58:19,068 I HAVE TO CHANGE THAT FIRST BEFORE I GET THE SURGERY, 1250 00:58:19,068 --> 00:58:21,862 AND I'M WILLING TO CHANGE THAT. 1251 00:58:21,862 --> 00:58:24,896 I KNOW NOW, I CAN'T TURN TO FOOD WHENEVER I'M MAD. 1252 00:58:24,896 --> 00:58:26,344 I'M USED TO DOING THAT. 1253 00:58:26,344 --> 00:58:28,241 TAKE THE SURGERY OFF THE TABLE. 1254 00:58:28,241 --> 00:58:30,896 I HAVE TO WORK ON MYSELF BEFORE I CAN GET THE SURGERY. 1255 00:58:30,896 --> 00:58:32,379 BECAUSE IF I'M NOT HEALTHY MENTALLY, 1256 00:58:32,379 --> 00:58:35,655 PHYSICALLY, EMOTIONALLY, THEN THE SURGERY, IT WILL FAIL. 1257 00:58:35,655 --> 00:58:38,689 I DON'T WANT THE SURGERY TO FAIL BECAUSE THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE. 1258 00:58:38,689 --> 00:58:40,275 OBVIOUSLY I'M SERIOUS ABOUT THE PROGRAM 1259 00:58:40,275 --> 00:58:43,068 BECAUSE I'M DRIVING -- WE LIVE FOUR HOURS. 1260 00:58:43,068 --> 00:58:46,137 I LIVE FOUR HOURS AWAY, FOUR, THREE HOURS AWAY. 1261 00:58:46,137 --> 00:58:48,448 I'M COMING AFTER WORK WHEN I COULD BE HOME, 1262 00:58:48,448 --> 00:58:50,034 DOING OTHER STUFF. BUT, YEAH, I'M HERE. 1263 00:58:50,034 --> 00:58:52,448 NOT SAYING THAT THAT'S... 1264 00:58:52,448 --> 00:58:53,689 I'M OBVIOUSLY TAKING THIS SERIOUS, 1265 00:58:53,689 --> 00:58:55,517 BECAUSE NORMALLY WHEN I GET OFF OF WORK, 1266 00:58:55,517 --> 00:58:57,586 I GO TO BED TO GET READY FOR THE NEXT DAY. 1267 00:58:57,586 --> 00:59:01,620 BUT I'M SERIOUS ABOUT THIS, AND I HOPE YOU GIVE ME A CHANCE. 1268 00:59:01,620 --> 00:59:03,034 I MEAN, YOU DON'T HAVE TO GIVE ME A CHANCE, 1269 00:59:03,034 --> 00:59:05,206 BUT I'M HOPING YOU DO BECAUSE I AM SERIOUS ABOUT IT. 1270 00:59:05,206 --> 00:59:06,758 OKAY, ASHLEY. 1271 00:59:06,758 --> 00:59:10,103 DO YOU REALIZE THAT IS AN ELEMENT OF FOOD COMFORT. 1272 00:59:10,103 --> 00:59:13,172 YOU FEEL UPSET AND YOU EAT. YOU FEEL BETTER. 1273 00:59:13,172 --> 00:59:14,620 YES. 1274 00:59:14,620 --> 00:59:15,793 OKAY, SO THAT'S WHY 1275 00:59:15,793 --> 00:59:17,241 YOU NEED TO KEEP WORKING WITH PSYCHOTHERAPY. 1276 00:59:17,241 --> 00:59:18,896 OKAY? YEAH. 1277 00:59:18,896 --> 00:59:21,172 DO YOU SEE WHAT YOU NEED TO WORK ON NOW 1278 00:59:21,172 --> 00:59:23,275 AND WHAT DO YOU NEED TO DO? 1279 00:59:23,275 --> 00:59:24,689 YEAH, NOW I'M PSYCHED. 1280 00:59:24,689 --> 00:59:26,206 NOW I KNOW I HAVE TO COPE WITH -- 1281 00:59:26,206 --> 00:59:27,758 I HAVE TO START LETTING MY EMOTIONS OUT 1282 00:59:27,758 --> 00:59:29,931 BECAUSE, IT'S JUST, I'VE BEEN SAD LATELY. 1283 00:59:29,931 --> 00:59:32,620 BUT I KNOW ONCE I HAVE THE SURGERY, IF I HAVE THE SURGERY, 1284 00:59:32,620 --> 00:59:35,517 I HAVE TO FIND NEW WAYS TO COPE WITH MY EMOTIONS. 1285 00:59:35,517 --> 00:59:37,965 I HAVE TO LET THEM OUT. I CAN'T JUST HOLD THEM IN. 1286 00:59:37,965 --> 00:59:39,896 I HAVE TO ACTUALLY TALK TO PEOPLE 1287 00:59:39,896 --> 00:59:42,034 AND I HAVE TO TELL PEOPLE WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH. 1288 00:59:42,034 --> 00:59:43,551 I'M THE TYPE OF PERSON, 1289 00:59:43,551 --> 00:59:45,724 STUFF WILL BE GOING ON IN MY LIFE AND I WON'T TELL NOBODY. 1290 00:59:45,724 --> 00:59:47,310 OKAY? SO WHAT YOU'RE SAYING 1291 00:59:47,310 --> 00:59:49,206 IS A STEP IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. 1292 00:59:49,206 --> 00:59:50,620 AND I'M PROUD OF YOU FOR THAT, 1293 00:59:50,620 --> 00:59:53,413 BUT RIGHT NOW YOU HAVE TO TAKE THERAPY SERIOUSLY 1294 00:59:53,413 --> 00:59:54,620 AND WORK WITH THEM. 1295 00:59:54,620 --> 00:59:57,310 AND THEN I WANT YOU TO SHOW ME THAT WITH ACTION 1296 00:59:57,310 --> 01:00:00,896 BY LOSING 40 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT 2 MONTHS, OKAY? 1297 01:00:00,896 --> 01:00:01,931 OKAY. 1298 01:00:01,931 --> 01:00:03,586 SO YOU NEED TO START MAKING CHANGES 1299 01:00:03,586 --> 01:00:05,620 AND DO WHAT YOU NEED. OKAY? 1300 01:00:05,620 --> 01:00:09,758 I WILL. BUT I'VE BEEN DOING THE STUFF ON THE PAPER, 1301 01:00:09,758 --> 01:00:11,310 THE BAD STUFF AND THE GOOD STUFF. 1302 01:00:11,310 --> 01:00:12,620 I'VE BEEN TAKING THIS STUFF. 1303 01:00:12,620 --> 01:00:14,965 IT'S JUST I'VE BEEN OVEREATING WITH IT. 1304 01:00:14,965 --> 01:00:16,275 BUT HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU TOLD ME 1305 01:00:16,275 --> 01:00:17,413 YOU'RE NOT OVEREATING? 1306 01:00:17,413 --> 01:00:19,241 I KNOW, DR. NOW, BUT I REALLY AM OVEREATING. 1307 01:00:19,241 --> 01:00:20,758 SO WHICH ONE OF THEM I SHOULD BELIEVE? 1308 01:00:20,758 --> 01:00:22,724 I JUST TOLD YOU I'M OVEREATING. I'M TELLING YOU THE TRUTH. 1309 01:00:22,724 --> 01:00:23,724 I'M OVEREATING. I OVEREAT THE FOOD. 1310 01:00:23,724 --> 01:00:25,068 NO, SHE'S TELLING YOU THE TRUTH. 1311 01:00:25,068 --> 01:00:26,862 SHE'S DOING THAT. THAT'S THE TRUTH. 1312 01:00:26,862 --> 01:00:28,068 NOW THE TRUTH IS COMING OUT. 1313 01:00:28,068 --> 01:00:29,689 YES, NOW THE TRUTH IS COMING OUT. 1314 01:00:29,689 --> 01:00:31,103 I'M TELLING YOU THE TRUTH. I'M OVEREATING THE FOOD. 1315 01:00:31,103 --> 01:00:33,034 I BOUGHT THE HEALTHY FOOD. I DID EVERYTHING ON THE LIST. 1316 01:00:33,034 --> 01:00:36,793 I WENT, I GOT ALL THE BAD STUFF OUT MY HOUSE, BUT IT'S JUST NOW 1317 01:00:36,793 --> 01:00:38,103 I'M OVEREATING THE HEALTHY FOOD. 1318 01:00:38,103 --> 01:00:39,655 AND NOW SHE'S TELLING ON HERSELF, 1319 01:00:39,655 --> 01:00:40,689 SO SHE'S TELLING HE TRUTH. 1320 01:00:40,689 --> 01:00:42,310 I OVEREAT THE HEALTHY FOOD. 1321 01:00:42,310 --> 01:00:45,931 OKAY, SO HOW ARE Y'ALL GONNA HELP HER? 1322 01:00:45,931 --> 01:00:47,310 OH, SHE ALREADY KNOWS ABOUT THAT ONE. 1323 01:00:47,310 --> 01:00:48,551 Ashley: THEY GOT RID OF ALL THE UNHEALTHY FOOD 1324 01:00:48,551 --> 01:00:49,620 YOU DIDN'T WANT ME TO EAT. 1325 01:00:49,620 --> 01:00:50,862 WE WAS TOLD THAT SHE WAS EATING LIKE 1326 01:00:50,862 --> 01:00:52,241 SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO. 1327 01:00:52,241 --> 01:00:53,896 NOW WE GOT TO WATCH HER ASS. 1328 01:00:53,896 --> 01:00:56,241 YEAH. NOW WE GONNA BE THE ONES 1329 01:00:56,241 --> 01:00:57,586 WHO HAVE TO PREPARE YOUR MEALS FOR YOU. 1330 01:00:57,586 --> 01:00:59,103 I STARTED COOKING, DR. NOW. 1331 01:00:59,103 --> 01:01:00,620 THEY COME OVER AND I COOK, 1332 01:01:00,620 --> 01:01:03,137 BUT THEN WHEN THEY LEAVE, I EAT ALL I COOKED. 1333 01:01:03,137 --> 01:01:05,241 YEP. THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT SHE DOES. 1334 01:01:05,241 --> 01:01:08,103 SO NOW WE'RE GONNA HAVE TO WATCH YOUR ASS EAT. 1335 01:01:08,103 --> 01:01:09,827 AND THEN PUT THE FOOD UP. 1336 01:01:09,827 --> 01:01:12,586 OKAY, ASHLEY, DO YOU THINK YOU CAN DO ALL THAT? 1337 01:01:12,586 --> 01:01:15,655 I SAID I WOULD AND I'M ADMITTING TO MY WRONGS, DR. NOW, 1338 01:01:15,655 --> 01:01:16,896 WHICH IS HARD FOR ME 1339 01:01:16,896 --> 01:01:18,068 BECAUSE I DON'T ADMIT TO NONE OF MY WRONGS. 1340 01:01:18,068 --> 01:01:19,482 YEAH, THAT'S REALLY HARD TO DO. 1341 01:01:19,482 --> 01:01:21,793 I LIKE YOU BECAUSE I'M TELLING YOU WHAT I DID 1342 01:01:21,793 --> 01:01:24,655 BECAUSE I DON'T TELL ON MYSELF. I TAKE IT TO THE GRAVE. 1343 01:01:24,655 --> 01:01:26,827 TAKE THE DOC. TAKE THE WIN. 1344 01:01:26,827 --> 01:01:28,827 ALRIGHT, ASHLEY, MAKE SURE YOU GO 1345 01:01:28,827 --> 01:01:30,724 TO YOUR NEXT THERAPY APPOINTMENT. 1346 01:01:30,724 --> 01:01:32,758 WORK WITH LOLA TO START TO ADDRESS 1347 01:01:32,758 --> 01:01:34,482 THE THINGS HOLDING YOU BACK. 1348 01:01:34,482 --> 01:01:37,896 AND THEN LOSE 40 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT 2 MONTHS. 1349 01:01:37,896 --> 01:01:39,655 YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT?YES, SIR. 1350 01:01:39,655 --> 01:01:42,379 IF YOU'VE DONE GOOD, YOU CHANGE YOUR EATING HABIT, 1351 01:01:42,379 --> 01:01:43,862 IT'S GONNA SHOW ON THE SCALE. 1352 01:01:43,862 --> 01:01:46,137 BUT YOU HAVE TO BE HONEST BECAUSE EVERY TIME 1353 01:01:46,137 --> 01:01:48,068 I ASK YOU ABOUT YOUR EATING HABITS, 1354 01:01:48,068 --> 01:01:50,931 YOU SORT OF KEEP THAT UNDER CARPET. 1355 01:01:50,931 --> 01:01:53,172 I'VE NEVER WANTED PEOPLE TO KNOW HOW MUCH I REALLY EAT. 1356 01:01:53,172 --> 01:01:54,793 IT'S OVER TIME, I JUST STARTED HIDING 1357 01:01:54,793 --> 01:01:56,344 HOW MUCH I WAS REALLY EATING. 1358 01:01:56,344 --> 01:01:58,206 BUT NOW I KNOW I CAN'T DO THAT WITH YOU. 1359 01:01:58,206 --> 01:02:00,379 SO I'M NOT GONNA DO THAT NO MORE. NO MORE. 1360 01:02:00,379 --> 01:02:02,758 FROM THIS DAY FORWARD, NO MORE, DR. NOW. 1361 01:02:02,758 --> 01:02:05,482 OH, NO. NO, WE'RE GOING TO MAKE SURE. TRUST ME. 1362 01:02:05,482 --> 01:02:07,862 OKAY. SO YOU HAVE A GOOD SUPPORT SYSTEM. 1363 01:02:07,862 --> 01:02:11,344 AND I GIVE YOU BOTH COPY OF HER DIET AND EXERCISE, TOO, 1364 01:02:11,344 --> 01:02:13,103 SO THEY KNOW WHAT YOU'RE GONNA EAT. 1365 01:02:13,103 --> 01:02:14,379 -YEAH. -GIVE IT TO THEM. 1366 01:02:14,379 --> 01:02:15,931 Dierra: BECAUSE NOW SHE GOT TO BE SUPERVISED, 1367 01:02:15,931 --> 01:02:17,310 BECAUSE SHE WASN'T TELLING THE TRUTH. 1368 01:02:17,310 --> 01:02:19,068 9 TIMES OUT OF 10, 1369 01:02:19,068 --> 01:02:21,137 THEY NOT GONNA LET ME COOK FOR MYSELF NO MORE. 1370 01:02:21,137 --> 01:02:23,517 SEE, I STARTED COOKING FOR MYSELF LIKE YOU TOLD ME. 1371 01:02:23,517 --> 01:02:25,275 THIS IS WHERE WE GOT. 1372 01:02:25,275 --> 01:02:26,896 OH, YEAH, THAT'S OUT THE WINDOW. 1373 01:02:26,896 --> 01:02:30,034 WELL, EATING SALAD IS NOT COOKING. OKAY? 1374 01:02:30,034 --> 01:02:32,620 NO, SHE ACTUALLY COOKED SALMON. 1375 01:02:32,620 --> 01:02:35,344 HOLD UP, DOC, I NEVER COOK FOR MYSELF. 1376 01:02:35,344 --> 01:02:36,827 I DIDN'T EVEN BURN DOWN MY HOUSE. 1377 01:02:36,827 --> 01:02:38,241 SHE BEEN BINGE-WATCHING AUNT FAYE'S AND EVERYTHING ELSE. 1378 01:02:38,241 --> 01:02:39,793 EXACTLY. 1379 01:02:39,793 --> 01:02:41,758 IS THAT IT? 1380 01:02:41,758 --> 01:02:44,068 ALRIGHT, ASHLEY. I DON'T WANT YOU TO COME BACK HERE 1381 01:02:44,068 --> 01:02:45,931 AND TELL ME YOU'RE NOT OVEREATING. 1382 01:02:45,931 --> 01:02:47,724 "I DON'T KNOW WHY I DIDN'T LOSE ANY WEIGHT." 1383 01:02:47,724 --> 01:02:50,310 I GOT YOU. I GOT YOU. 1384 01:02:50,310 --> 01:02:52,379 WHY AM I GONNA DO THAT? I'M GONNA LOSE THE 40 POUNDS. 1385 01:02:52,379 --> 01:02:53,896 AND WHEN I ASK YOU WHAT YOU EAT, 1386 01:02:53,896 --> 01:02:55,620 DON'T CALL US THAT WE POKING AT YOU. 1387 01:02:55,620 --> 01:02:57,068 I'M NOT GONNA SAY THAT NO MORE. 1388 01:02:57,068 --> 01:02:58,862 I DID THAT THIS ONE TIME, DOC. 1389 01:02:58,862 --> 01:03:00,275 I'M NOT GONNA DO YOU LIKE THAT NO MORE. 1390 01:03:00,275 --> 01:03:04,379 NOW, YOU, ME, WE LIKE HERE. WE FAMILY NOW. I GOT YOU. 1391 01:03:04,379 --> 01:03:07,689 ALRIGHT, IN TWO MONTHS, YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE 1392 01:03:07,689 --> 01:03:09,551 40 POUNDS IN 2 MONTHS. 1393 01:03:09,551 --> 01:03:10,724 SO IN THE MEANTIME, 1394 01:03:10,724 --> 01:03:13,172 IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTION, GIVE ME A CALL. 1395 01:03:13,172 --> 01:03:15,517 AND THEN WE'LL SEE HOW YOU DO IN TWO MONTHS. 1396 01:03:15,517 --> 01:03:16,620 OKAY? 1397 01:03:16,620 --> 01:03:17,827 ALRIGHT. I'LL SEE YOU IN TWO MONTHS. 1398 01:03:17,827 --> 01:03:19,965 ALRIGHT. 1399 01:03:19,965 --> 01:03:23,068 YOU TAKE CARE. NICE TO MEET YOU GUYS. 1400 01:03:23,068 --> 01:03:24,758 AND I'LL GET YOU THE STUFF. OKAY? 1401 01:03:24,758 --> 01:03:25,689 -OKAY. -YES, SIR. 1402 01:03:25,689 --> 01:03:26,724 ALRIGHT. 1403 01:03:33,689 --> 01:03:35,586 I WAS OBVIOUSLY VERY CONCERNED 1404 01:03:35,586 --> 01:03:38,862 WHEN ASHLEY GOT UPSET AND STORMED OUT. 1405 01:03:38,862 --> 01:03:40,931 I THOUGHT THAT COULD BE IT FOR HER, 1406 01:03:40,931 --> 01:03:42,413 BUT THANKFULLY SHE CAME BACK 1407 01:03:42,413 --> 01:03:45,413 AND WAS WILLING TO TALK TO ME AFTER A LITTLE BIT 1408 01:03:45,413 --> 01:03:48,965 AND MADE SOME POSITIVE STEPS COMING CLEAN ABOUT HER 1409 01:03:48,965 --> 01:03:52,241 EATING HABITS AND BEING HONEST WITH ME ABOUT THAT. 1410 01:03:52,241 --> 01:03:54,586 SO, THAT WAS ENCOURAGING. 1411 01:03:54,586 --> 01:03:57,551 BUT THE FACT REMAINS THAT SHE'S STILL NOT LOSING WEIGHT 1412 01:03:57,551 --> 01:04:00,137 AND SHOWING ME SHE'S TAKING THIS SERIOUSLY. 1413 01:04:00,137 --> 01:04:03,206 AND THERE STILL SEEM TO BE A LOT OF EMOTIONAL 1414 01:04:03,206 --> 01:04:05,172 AND PSYCHOLOGICAL ISSUES 1415 01:04:05,172 --> 01:04:07,172 THAT SHE NEEDS TO START WORKING ON 1416 01:04:07,172 --> 01:04:09,275 TO GET PAST WHAT IS HOLDING HER BACK 1417 01:04:09,275 --> 01:04:12,275 AND KEEPING HER FROM MAKING THE CHANGES SHE NEEDS. 1418 01:04:12,275 --> 01:04:15,551 SO SHE'S STILL VERY FAR FROM WHERE SHE NEEDS TO BE 1419 01:04:15,551 --> 01:04:18,275 TO BE READY FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1420 01:04:18,275 --> 01:04:21,517 AND THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IS THAT SHE NEED TO KEEP WORKING 1421 01:04:21,517 --> 01:04:24,965 WITH PSYCHOTHERAPY RIGHT NOW TO TURN THINGS AROUND. 1422 01:04:24,965 --> 01:04:29,206 AND UNTIL SHE DOES THAT, THEN WE WON'T BE MOVING AHEAD WITH HER. 1423 01:04:30,758 --> 01:04:32,448 Ashley: I'M GLAD I CAME BACK IN 1424 01:04:32,448 --> 01:04:34,965 BECAUSE I STILL NEED THIS SURGERY, THOUGH, 1425 01:04:34,965 --> 01:04:37,758 SO I CAN START LIVING BECAUSE I DO WANT TO LIVE. 1426 01:04:37,758 --> 01:04:39,275 I WANT TO START LIVING MY LIFE. 1427 01:04:39,275 --> 01:04:41,241 I DON'T WANT TO BE TRAPPED IN THIS BODY. 1428 01:04:41,241 --> 01:04:45,241 DOING THIS IS HARD, BUT ALL I CAN DO IS TRY AGAIN 1429 01:04:45,241 --> 01:04:46,965 AND KEEP DOING MY BEST 1430 01:04:46,965 --> 01:04:48,965 BECAUSE I NEED TO GO BACK TO LOLA. 1431 01:04:48,965 --> 01:04:51,068 I NEED MORE ASSISTANCE. 1432 01:04:51,068 --> 01:04:53,448 SO I'LL GO BACK AND TRY TO WORK ON THINGS. 1433 01:04:53,448 --> 01:04:55,275 AND HOPEFULLY WHEN I COME BACK NEXT TIME, 1434 01:04:55,275 --> 01:04:58,931 IT'LL BE ENOUGH TO SHOW DR. NOW WHAT HE NEEDS TO SEE FROM ME 1435 01:04:58,931 --> 01:05:01,689 TO MOVE AHEAD WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 1436 01:05:01,689 --> 01:05:05,344 SO I CAN FINALLY GET CLOSER TO THE LIFE I WANT 1437 01:05:05,344 --> 01:05:07,896 BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT THIS IS ALL FOR. 1438 01:05:25,413 --> 01:05:27,000 Ashley: I HAD ANOTHER APPOINTMENT WITH LOLA, 1439 01:05:27,000 --> 01:05:28,344 AND SHE TALKED TO ME AGAIN 1440 01:05:28,344 --> 01:05:30,413 ABOUT THE THINGS WE DID THE FIRST TIME. 1441 01:05:30,413 --> 01:05:32,448 AND SHE STILL THINKS I NEED TO CREATE A PROFILE 1442 01:05:32,448 --> 01:05:34,379 OF MYSELF THAT'S TRUTHFUL, 1443 01:05:34,379 --> 01:05:36,793 WHICH IS HONESTLY SOMETHING I'VE NEVER DONE. 1444 01:05:36,793 --> 01:05:38,827 I'VE CREATED THOUSANDS OF PROFILES 1445 01:05:38,827 --> 01:05:40,827 AND I'VE USED THEM FOR CATFISHING. 1446 01:05:40,827 --> 01:05:42,689 SOME HAVE SOME REALNESS TO THEM, 1447 01:05:42,689 --> 01:05:45,000 BUT NOTHING THAT'S JUST ME TO THE WORLD. 1448 01:05:45,000 --> 01:05:48,000 BUT I'M WILLING TO DO THE STEPS I NEED TO TRY AND GROW AND DEAL 1449 01:05:48,000 --> 01:05:49,793 WITH MY ISSUES THAT ARE HOLDING ME BACK 1450 01:05:49,793 --> 01:05:52,172 SO THAT I CAN GET TO A HEALTHIER PLACE. 1451 01:05:52,172 --> 01:05:54,137 THIS IS HARD BECAUSE IT'S SCARY TO ME 1452 01:05:54,137 --> 01:05:56,206 TO PUT MYSELF OUT THERE LIKE THAT. 1453 01:05:56,206 --> 01:05:58,793 BECAUSE MY TEMPTATION IS GONNA BE TO TRY AND CHANGE 1454 01:05:58,793 --> 01:06:00,724 SOMETHING ABOUT MYSELF. 1455 01:06:02,206 --> 01:06:03,862 COME IN. 1456 01:06:03,862 --> 01:06:04,965 AND THEN IT'LL PROBABLY JUST END UP LIKE 1457 01:06:04,965 --> 01:06:06,517 ONE OF MY OTHER PROFILES. 1458 01:06:06,517 --> 01:06:09,689 QUENTON SAID HE'LL COME OVER TO HELP ME WITH IT. 1459 01:06:09,689 --> 01:06:10,793 MM-HMM. 1460 01:06:10,793 --> 01:06:11,931 I'M SO MAD RIGHT NOW. 1461 01:06:11,931 --> 01:06:12,965 WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU? 1462 01:06:12,965 --> 01:06:14,034 YOU KNOW, MY ANXIETY KICKS IN. 1463 01:06:14,034 --> 01:06:16,137 WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE EXACTLY? 1464 01:06:16,137 --> 01:06:18,241 JUST A SOCIAL MEDIA ACCOUNT. 1465 01:06:18,241 --> 01:06:19,620 ALRIGHT. 1466 01:06:19,620 --> 01:06:21,068 NOTHING SERIOUS. 1467 01:06:21,068 --> 01:06:23,413 OKAY. WHAT KIND OF USERNAME DO YOU WANT? 1468 01:06:23,413 --> 01:06:25,000 I DON'T KNOW. 1469 01:06:29,275 --> 01:06:31,172 OKAY. 1470 01:06:31,172 --> 01:06:32,965 I KNOW THAT SEEMS LIKE A SIMPLE THING, 1471 01:06:32,965 --> 01:06:34,448 BUT THIS IS A BIG STEP FOR ME. 1472 01:06:34,448 --> 01:06:37,655 BUT I KNOW FROM WHAT LOLA SAYS, IT HELPS ME GROW 1473 01:06:37,655 --> 01:06:40,551 TO WHERE I COULD BE OKAY PUTTING MYSELF OUT THERE. 1474 01:06:40,551 --> 01:06:41,758 I'M GONNA TAKE A PICTURE OF YOU. 1475 01:06:41,758 --> 01:06:42,793 IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT, YOU CAN DELETE IT. 1476 01:06:42,793 --> 01:06:44,413 OKAY, THAT'S FINE. ALRIGHT. 1477 01:06:44,413 --> 01:06:46,965 SO I'M PROUD OF MYSELF FOR ACCOMPLISHING THIS TODAY, 1478 01:06:46,965 --> 01:06:51,379 BUT I KNOW IT'S JUST THE EARLY STEP IN MY PROCESS. 1479 01:06:51,379 --> 01:06:53,103 BECAUSE LOLA GAVE ME OTHER THINGS 1480 01:06:53,103 --> 01:06:55,034 I NEED TO WORK ON DOING, TOO, 1481 01:06:55,034 --> 01:06:58,206 LIKE DOING SOCIAL ACTIVITIES TO WHERE I CAN MEET PEOPLE. 1482 01:06:58,206 --> 01:07:02,620 SO I KNOW I NEED TO KEEP GOING AND DO THAT TO BETTER MYSELF. 1483 01:07:02,620 --> 01:07:04,827 SO I'M GONNA FOCUS ON THAT STEP NEXT 1484 01:07:04,827 --> 01:07:07,793 SO I CAN KEEP PUSHING FORWARD WITH MY GROWTH HOW I NEED IT. 1485 01:07:07,793 --> 01:07:09,724 AND HOPEFULLY AS I DO THAT, 1486 01:07:09,724 --> 01:07:13,068 I'LL START TO SEE THE GROWTH WITH MY WEIGHT LOSS, TOO. 1487 01:07:13,068 --> 01:07:16,793 ALRIGHT, SO WE CAN GO AHEAD AND FINISH THIS UP. 1488 01:07:16,793 --> 01:07:20,034 SO WHY DO YOU FEEL LIKE LOLA WANTED YOU TO DO THIS? 1489 01:07:20,034 --> 01:07:21,241 BECAUSE SHE WANTED ME 1490 01:07:21,241 --> 01:07:23,206 TO COME UP OUT OF MY SOCIAL-ANXIETY SHELL. 1491 01:07:23,206 --> 01:07:25,517 I FEEL LIKE IF I COME OUT MY SHELL, 1492 01:07:25,517 --> 01:07:26,827 PEOPLE ARE JUST GONNA ATTACK ME 1493 01:07:26,827 --> 01:07:29,689 AND THEN I'M GOING TO ATTACK THEM. 1494 01:07:29,689 --> 01:07:31,000 SEE, THAT'S THE THING. 1495 01:07:31,000 --> 01:07:33,034 IF THEY DO, THEN THAT'S ON THEM. 1496 01:07:33,034 --> 01:07:35,482 REMEMBER, SOCIAL MEDIA NEEDS YOU, YOU DON'T NEED IT. 1497 01:07:35,482 --> 01:07:37,586 I KNOW. THERE YOU GO. 1498 01:07:37,586 --> 01:07:39,413 SEE, LOOK. 1499 01:07:39,413 --> 01:07:40,896 I LIKE THAT ONE. 1500 01:07:40,896 --> 01:07:45,068 BECAUSE THAT'S STILL MY PRIMARY FOCUS TO GET TO WHERE I WANT 1501 01:07:45,068 --> 01:07:47,689 AND THAT STILL ALL DEPENDS ON MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 1502 01:07:47,689 --> 01:07:49,000 AND GETTING THAT. 1503 01:07:49,000 --> 01:07:51,586 SO, I KEEP PUSHING FORWARD AND DOING ALL THE THINGS 1504 01:07:51,586 --> 01:07:54,931 I CAN TO GET THERE AND MAKE SURE I DO THAT. 1505 01:08:00,482 --> 01:08:02,172 TONIGHT I'M TAKING ANOTHER STEP 1506 01:08:02,172 --> 01:08:05,034 THAT ACCOMPLISHES SOME THINGS FOR ME. 1507 01:08:05,034 --> 01:08:09,413 ONE THING IS THAT LOLA GAVE ME THE TASK OF BEING MORE SOCIAL. 1508 01:08:09,413 --> 01:08:11,517 AND SINCE I NEED TO DO EXERCISES, TOO, 1509 01:08:11,517 --> 01:08:13,689 WHAT I DECIDED WAS TO DO AN ACTIVITY CLASS 1510 01:08:13,689 --> 01:08:16,310 AT THE GYM WHERE WE DO SOME BOXING. 1511 01:08:16,310 --> 01:08:18,137 HELLO. HI. 1512 01:08:18,137 --> 01:08:21,034 NICE TO MEET YOU, LONZO. ALRIGHTY. 1513 01:08:21,034 --> 01:08:22,724 FIRST TIME DOING THIS? YEAH. 1514 01:08:22,724 --> 01:08:24,206 OKAY. SO FIRST THINGS FIRST, 1515 01:08:24,206 --> 01:08:26,034 WE'LL KIND OF JUST GET THESE ON RIGHT NOW 1516 01:08:26,034 --> 01:08:27,310 AND THEN WE'LL JUST EASE INTO THAT. OKAY? 1517 01:08:27,310 --> 01:08:30,241 I THINK DOING THIS WILL ALSO HELP ME GET STRONGER, 1518 01:08:30,241 --> 01:08:31,413 BECAUSE I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO KNOW 1519 01:08:31,413 --> 01:08:34,206 HOW TO DEFEND MYSELF IN CASE I NEED TO. 1520 01:08:34,206 --> 01:08:36,931 SO, I'M KILLING A LOT OF BIRDS WITH ONE STONE. 1521 01:08:36,931 --> 01:08:39,517 IT'S JUST OUTSIDE MY COMFORT ZONE. 1522 01:08:39,517 --> 01:08:42,620 AND NOW THAT I'M HERE, MY NERVOUSNESS IS GROWING. 1523 01:08:42,620 --> 01:08:47,172 BUT I THINK THIS WILL BE GOOD FOR ME, SO I'M DOING THIS. 1524 01:08:47,172 --> 01:08:48,793 ASHLEY, WE'LL GET YOU ON THIS BAG RIGHT HERE. 1525 01:08:48,793 --> 01:08:50,206 SO WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO HERE, 1526 01:08:50,206 --> 01:08:51,931 WE'RE JUST THROWING THE LEFT HAND RIGHT HERE. 1527 01:08:51,931 --> 01:08:57,310 YEP. ONE, TWO, THREE, FOUR, FIVE. 1528 01:08:57,310 --> 01:08:59,448 GOOD. ALRIGHT, SO WE'RE GONNA SWITCH STANCES NOW. 1529 01:08:59,448 --> 01:09:01,965 Man: READY? AND ONE. 1530 01:09:01,965 --> 01:09:05,241 JAB, TWO KNEES. BOOM, BOOM. 1531 01:09:05,241 --> 01:09:07,034 JAB, TWO KNEES. 1532 01:09:07,034 --> 01:09:10,551 GOOD. JAB, ONE. AND THEN THE OTHER KNEE. 1533 01:09:10,551 --> 01:09:11,689 EXCELLENT. 1534 01:09:11,689 --> 01:09:14,206 MORE JAB, BOOM. KNEE, BOOM, KNEE, BOOM. 1535 01:09:14,206 --> 01:09:17,586 EXCELLENT. 1536 01:09:17,586 --> 01:09:20,137 JAB, BOOM. KNEE, BOOM. 1537 01:09:20,137 --> 01:09:22,103 EXCELLENT. 1538 01:09:22,103 --> 01:09:26,689 KNEE, BOOM, KNEE. EXCELLENT. ONE MORE. 1539 01:09:26,689 --> 01:09:29,586 JAB, KNEE, BOOM, BOOM. 1540 01:09:29,586 --> 01:09:32,172 EXCELLENT. GOOD WORK. 1541 01:09:32,172 --> 01:09:34,620 Alonzo: GLOVES OFF, GLOVES OFF. 1542 01:09:34,620 --> 01:09:36,310 I CAN GET THEM OFF YOU. 1543 01:09:36,310 --> 01:09:40,137 THAT TOOK A LOT OUT OF ME, BUT I FEEL GOOD 1544 01:09:40,137 --> 01:09:44,000 AND I'M PROUD OF MYSELF FOR PUSHING MYSELF TO DO THIS. 1545 01:09:44,000 --> 01:09:46,862 AND I DO FEEL LIKE BEING OUT AND BEING MORE SOCIAL, 1546 01:09:46,862 --> 01:09:49,172 IT'S HELPING ME BETTER MYSELF. 1547 01:09:49,172 --> 01:09:51,793 SO I THINK I'M MAKING A LOT OF GOOD PROGRESS NOW 1548 01:09:51,793 --> 01:09:54,482 AND I'M TURNING THINGS AROUND TO GET TO A BETTER PLACE 1549 01:09:54,482 --> 01:09:55,931 AND LOSE MORE WEIGHT. 1550 01:09:55,931 --> 01:09:59,068 SO WHEN I GO BACK TO DR. NOW, I'LL FINALLY BE -- 1551 01:09:59,068 --> 01:10:02,482 HE SEES MY HARD WORK AND MY DETERMINATION TO DO THIS. 1552 01:10:02,482 --> 01:10:04,137 I KNOW I HAVE MORE WORK IN MY LIFE 1553 01:10:04,137 --> 01:10:07,068 TO DO TO GET BETTER, BUT I'M NOT STOPPING 1554 01:10:07,068 --> 01:10:09,827 AND I'M DOING WHAT I NEED TO FIGHT FOR MY LIFE. 1555 01:10:09,827 --> 01:10:12,379 SO I'M REALLY HOPING NOW THAT MY NEXT APPOINTMENT 1556 01:10:12,379 --> 01:10:15,000 IS THE TIME WHERE IT'LL ALL PAY OFF FOR ME 1557 01:10:15,000 --> 01:10:17,206 WHEN I FINALLY GET APPROVED FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1558 01:10:37,206 --> 01:10:40,724 Ashley: OVERALL, THIS PAST MONTH HAS BEEN GOOD. 1559 01:10:40,724 --> 01:10:43,413 IT'S JUST WHEN YOU WORK SO HARD TO STAY ON TRACK, 1560 01:10:43,413 --> 01:10:46,620 IT MAKES MOMENTS LIKE THIS THAT MUCH HARDER 1561 01:10:46,620 --> 01:10:49,344 BECAUSE THE NEXT THING I TRIED TO DO FROM LOLA'S ADVICE 1562 01:10:49,344 --> 01:10:50,758 WAS TO REACH OUT TO MY FAMILY 1563 01:10:50,758 --> 01:10:54,689 I NEED TO MAKE AMENDS WITH, TO RESTORE MY RELATIONSHIPS. 1564 01:10:55,551 --> 01:10:57,206 YES. -HELLO. 1565 01:10:57,206 --> 01:11:00,758 -HI. -WHAT CAN I GET FOR YOU? 1566 01:11:00,758 --> 01:11:02,620 LET ME GET A LARGE MANGO SMOOTHIE. 1567 01:11:02,620 --> 01:11:04,620 LARGE MANGO SMOOTHIE.WHAT'S YOU WANT? 1568 01:11:04,620 --> 01:11:07,758 Quenton: OH, CAN I GET A BLENDED CREAM VANILLA BEAN 1569 01:11:07,758 --> 01:11:09,034 WITH ORANGE MARMALADE? 1570 01:11:09,034 --> 01:11:10,103 -ORANGE MARMALADE? -YES, MA'AM. 1571 01:11:10,103 --> 01:11:11,517 DID YOU WANT WHIPPED CREAM ON YOURS? 1572 01:11:11,517 --> 01:11:13,793 YES, MA'AM.LET ME GET THAT FOR YOU. 1573 01:11:13,793 --> 01:11:14,965 -APPRECIATE IT. -ALRIGHTY. 1574 01:11:17,931 --> 01:11:20,413 Ashley: AND I'M TRYING TO DO THAT STARTING WITH MY AUNT 1575 01:11:20,413 --> 01:11:22,068 BECAUSE OF WHAT HAPPENED WITH HER 1576 01:11:22,068 --> 01:11:24,724 WHEN IT CAME OUT I WAS CATFISHING. 1577 01:11:24,724 --> 01:11:27,896 BECAUSE I KNOW I SAID SOME THINGS ONLINE I REGRET. 1578 01:11:27,896 --> 01:11:30,172 AND SO THAT'S WHY I WANT TO MAKE AMENDS FOR IT. 1579 01:11:30,172 --> 01:11:34,379 EVEN THOUGH SHE SAID SOME DISRESPECTFUL THINGS TO ME, TOO. 1580 01:11:34,379 --> 01:11:36,862 BUT SO FAR SHE HADN'T PICKED UP MY CALLS, 1581 01:11:36,862 --> 01:11:39,000 SO I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO DO THAT. 1582 01:11:39,000 --> 01:11:42,172 SO I'M JUST WORRIED WITH THE OBSTACLES I'M FACING, 1583 01:11:42,172 --> 01:11:45,241 IT'S GONNA HOLD ME UP FOR MY PROGRESS. 1584 01:11:45,241 --> 01:11:47,827 SO QUENTON IS TRYING TO TAKE MY MIND OFF THINGS 1585 01:11:47,827 --> 01:11:51,275 AND LET ME VENT SOME OF MY EMOTIONS TO HIM TO BE SUPPORTIVE 1586 01:11:51,275 --> 01:11:53,724 BECAUSE HE SEES MY STRUGGLE RIGHT NOW. 1587 01:11:57,344 --> 01:11:58,344 WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON? 1588 01:11:58,344 --> 01:11:59,620 EVERYTHING. 1589 01:11:59,620 --> 01:12:01,310 REALLY? MM-HMM. 1590 01:12:01,310 --> 01:12:04,344 GUESS WHAT HAPPENED TODAY? I GOT TO MY MOM'S. 1591 01:12:04,344 --> 01:12:06,620 OH, THAT'S GOOD. MM-HMM. 1592 01:12:06,620 --> 01:12:08,000 I WAS TELLING HER ABOUT MY JOURNEY 1593 01:12:08,000 --> 01:12:10,965 AND EVERYTHING I'M GOING THROUGH. 1594 01:12:10,965 --> 01:12:13,000 SHE'S JUST UNDERSTANDING. 1595 01:12:13,000 --> 01:12:14,103 WHAT DID SHE SAY? 1596 01:12:14,103 --> 01:12:15,931 SHE WAS JUST SAYING SHE'S THERE FOR ME 1597 01:12:15,931 --> 01:12:17,586 AND SHE WISHED SHE COULD BE HERE. 1598 01:12:19,896 --> 01:12:23,344 BUT I WAS DEALING WITH MY SHRINK, LOLA. 1599 01:12:25,827 --> 01:12:27,551 SHE WAS JUST SAYING I NEED TO MAKE AMENDS 1600 01:12:27,551 --> 01:12:32,379 AND TRY TO REBUILD BRIDGES AND START REKINDLING STUFF 1601 01:12:32,379 --> 01:12:33,931 WITH MY FAMILY. 1602 01:12:33,931 --> 01:12:35,896 AND I'M TRYING. I MISS THEM. 1603 01:12:35,896 --> 01:12:39,517 SHE GOT YOU TO REKINDLE WITH YOUR FAMILY? 1604 01:12:39,517 --> 01:12:41,241 YEAH. 1605 01:12:41,241 --> 01:12:43,000 I'M IMPRESSED. 1606 01:12:43,000 --> 01:12:44,931 WHAT ELSE DID YOU AND LOLA TALK ABOUT? 1607 01:12:44,931 --> 01:12:46,931 BECAUSE I KNOW LOLA GOT INTO IT, GOT INTO IT. 1608 01:12:46,931 --> 01:12:49,034 WE TALKED ABOUT MY SOCIAL ANXIETY. 1609 01:12:49,034 --> 01:12:53,862 WAIT, SHE GOT YOU TO SPEAK? 1610 01:12:53,862 --> 01:12:55,517 ALRIGHT. I'M IMPRESSED, MISS LOLA. I'M IMPRESSED. 1611 01:12:55,517 --> 01:12:58,689 YEAH, MY SOCIAL ANXIETY, SHE WAS TELLING ME ABOUT IT 1612 01:12:58,689 --> 01:13:00,896 AND I WAS TELLING HER, "I FEAR GOING OUT. 1613 01:13:00,896 --> 01:13:02,448 I'M SCARED TO GO OUT, 1614 01:13:02,448 --> 01:13:04,758 BECAUSE I'M ALWAYS THINKING SOMEBODY'S AFTER ME." 1615 01:13:04,758 --> 01:13:08,206 BUT WHAT I'M ABOUT TO TELL YOU 1616 01:13:08,206 --> 01:13:10,586 IS THE WORLD AIN'T AGAINST YOU, 1617 01:13:10,586 --> 01:13:11,931 IF YOU KNOW THAT. 1618 01:13:11,931 --> 01:13:13,931 THAT'S THE THING, I KNOW THE WORLD'S NOT AGAINST ME, 1619 01:13:13,931 --> 01:13:16,103 IT'S JUST, YOU KNOW. 1620 01:13:16,103 --> 01:13:18,482 AS LONG AS FEEL LIKE YOU'RE IN A GOOD PLACE, 1621 01:13:18,482 --> 01:13:20,827 THEN I'M ROOTING FOR YOU. 1622 01:13:20,827 --> 01:13:23,689 BUT LET'S KNOCK OFF THIS 20 POUNDS, 1623 01:13:23,689 --> 01:13:26,896 LET'S GET THIS SURGERY DONE, AND LET'S JUST CALL IT. 1624 01:13:26,896 --> 01:13:28,310 I'M AT A POINT IN MY LIFE WHERE I'M LIKE, 1625 01:13:28,310 --> 01:13:30,206 "WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS." 1626 01:13:30,206 --> 01:13:33,206 I'M NOT FORCING NOTHING. I'M NOT CHASING NOBODY. 1627 01:13:33,206 --> 01:13:36,034 I AIN'T BEGGING NOBODY TO TALK TO ME. 1628 01:13:36,034 --> 01:13:39,862 BUT AS FAR AS 20 POUNDS GO, I MEAN, IT'S GONNA HAPPEN. 1629 01:13:39,862 --> 01:13:41,724 LET'S DO IT. LET'S GET IT OVER WITH. 1630 01:13:44,034 --> 01:13:45,724 I'M TRYING MY BEST TO TAKE ALL THE STEPS 1631 01:13:45,724 --> 01:13:49,103 I NEED AND TAKE MY WALLS DOWN TO MOVE FORWARD, 1632 01:13:49,103 --> 01:13:51,620 BUT I CAN'T CONTROL OTHER PEOPLE'S ACTIONS 1633 01:13:51,620 --> 01:13:53,758 AND THEIR CHOICES TO ME. 1634 01:13:53,758 --> 01:13:55,034 I CAN ONLY DO WHAT I CAN DO, 1635 01:13:55,034 --> 01:13:59,310 AND I'M JUST HOPING NONE OF THIS HOLDS ME BACK. 1636 01:13:59,310 --> 01:14:02,137 BUT I'M DOING WHAT I CAN AND I'VE BEEN PUSHING SO HARD 1637 01:14:02,137 --> 01:14:04,862 TO GET TO MY GOAL FOR THE PAST TWO MONTHS. 1638 01:14:04,862 --> 01:14:06,068 AND I ONLY HAVE ABOUT A WEEK 1639 01:14:06,068 --> 01:14:08,862 UNTIL MY NEXT APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW. 1640 01:14:08,862 --> 01:14:10,551 AND I NEED TO MAKE AS MUCH PROGRESS 1641 01:14:10,551 --> 01:14:13,000 AS I CAN TO INCREASE MY CHANCES 1642 01:14:13,000 --> 01:14:15,896 BECAUSE I NEED TO HIT MY GOAL AND GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 1643 01:14:15,896 --> 01:14:19,275 WHICH IS THE WHOLE REASON FOR ALL OF THIS 1644 01:14:19,275 --> 01:14:23,068 BECAUSE I'M VERY READY TO GET TO THE LIFE I REALLY WANT 1645 01:14:23,068 --> 01:14:24,620 AND START LIVING FOR THE FIRST TIME. 1646 01:14:24,620 --> 01:14:27,275 TRULY LIVE. 1647 01:14:27,275 --> 01:14:29,103 SO I'M WORKING MY HARDEST TO DO THAT 1648 01:14:29,103 --> 01:14:30,931 AND I JUST HOPE IT'S ENOUGH. 1649 01:14:44,586 --> 01:14:47,896 I'M BACK AT DR. NOW'S AND I'M VERY NERVOUS, 1650 01:14:47,896 --> 01:14:51,310 EXTREMELY BECAUSE THIS HAS TO BE IT FOR ME. 1651 01:14:51,310 --> 01:14:53,448 I WORKED MY HARDEST TO TAKE ALL THE STEPS 1652 01:14:53,448 --> 01:14:55,448 I NEED TO GET TO MY GOAL. 1653 01:14:57,689 --> 01:14:59,344 ASHLEY. 1654 01:14:59,344 --> 01:15:02,137 AND SO NOW I FEEL LIKE IT'S ALL ON THE LINE 1655 01:15:02,137 --> 01:15:05,655 BECAUSE I'VE DONE WHAT I CAN AND I NEED THIS SURGERY. 1656 01:15:05,655 --> 01:15:09,517 AND I KNOW IT'S GONNA ALL COME DOWN TO MY WEIGHT AGAIN. 1657 01:15:09,517 --> 01:15:13,448 SO, I'M REALLY HOPING I'M WHERE I NEED AND I MADE IT TO MY GOAL 1658 01:15:13,448 --> 01:15:16,103 BECAUSE ALL MY HOPES AND MY DREAMS 1659 01:15:16,103 --> 01:15:18,000 AND MY WHOLE LIFE ARE DEPENDENT ON THIS. 1660 01:15:32,413 --> 01:15:35,034 Ashley: I'M AT DR. NOW'S AGAIN TO FIND OUT MY WEIGHT, 1661 01:15:35,034 --> 01:15:37,482 AND I'M REALLY HOPING THAT WITH HOW MUCH HARDER I TRIED, 1662 01:15:37,482 --> 01:15:39,655 THAT I MET MY GOAL THIS TIME. 1663 01:15:39,655 --> 01:15:42,448 AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT I WAS AT 475. 1664 01:15:42,448 --> 01:15:45,172 AND DR. NOW SAID I NEEDED TO LOSE 40 POUNDS. 1665 01:15:45,172 --> 01:15:47,034 SO THAT WOULD PUT ME AT FOR 435 1666 01:15:47,034 --> 01:15:49,068 IF I'M THERE AND WHERE I NEED TO BE. 1667 01:15:58,655 --> 01:16:02,551 THAT'S AT LEAST MORE THAN LAST TIME, SO THAT'S A POSITIVE. 1668 01:16:02,551 --> 01:16:04,758 BUT I DON'T KNOW IF THAT'S HOW DR. NOW 1669 01:16:04,758 --> 01:16:09,448 IS GONNA SEE IT TO AGREE BECAUSE IT'S NOT TO MY GOAL. 1670 01:16:09,448 --> 01:16:12,413 SO I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS IS GONNA GO, 1671 01:16:12,413 --> 01:16:16,275 BUT PROBABLY NOT LIKE I NEED IT. 1672 01:16:16,275 --> 01:16:19,034 SO I'M JUST VERY DISAPPOINTED AND WEARY RIGHT NOW. 1673 01:16:28,068 --> 01:16:31,000 COME IN. 1674 01:16:31,000 --> 01:16:31,965 HELLO. HELLO. 1675 01:16:31,965 --> 01:16:33,689 -HELLO. -HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? 1676 01:16:33,689 --> 01:16:35,275 WE'RE DOING GOOD. HOW ARE YOU FEELING? 1677 01:16:35,275 --> 01:16:37,827 I'M GOOD. THANK YOU. 1678 01:16:37,827 --> 01:16:40,034 I SEE YOU'RE 469 TODAY. 1679 01:16:40,034 --> 01:16:41,862 YES, SIR. 1680 01:16:41,862 --> 01:16:43,379 OKAY. MY MAIN CONCERN 1681 01:16:43,379 --> 01:16:46,137 IS THAT YOU'RE NOT LOSING ENOUGH WEIGHT 1682 01:16:46,137 --> 01:16:47,896 SINCE YOU STARTED THE PROGRAM. 1683 01:16:47,896 --> 01:16:50,482 AND SO THAT'S AN ISSUE RIGHT NOW. 1684 01:16:50,482 --> 01:16:52,758 BUT I LOST ALMOST 20 POUNDS TOTAL, 1685 01:16:52,758 --> 01:16:54,724 SO I'VE MADE IT TO YOUR GOAL. 1686 01:16:54,724 --> 01:16:57,862 BUT IT'S TAKING YOU SIX TIMES LONGER TO DO THAT, 1687 01:16:57,862 --> 01:16:59,482 SO THAT'S A FACTOR THAT SHOWS 1688 01:16:59,482 --> 01:17:01,310 THAT YOU'RE STILL NOT CUTTING BACK 1689 01:17:01,310 --> 01:17:02,862 YOUR EATING LIKE YOU SHOULD. 1690 01:17:02,862 --> 01:17:04,517 BUT I LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT ON TOP OF THAT 1691 01:17:04,517 --> 01:17:06,758 BECAUSE I REALLY STARTED AT 630. 1692 01:17:06,758 --> 01:17:09,068 REALLY? YES, SIR. 1693 01:17:09,068 --> 01:17:11,448 WELL, I GOT THE REST OF YOUR MEDICAL RECORD 1694 01:17:11,448 --> 01:17:14,034 FROM WHEN YOU TRIED TO DO WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 1695 01:17:14,034 --> 01:17:16,655 FROM THE PREVIOUS CLINIC YOU WENT TO. 1696 01:17:16,655 --> 01:17:18,000 YES, SIR. 1697 01:17:18,000 --> 01:17:21,310 IT GOES BACK TO THREE YEARS AGO. 1698 01:17:21,310 --> 01:17:22,448 YES, SIR. 1699 01:17:22,448 --> 01:17:24,275 AND THREE YEARS AGO, 1700 01:17:24,275 --> 01:17:27,241 THEY SAID YOU WERE AT 449 POUND. 1701 01:17:27,241 --> 01:17:31,689 AND THEN THREE YEARS AGO, 477 POUNDS. 1702 01:17:31,689 --> 01:17:35,000 AND THEN 479. 1703 01:17:35,000 --> 01:17:36,758 SO NOW 469. 1704 01:17:36,758 --> 01:17:41,241 JUST PRETTY MUCH THE SAME WEIGHT 1705 01:17:41,241 --> 01:17:44,551 YOU HAVE BEEN FOR PAST THREE YEARS. 1706 01:17:44,551 --> 01:17:48,172 SO I CAN'T SEE WHERE YOU HAVE LOST MUCH OF ANY WEIGHT 1707 01:17:48,172 --> 01:17:51,137 RECENTLY OR IN THE PAST THREE YEARS. 1708 01:17:51,137 --> 01:17:52,931 SO THERE IS STILL NO EVIDENCE 1709 01:17:52,931 --> 01:17:55,517 THAT YOU ARE TAKING THIS SERIOUSLY LIKE YOU NEED. 1710 01:17:55,517 --> 01:17:58,034 BECAUSE YOU'RE STILL NOT LOSING WEIGHT. 1711 01:17:58,034 --> 01:18:00,344 AND MY BIG CONCERN IS THAT YOUR BMI 1712 01:18:00,344 --> 01:18:02,034 IS STILL VERY HIGH. 1713 01:18:02,034 --> 01:18:03,000 YES, SIR. 1714 01:18:03,000 --> 01:18:05,137 IT'S ALMOST 84. 1715 01:18:05,137 --> 01:18:07,379 AND THIS IS A GOOD WAY 1716 01:18:07,379 --> 01:18:09,275 TO HAVE BLOOD PRESSURE AND DIABETES 1717 01:18:09,275 --> 01:18:11,379 AND WITH THE UNKNOWN CONDITION 1718 01:18:11,379 --> 01:18:13,896 THAT WE HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO FULLY DETERMINE 1719 01:18:13,896 --> 01:18:16,586 BECAUSE YOU HAVE REFUSED TO LET US DO 1720 01:18:16,586 --> 01:18:18,655 ALL THE TESTING IN THE PAST. 1721 01:18:18,655 --> 01:18:20,586 SO BEFORE WE DO ANYTHING ELSE, 1722 01:18:20,586 --> 01:18:22,551 I WANT TO DO SOME TESTS ON YOU 1723 01:18:22,551 --> 01:18:25,965 AND SEE WHAT THE KIND OF HEALTH ISSUE YOU HAVE. 1724 01:18:25,965 --> 01:18:27,620 AND WE NEED TO DO THAT TODAY 1725 01:18:27,620 --> 01:18:29,793 IF YOU WANT TO CONTINUE WITH THE PROGRAM. 1726 01:18:29,793 --> 01:18:32,034 OKAY? OKAY. 1727 01:18:32,034 --> 01:18:34,344 SO YOU'RE WILLING TO DO THAT RIGHT NOW? 1728 01:18:34,344 --> 01:18:37,034 YES, SIR. I'M WILLING TO DO IT. 1729 01:18:37,034 --> 01:18:40,689 OKAY. LET'S GET THAT GOING AND THEN I WILL COME BACK 1730 01:18:40,689 --> 01:18:42,793 AND DISCUSS THAT FURTHER WITH YOU. 1731 01:18:50,758 --> 01:18:51,862 COME IN. 1732 01:18:51,862 --> 01:18:54,172 HELLO. I'M HERE TO GET YOUR BLOOD WORK. 1733 01:18:54,172 --> 01:18:55,965 OKAY. 1734 01:18:55,965 --> 01:18:58,103 I'M GETTING NERVOUS. 1735 01:18:58,103 --> 01:19:01,793 I'M GETTING NERVOUS. 1736 01:19:01,793 --> 01:19:03,137 Dr. Nowzaradan: IT'S POSITIVE 1737 01:19:03,137 --> 01:19:04,896 THAT ASHLEY IS FINALLY ALLOWING US 1738 01:19:04,896 --> 01:19:07,758 TO RUN SOME OF THE TESTS WE HAVE NEEDED ON HER. 1739 01:19:07,758 --> 01:19:09,862 AND MY CONCERN IS THAT WITH HOW LONG 1740 01:19:09,862 --> 01:19:12,551 SHE HAS HAD THIS AMOUNT OF WEIGHT ON HER BODY, 1741 01:19:12,551 --> 01:19:15,103 SHE COULD HAVE A SERIOUS ISSUE AT THIS POINT 1742 01:19:15,103 --> 01:19:17,758 THAT WE NEED TO SEND HER TO THE HOSPITAL TO TREAT. 1743 01:19:17,758 --> 01:19:20,275 SO BEFORE WE DO ANYTHING ELSE WITH HER, 1744 01:19:20,275 --> 01:19:22,310 WE NEED TO MAKE SURE TO RUN SOME TESTS 1745 01:19:22,310 --> 01:19:24,206 AND SEE WHAT HER SITUATION IS, 1746 01:19:24,206 --> 01:19:27,310 SO WE CAN GET AHEAD OF ANY ISSUES WE NEED WITH HER 1747 01:19:27,310 --> 01:19:29,172 BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE. 1748 01:19:32,448 --> 01:19:34,034 HI, ASHLEY. 1749 01:19:34,034 --> 01:19:35,551 HEY, DOCTOR. 1750 01:19:35,551 --> 01:19:39,896 SO WE GOT YOUR BLOOD TESTS AND WE GOT YOUR EKG. 1751 01:19:39,896 --> 01:19:41,758 SO THAT'S GOOD 1752 01:19:41,758 --> 01:19:43,896 THAT YOU FINALLY COOPERATING WITH US FOR THAT 1753 01:19:43,896 --> 01:19:46,551 BECAUSE IT'S IMPORTANT WE ARE ABLE TO FULLY TREAT YOU. 1754 01:19:46,551 --> 01:19:49,965 AND SO FAR THE TEST SHOWS THAT THERE'S NOTHING 1755 01:19:49,965 --> 01:19:51,689 LIFE-THREATENING GOING ON, WHICH IS GOOD, 1756 01:19:51,689 --> 01:19:53,965 BUT THAT CAN CHANGE VERY QUICKLY FOR YOU 1757 01:19:53,965 --> 01:19:55,896 AS LONG AS YOU PUTTING ALL THE STRAIN 1758 01:19:55,896 --> 01:19:57,620 IN YOUR SYSTEM WITH YOUR WEIGHT. 1759 01:19:57,620 --> 01:20:00,137 SO YOU NEED TO GET TO A POINT 1760 01:20:00,137 --> 01:20:02,448 WHERE YOU'RE LOSING AT LEAST 20 POUNDS A MONTH, 1761 01:20:02,448 --> 01:20:05,758 CONSISTENTLY, OVER A PERIOD OF TIME AT THIS POINT. 1762 01:20:05,758 --> 01:20:07,758 AND YOU CAN START TO SHOW ME THAT 1763 01:20:07,758 --> 01:20:10,896 BY LOSING AT LEAST 40 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT 2 MONTHS. 1764 01:20:10,896 --> 01:20:13,793 AND PSYCHOTHERAPY NEED TO MAKE MORE PROGRESS WITH YOU 1765 01:20:13,793 --> 01:20:16,413 BEFORE WE CONSIDER YOU THAT YOU'RE GONNA BE CANDIDATE 1766 01:20:16,413 --> 01:20:18,482 FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1767 01:20:18,482 --> 01:20:20,724 YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT? 1768 01:20:20,724 --> 01:20:23,758 OKAY. ALRIGHT, ASHLEY. I'LL SEE YOU IN TWO MONTHS. 1769 01:20:23,758 --> 01:20:25,103 AND IF YOU NEED ANYTHING IN THE MEANTIME, 1770 01:20:25,103 --> 01:20:26,344 GIVE ME A CALL. 1771 01:20:26,344 --> 01:20:28,310 ALRIGHTY.ALRIGHT. SEE Y'ALL LATER. 1772 01:20:28,310 --> 01:20:29,448 ALRIGHT. IT WAS GOOD SEEING YOU. 1773 01:20:29,448 --> 01:20:31,034 Dierra: YOU TOO. TAKE CARE. 1774 01:20:34,620 --> 01:20:37,172 I THINK AT THIS POINT, OUR FOCUS WITH ASHLEY 1775 01:20:37,172 --> 01:20:39,137 NEEDS TO BE ON PSYCHOTHERAPY, 1776 01:20:39,137 --> 01:20:41,689 BECAUSE THERE SEEMS TO BE A SIGNIFICANT NUMBER 1777 01:20:41,689 --> 01:20:44,379 OF EMOTIONAL AND PSYCHOLOGICAL ISSUES 1778 01:20:44,379 --> 01:20:46,793 HOLDING HER BACK THAT WE NEED TO ADDRESS 1779 01:20:46,793 --> 01:20:51,689 BEFORE IT'S LIKELY WE ARE GOING TO SEE MUCH PROGRESS WITH HER. 1780 01:20:51,689 --> 01:20:54,448 SO EVEN THOUGH WE HAVE SEEN ASHLEY 1781 01:20:54,448 --> 01:20:57,586 TAKE SOME POSITIVE STEPS OVER THE PAST SIX MONTHS, 1782 01:20:57,586 --> 01:21:00,379 SHE'S STILL FAR AWAY FROM WHERE SHE NEEDS TO BE, 1783 01:21:00,379 --> 01:21:02,827 TO BE READY FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1784 01:21:02,827 --> 01:21:04,275 BUT UNTIL THAT HAPPENS, 1785 01:21:04,275 --> 01:21:08,103 THERE IS NOT MUCH MORE WE CAN DO FOR HER. 1786 01:21:08,103 --> 01:21:11,517 Ashley: THIS IS KILLING ME, BUT THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO 1787 01:21:11,517 --> 01:21:15,310 BUT KEEP TRYING AND DO WHAT DR. NOW SAYS. 1788 01:21:15,310 --> 01:21:16,655 THAT'S ALL WE CAN DO. 1789 01:21:16,655 --> 01:21:20,482 I'M JUST GONNA KEEP IT GOING, LIKE, WHAT CAN I DO? 1790 01:21:20,482 --> 01:21:23,793 BECAUSE I CAN'T FAIL AND LOSE THIS BECAUSE IF I GIVE UP, 1791 01:21:23,793 --> 01:21:27,103 THEN I WILL AND I'M SCARED OF FAILURE. 1792 01:21:27,103 --> 01:21:29,000 SO, I'LL KEEP GOING AND DO MY THERAPY 1793 01:21:29,000 --> 01:21:31,275 AND TRY TO WORK ON THINGS BETTER. 1794 01:21:31,275 --> 01:21:34,241 BECAUSE I HAVE TO DO THIS OR I KNOW I'LL LOSE EVERYTHING 1795 01:21:34,241 --> 01:21:36,310 AND I CAN'T LET THAT HAPPEN. 1796 01:21:46,344 --> 01:21:48,689 I'M HEADED BACK TO LOLA FOR ANOTHER APPOINTMENT 1797 01:21:48,689 --> 01:21:50,827 TO KEEP WORKING ON THINGS. 1798 01:21:50,827 --> 01:21:53,586 I KNOW I NEED IT AND THAT THIS IS IMPORTANT. 1799 01:21:55,724 --> 01:21:58,000 ASHLEY. HEY, MISS LOLA. 1800 01:21:58,000 --> 01:21:59,000 COME ON BACK. 1801 01:21:59,000 --> 01:22:01,793 ALRIGHTY. I'M READY. 1802 01:22:01,793 --> 01:22:04,620 BUT I'M A LITTLE DOWN ABOUT HOW LONG THE PROCESS IS TAKING. 1803 01:22:04,620 --> 01:22:09,724 I JUST HOPE I'M ABLE TO ADVANCE MORE HERE SOON. 1804 01:22:09,724 --> 01:22:13,758 OKAY, SO WELCOME BACK. 1805 01:22:13,758 --> 01:22:15,517 HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY? 1806 01:22:15,517 --> 01:22:18,137 I'M ON AN EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTER. 1807 01:22:18,137 --> 01:22:20,827 ONE MINUTE I'M HAPPY AND I'M OKAY. 1808 01:22:20,827 --> 01:22:23,655 AND NEXT MINUTE, I'M CRYING, I'M SAD. 1809 01:22:23,655 --> 01:22:25,275 I'M JUST NONSTOP CRYING. 1810 01:22:25,275 --> 01:22:29,034 YOU KNOW, ASHLEY, AFTER OUR INITIAL MEETING 1811 01:22:29,034 --> 01:22:31,517 WHERE WE HAD THE FIRST ASSESSMENT, 1812 01:22:31,517 --> 01:22:35,241 I WAS ABLE TO THOROUGHLY REVIEW YOUR ASSESSMENT 1813 01:22:35,241 --> 01:22:38,103 AND GO OVER SOME THINGS IN THE NOTES. 1814 01:22:38,103 --> 01:22:41,965 AND IT APPEARS THAT YOU DEFINITELY SUFFER 1815 01:22:41,965 --> 01:22:45,310 WITH MAJOR DEPRESSIVE DISORDER. 1816 01:22:45,310 --> 01:22:47,310 AND ALONG WITH THAT, 1817 01:22:47,310 --> 01:22:49,862 THERE SEEM TO BE SOME COMPONENTS 1818 01:22:49,862 --> 01:22:53,551 OF BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER. 1819 01:22:53,551 --> 01:22:55,068 OKAY. 1820 01:22:55,068 --> 01:22:57,896 AND SO MORE THAN LIKELY, 1821 01:22:57,896 --> 01:23:00,275 YOU'LL NEED TO HAVE ROUTINE THERAPY 1822 01:23:00,275 --> 01:23:02,758 ON A CONTINUING BASIS 1823 01:23:02,758 --> 01:23:05,034 PRIOR TO ACTUALLY MOVING FORWARD 1824 01:23:05,034 --> 01:23:07,448 WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1825 01:23:07,448 --> 01:23:09,482 SO IT'S GONNA BE REALLY IMPORTANT 1826 01:23:09,482 --> 01:23:11,724 IN ORDER TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN FOR YOU, 1827 01:23:11,724 --> 01:23:14,137 THAT YOU HAVE A SIGNIFICANT STRETCH 1828 01:23:14,137 --> 01:23:15,655 OF EMOTIONAL STABILITY 1829 01:23:15,655 --> 01:23:18,034 WITHOUT ANY OF THE DIPS OR THE ROLLER COASTER 1830 01:23:18,034 --> 01:23:19,482 THAT YOU'RE DESCRIBING. 1831 01:23:19,482 --> 01:23:20,896 YEAH. 1832 01:23:20,896 --> 01:23:22,517 I'M HOPING WE GET TO HAVE THE SURGERY 1833 01:23:22,517 --> 01:23:24,068 BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT I WANT. 1834 01:23:24,068 --> 01:23:26,206 IF I DON'T HAVE THE SURGERY, 1835 01:23:26,206 --> 01:23:28,655 THEN THIS WAS A WASTE OF MY TIME. 1836 01:23:28,655 --> 01:23:32,793 A LITTLE SELF-INTROSPECTION WILL GO A LONG WAY 1837 01:23:32,793 --> 01:23:36,034 IN HELPING YOU DEVELOP THE EMOTIONAL DEPTH, 1838 01:23:36,034 --> 01:23:40,068 THE EMPATHY, THE REMORSE AND JUST THE COMPASS 1839 01:23:40,068 --> 01:23:44,172 THAT YOU NEED TO NAVIGATE YOUR JOURNEY. 1840 01:23:46,931 --> 01:23:48,827 OKAY, WELL, THANK YOU. 1841 01:23:48,827 --> 01:23:50,103 THANK YOU. 1842 01:23:50,103 --> 01:23:52,275 AND I LOOK FORWARD TO SEEING YOU AGAIN. 1843 01:23:56,103 --> 01:23:58,344 SOME OF THAT WAS SHOCKING TO HEAR FROM LOLA 1844 01:23:58,344 --> 01:24:00,758 ABOUT MY PERSONALITY DISORDER. 1845 01:24:00,758 --> 01:24:03,206 I'VE KNOWN I'VE HAD DEPRESSION FOR A LONG TIME, 1846 01:24:03,206 --> 01:24:07,758 BUT NO ONE HAS EVER TOLD ME THAT ABOUT MY PERSONALITIES. 1847 01:24:07,758 --> 01:24:09,586 SO I HAVE A LOT TO PROCESS FOR MYSELF 1848 01:24:09,586 --> 01:24:11,931 AND THINK OVER TO GET TO A BETTER PLACE WITH IT 1849 01:24:11,931 --> 01:24:15,517 BEFORE I TALK ABOUT IT OR MAKE ANY PLANS WITH IT. 1850 01:24:15,517 --> 01:24:19,310 BUT AS HARD AND UNCOMFORTABLE IT WAS AT MOMENTS, 1851 01:24:19,310 --> 01:24:22,862 I THINK THIS IS GOOD TODAY FOR ME AND WILL HELP ME. 1852 01:24:32,517 --> 01:24:35,344 AFTER MY LAST APPOINTMENTS WITH DR. NOW AND LOLA, 1853 01:24:35,344 --> 01:24:37,862 I HAD TO DO SOME SOUL SEARCHING WITHIN MYSELF 1854 01:24:37,862 --> 01:24:40,655 BECAUSE I HAD A LOT TO KIND OF WRESTLE WITH, I GUESS 1855 01:24:40,655 --> 01:24:42,551 WITH ALL THE THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN SAID, 1856 01:24:42,551 --> 01:24:45,896 AND WITH WHAT LOLA TOLD ME ABOUT MY PERSONALITY DISORDER. 1857 01:24:45,896 --> 01:24:47,482 BUT THE QUESTION BEFORE ME WAS, 1858 01:24:47,482 --> 01:24:49,482 AM I GONNA STICK WITH THIS OR NOT? 1859 01:24:49,482 --> 01:24:53,758 BECAUSE THIS HAS BECOME A LOT MORE THAN I THOUGHT IT WAS. 1860 01:24:53,758 --> 01:24:56,068 SO AFTER THINKING ABOUT IT A GOOD DEAL, 1861 01:24:56,068 --> 01:24:58,965 I'VE DEFINITELY DECIDED THAT I'M 100% COMMITTED TO THIS 1862 01:24:58,965 --> 01:25:00,965 AND THAT I'M NOT STOPPING UNTIL I GET HEALTHY 1863 01:25:00,965 --> 01:25:04,172 IN ALL THE WAYS I NEED, EMOTIONALLY AND MENTALLY. 1864 01:25:04,172 --> 01:25:06,965 BECAUSE I KNOW ALL OF ME HAS TO GET BETTER. 1865 01:25:06,965 --> 01:25:09,000 AND I'M GONNA KEEP GOING TO LOLA FOR MY APPOINTMENTS 1866 01:25:09,000 --> 01:25:12,068 WITH HER AND MOVE FORWARD WITH MY LIFE AND MY HEALTH. 1867 01:25:12,068 --> 01:25:13,758 I'M PROUD OF ALL THAT I'VE ALREADY BEEN ABLE 1868 01:25:13,758 --> 01:25:15,275 TO ACCOMPLISH SO FAR. 1869 01:25:15,275 --> 01:25:16,862 AND EVEN THOUGH THE JOURNEY IS A LOT FURTHER 1870 01:25:16,862 --> 01:25:18,862 THAN I REALIZE, I'M NOT GONNA GIVE UP 1871 01:25:18,862 --> 01:25:20,586 AND I'M NOT GOING TO FAIL AT THIS 1872 01:25:20,586 --> 01:25:22,034 BECAUSE THERE'S A FUTURE OUT THERE 1873 01:25:22,034 --> 01:25:24,206 THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MINE TO BEGIN WITH. 1874 01:25:24,206 --> 01:25:25,482 AND I GAVE IT UP TO FOOD 1875 01:25:25,482 --> 01:25:27,862 AND OTHER THINGS THAT HAVE KEPT ME FROM IT. 1876 01:25:27,862 --> 01:25:29,965 SO I'M FIGHTING TO GET BACK WHAT'S MINE 1877 01:25:29,965 --> 01:25:32,000 AND I'M NOT GONNA LET MYSELF STOP UNTIL I SUCCEED.